Blackwell Family
Henry Blackwell & Martin
Hiram Blackwell & Timothy
Louisa Wilton Blackwell & Pearl
Cora Blackwell
Wilton Family
Gilbert Wilton & Harold
Virginia Wilton & Dolly
Bette Wilton & Vera
Jesse Wilton & Russ
Reggie Wilton & Benjamin
Eli Carmichael & Owen
Lyle Benson
Darwin Hatch
Blackwell Slaves
Nurse: Esther
Butler: Randolph
Footmen: Paul, Billy
Housekeeper: Dora
Cook: Bertie
Scullery Maids: Vida, Ruby
Chambermaids: Peggy, Delia, Katie
Parlor Maids: Lucy, Ruth, Ellen
Laundress: Mary
Laundry Maid: Sally
Gardener: Pat
Coachmen: Old Bob, Jack
Grooms: Jerry, Arthur
Stable boys: Little Bob, Danny
Errand Boy: Johnny
Algonquin School
Walter Addison & Harvey
Jeremy Blankenship & Ray
Joshua Brand & Miles*
Louis Briggs & Peter*
Freddie Caldwell & Tom*
Albert DeWitt & Stuart*
Randall Fox & Howard
Wendell Franklin & Ralph*
Maurice Gaines & Ollie
Daniel Hollingsworth & Allen
Gordon Lovejoy & Julian*
David Maxwell & Alex*
Adam Pettibone & Sam
Charles Ross & Simon*
Victor Spence & Will*
Robert Townsend & Dick*
Philip van Houten & Davey*
*Henry’s
friends
They arranged
themselves in the middle of the bed, head to tail. Henry loved the
bitter-salty taste of Martin’s prick, loved the slippery heat of
Martin’s mouth. They writhed together, moaning and slurping, lost
in sensation, when there came a crisp knock at the door.
Martin jerked away,
eyes wide, saying, “Under the covers, Sir!” in a hoarse whisper.
He slid from the bed and ran for the dressing gown hanging on the
bathroom door as the knock came again.
“Just a moment,
please,” Martin called out, shoving his arms into the dressing gown
and wrapping it tight around his torso. His prick was still hard,
pushing at the heavy flannel and tenting it out from his body. Henry
scrambled to get beneath the blankets as Martin unlocked the door.
“Yes?” Martin
kept as much of himself behind the door as possible, which he opened
little more than a crack.
“Mr. Blackwell’s
father is wondering if he plans to come down for lunch,” Paul said.
In a lower voice, he added, “I don’t think he’s meant to have a
say in the matter, actually, Martin.”
“Oh! Please tell
him Mr. Blackwell will be down directly,” Martin said. “Thank
you, Paul.”
He shut and locked
the door again. “Did you hear that, Sir?”
Henry nodded; he’d
also heard the nervous honorifics. “I did. We’ll go down, I
suppose. But if I’m having lunch with him, that means you’ve
missed yours entirely.” Martin hadn’t taken lunch earlier with
the rest of the slaves, and he couldn’t sit down and eat with Henry
with Father also at the table.
“Perhaps I’ll
eat later, Sir.” Martin did not seem concerned with getting a meal,
but rather with getting Henry dressed. “Please, Henry, get up.
Don’t dawdle.”
Henry swung his legs
out of bed and stood to allow Martin to dress him in the clothes he’d
had on in the morning. Martin quickly dressed himself and tied his
hair neatly back. It had only taken them a few minutes, but doubtless
Father would still be annoyed at Henry’s tardiness, though Henry
did not think it fair for Father to judge him harshly when he hadn’t
realized there were any expectations of him in the first place.
Down in the
breakfast room, Father and Timothy were seated at the table. Timothy
gave Henry a smile; Father gave him a long, hard look, quite
critical.
“You’ve found
something engrossing to do on this dismal day, I take it?” Father
asked.
Henry flushed with
mortified dread. “Uh…yes, sir. I’ve been…reading.” He did
not sound confident of this, however, and he suspected Father did not
believe him.
Father scowled at
him until he felt his face was on fire.
“Aren’t you
going to have Martin prepare you a plate, son?”
“Oh! Yes, please,
Martin, will you fix me something?”
“Of course, Sir.”
Martin went to the sideboard and began to select sandwiches.
Looking at Timothy
serenely eating his lunch, Henry wished he could follow his father’s
example and ask Martin to sit down, but he was not at all sure his
father would allow it and did not want to ask and have Father deny
Martin the privilege outright. He resolved that he’d make sure
Martin was properly fed as soon as possible.
“It’s been some
time since I’ve seen you on a Saturday, Father.” Henry’s voice
went up a register at the end of his sentence, making him sound
shamefully unsure of himself.
Father dabbed at his
mustache with a napkin. “Is that a question?”
“Er…no, just an
observation, sir.”
“I had a rare free
hour,” Father said. “I expected I would see you at table at
noon.”
“I’m sorry, sir.
I-I don’t come at any set time.”
“You might
consider keeping to a schedule,” Father remarked. “It’s a form
of discipline, and you could certainly use more of that.”
Sullenly, Henry
said, “Yes, sir,” and began to eat his lunch.
“Does your mother
ever join you?”
Henry swallowed.
“Almost never, sir,” he admitted. He didn’t feel compelled to
cover for Mother; after all, Father knew what she was like.
“Hmph. Another
person who could use some discipline.”
“Now, really,
Sir,” Timothy said, his tone amused and slightly admonishing. No
one else would dare speak to Father in such a way.
Father did not mind
Timothy’s mild scolding. “Are you almost done, old man?”
Timothy coughed
behind his napkin. “Yes, Sir. I’m quite full.” He stood and
went to help Father out of his chair.
Martin also hurried
to pull out Henry’s chair so he could stand to shake his father’s
hand.
“Discipline,
Henry.”
“Yes, sir.”
Father gave Henry a
doubtful look and shook his head before leaving the breakfast room,
Timothy at his heels.
Henry sat quietly
and listened to the sounds of Father and Timothy preparing to leave
the house echoing down the marble-floored hall. When the front door
had shut behind them, he turned in his chair and looked up at Martin.
“They’re gone.
You can eat now, don’t you think?”
Martin nodded. “It
should be all right, Sir.”
After Martin was
seated with a full plate before him, Henry leaned close and in a low
voice asked, “Do you think my father knew?”
“Knew what, Sir?”
“Knew what we were
doing.”
Martin thought a
moment. “He couldn’t possibly know the specifics, Sir, but I’m
sure he had some idea I was helping you achieve release.”
Henry felt heat rise
up from his collar, coloring his cheeks and the tips of his ears.
He’d rather hoped Martin would say otherwise, but Martin wasn’t a
liar.
“But, really,
Sir,” Martin said, “it’s an entirely respectable activity. You
needn’t be ashamed. It’s a large part of what young gentlemen
have slaves for, after all.” He took a bite of his sandwich and
chewed.
Henry wished he
could be relaxed about it, just as Martin was.
“You’re a very
private person, Sir,” Martin continued. “It is important
to keep—” and here he lowered his voice “—some things
secret, but not anything any of your friends might do without
concern.” He thought a moment, then added, “It might even be a
good idea to share a little more with your friends, Sir. Just things
you have in common with them. You’d stand out less, Sir. It’s
something to consider.”
Martin was probably
right—no, Martin was definitely right—but Henry couldn’t
countenance relating any of the intimacies he shared with Martin to
his friends, even a heavily-edited version. He did not trust himself
to get it right, to share just the right amount, and felt quite
certain he’d give too much away.
They ate their
sandwiches, followed by yellow cake with chocolate icing, and left
the dining room. Upstairs, Henry pushed Martin up against the door
and kissed him hard and thoroughly, enjoying the sugary sweetness of
his mouth. They undressed on their way to the bed, leaving a
straggling trail of clothing on the floor behind them. Martin
insisted on straightening the bedding that Henry had earlier put into
disarray, but then they climbed up onto the bed and picked up where
they’d left off.
Martin let Henry’s
cock slide out of his mouth. “Henry, Henry please.”
“What is it?”
“Put your fingers
in me, please, Henry.” He sucked Henry’s cock back into
his mouth and moaned around it as Henry did as he’d asked. Henry
crooked his fingers inside Martin’s body and Martin was shuddering
still and spilling down his throat in short order.
It didn’t take
long for Henry after that; he felt he could come at will once Martin
was satisfied. Martin lay with him a few minutes enjoying the
afterglow but soon became restless.
“Henry?”
“Yes?”
“While you’re
resting, could I play my violin?”
“Naked?”
“Would you like
that?”
Henry loved the idea
of watching Martin play nude, dipping and swaying with his
pink-and-white skin bared and tawny hair hanging loose. “Yes, of
course. I’d love that.”
“I’ll just go
get it, then.”
Violin held ready,
Martin stood naked a few feet from the bedside, elegant and poised,
and began playing the first movement of the partita, the allemande.
He quickly lost himself in the music, eyes closed and brow furrowed
in concentration. Henry lay back amongst the pillows and took full
advantage of the opportunity to admire Martin at leisure,
appreciating the play of lean muscles beneath pale skin. As Martin
shifted his weight from side to side, the fans of tendons across the
tops of his feet were in fleeting evidence; likewise, the cords stood
out on the back of his bow hand, and the muscles tensed and relaxed
in his forearms as he played. Sharply-defined muscles were taut in
his long thighs. Eyes still closed, his handsome face was shaped by
effort into something almost saintly, suffering beautifully as his
fingers formed the notes. His pretty cock lay limp in its nest of
curls at first, but began to thicken as he played, and surely this
was because Henry was watching him.
Perhaps a quarter of
an hour passed while Martin played the first four movements with
surety and skill, the music leaving his bow in silvery, sparkling
ribbons. Over the course of these few months, Henry had become very
familiar with this music, but he never tired of it. Martin’s love
of the partita was exalted, spiritual in nature, and Henry’s was
just dumb, animal pleasure, but it was love all the same. He didn’t
know one note from another, but he knew the tunes and recognized the
movements, and this knowledge made him feel sophisticated and allowed
him to feel closer to Martin. The partita was definitely something
they shared now, something of theirs.
Martin hesitated a
long moment at the end of the gigue and then began the
difficult chaconne. He played only a minute or so before he
lifted the bow from the strings, and smiled at Henry. “Do you
remember when you touched yourself? While I was playing?”
Henry reddened. Of
course he remembered! How could he possibly have forgotten? But all
he said was, “Yes, I remember.” It had been mortifying and
exhilarating in equal parts.
“We could do that
next.” Martin’s half-hard cock lurched toward vertical at the
idea.
Henry looked at him
quizzically. “While you play?”
Martin laughed. “No,
we could just touch ourselves. And each other, too, if you’d like.”
“We could…”
Henry agreed slowly. He felt a little shy of doing it but was
unwilling to give in to this reticence. He could do this with Martin,
to make Martin happy.
Martin beamed at
him. “Let me just put away my violin.” He hurried into his own
room and returned a few seconds later with a stiff prick and a look
of happy anticipation on his handsome face. He got up onto the bed
and sat close at Henry’s left side, their shoulders and hips
rubbing, back against the headboard and legs stretched out before
him. His prick stood upright, close to his belly, slick at the head.
He reached for Henry’s prick, still soft, and Henry was embarrassed
of this.
“I-I feel a little
shy,” Henry admitted. He’d really only let Martin see him do it
the one time.
“You know you
don’t have to be shy with me,” Martin reminded him gently. “You
can show me anything, anything at all.” He touched his own hard
prick with a graceful gesture. “If you want, you can just watch me
for now. Just until you feel in the mood.”
Martin put on an
appealing show. His left hand stayed busy on his prick, but the right
ranged over all his skin, all his body, touching his nipples and
throat and ticklish sides. The little noises Martin made as he petted
and stroked himself were like a muted version of the sounds he made
when Henry touched him, when Henry was inside him, and the timbre of
his voice went straight to Henry’s prick, which bobbed drunkenly
upright from his lap.
Henry determined to
act like a man and took up his cock with resolve and purpose, though
his stomach was fluttery with nerves. He started with a few firm
strokes, setting a pace, very aware of Martin’s eyes on his moving
hand.
Martin made a
pleased sound and bent his head to kiss Henry’s shoulder. “I know
I always tell you this, Henry, but you have the most beautiful cock.”
“Yours is much
prettier,” Henry said, believing it with all his heart.
Martin shifted
closer, fairly glued to Henry’s side. Henry was very aware of the
sound of their rasping breaths and the wet, slick slip of their hands
moving over their cocks. He watched Martin’s deft fingers slide his
foreskin up over the glistening head of his cock and then off again,
over and over, and he felt the pattern in his own body,
unintentionally duplicating Martin’s rhythm, picking up speed.
Martin leaned harder
still against Henry’s side, nearly on top of him, and made an
impatient little grunt, as if he still couldn’t get close enough.
He got up on his knees and turned to straddle Henry’s lap, which
Henry had not been expecting and it threw him off his rhythm.
Martin said, “Keep
going.” He braced his hands against the headboard, and kissed Henry
tenderly, searchingly, making a little throaty sound of satisfaction
as Henry licked past his lips. He did something sinuous and melting
with his tongue that caused Henry to squirm with arousal, and that
combined with his own hand moving erratically over his slippery prick
made him moan into Martin’s mouth.
Martin rested his
forehead against Henry’s and together they looked down at Henry’s
hand moving over his length. Martin gave a low moan and his prick
jerked against his belly.
“It makes me so
hot to see you like this, Henry,” he murmured, his lips brushing
Henry’s. “Showing me what feels good.”
It made him blush to
admit it, but he said, “I-I want you to see.” He wanted Martin to
know him utterly and completely. “You,” he emphasized.
“Only you.”
Martin held Henry’s
face between his hands and gave him such a fond smile. “Oh, Henry.”
He kissed him again, lingering and ardent. “I want you to touch me
now.”
“Yes.”
Henry immediately reached for Martin’s pretty cock and found it
hard and eager. “You touch me, too.”
Martin’s hand felt
better than his own, a thousand times better, and he wondered if it
was the same for Martin. They stroked and jerked one another while
they kissed. Martin came whimpering Henry’s name, and Henry came
with a tragic groan and crushed Martin to his chest.
Afterward, there was
semen on their hands, their thighs, their bellies, and Martin frowned
at the mess.
As Martin wiped
spunk from the shallow cup of his navel, Henry asked, “Are you a
little sore?”
Martin laughed. “A
little. Just when I come. But it still feels good.”
“Oh, yes, of
course it feels good anyway,” Henry agreed. “But I’d never
considered that maybe there’s a practical limit to how many times
we can do it, that it might hurt too much to keep going.”
“Well, we won’t
torture ourselves.” Finished with his work, Martin put his basin
down on the nightstand. “If it hurts too much, we’ll have to
stop.” He lay down and curled against Henry’s side, within the
curve of his arm.
“I can still keep
going. Can you?”
Martin turned his
head to kiss Henry’s chest. “Yes, I can, too.”
“Do you want to
take a nap?” Henry asked. “Just a little one?”
“We can’t sleep
too long,” Martin cautioned.
“We’ve done it
five times,” Henry said. “We’ve already set a record.”
Martin shook his
head, not content to rest on their laurels. “We can set a better
record, I know we can.”
“Nap first,”
Henry insisted, kissing Martin’s forehead. “I’m sleepy.”
“I’ll set an
alarm, then,” Martin decided, rolling to reach for the clock.
Henry fell quickly
asleep and dreamed he was called on in Latin class, and when he stood
to give his answer, his hard prick jutted out the open fly of his
trousers, and his answer wasn’t a declension, but a demonstration
of his masturbatory technique. Unashamed, he took himself in hand,
and when he finished with a flourish, Dr. Foster said, “Very good,
Mr. Blackwell,” and gave him an A.
“Henry. Henry,
wake up.” Martin shook him gently, breath warm against his cheek.
Henry yawned and
rolled to face him. “I’m awake.”
“Do you feel
rested?” Martin smoothed Henry’s hair back from his forehead and
stroked his cheek, his jaw, the line of his throat, with an
expression of such melting tenderness that Henry felt quite overcome
with gratitude, so thankful for Martin’s boundless affection. He
felt full up with love and wanted to give it all to Martin.
“I feel good,”
he said, tracing the edge of Martin’s tattoo with his finger. “I’m
ready to do whatever you want.”
Martin propped
himself up on his elbow and smiled down at Henry. “I want to ride
you and come on your chest.” He reached for Henry’s wrist and
pulled Henry’s hand to his stiffening cock.
Henry could see
nothing wrong with this plan. He fondled Martin’s cock, letting it
grow hard and straight in his hand. Martin leaned in and kissed him,
just the barest brush of his lips and a flick of his tongue. Martin
lingered a long moment with their eyelashes tangling and then kissed
him again, harder, with an emphatic little grunt as Henry opened his
mouth to him.
As they kissed,
Martin pushed Henry down on his back and lay down on top of him,
everything lining up as if they’d been made as a set, a matched
pair. Martin moaned in rhythm with the movements of his hips, his
cock sliding alongside Henry’s between their flat bellies. He held
Henry’s head where he wanted it and ravished his mouth, his tongue
finding all the sensitive places and drawing urgent whimpers from
Henry’s throat.
The closeness that
Henry felt, it wasn’t just their bodies. Here, with Martin so
ardent and intent, what they were doing felt momentous, vital. He
wasn’t like his friends with their slaves, all casual rutting and
careless treatment. What he did with Martin had an effect on him,
shaped him. It wasn’t just that it felt good. It meant
something.
Henry trembled, a
seismic shudder, and clutched Martin closer. He broke off kissing and
buried his face in Martin’s soft neck.
“Henry?”
“You’ll be with
me forever,” Henry blurted, a plea and a demand, his voice
muffled against Martin’s skin.
“Henry?” Martin
tried to push himself up, but Henry wouldn’t let him go.
“You’re mine.”
“Hey…” Martin
petted Henry’s hair and bent to kiss his head. “Of course I am.
And you belong to me.”
“I do,”
Henry insisted. This mutual belonging meant so much to him, and he
wanted it to mean more than sex to Martin, too.
“You’re my own,”
Martin said softly. “My own dear Henry.”
Just yesterday,
Martin had said he hadn’t expected to feel so much for a master,
and Henry believed him, believed Martin cared for him, but Henry
wanted to put a word to their mutual regard, to label it and give it
validity. He wanted to be like other people, normal people; he wanted
to be able to own up to love, if that was what this was.
Nearly everything he
shared with Martin was forbidden, but he hadn’t yet done every
forbidden thing. He did his best to appear a passable gentleman, but
he knew his compliance with a few specific proscriptions would not
temper his friends’ scorn if they discovered his secrets. His
restraint wouldn’t convince his father, either. But so long as he
didn’t allow Martin to touch his asshole, he would tell himself he
wasn’t a fairy, despite everything.
But it was worse, he
knew, to allow Martin to touch his heart. A gentleman would never
fall in love with a slave. A gentleman would never fall in love with
another man. Combining two forbidden loves in one treasured person
was somehow worse than the sum of its parts. If Henry told Martin he
loved him, it might well crack the thin veneer of social
acceptability he wore so uneasily. He had to keep silent. It was
safer for both of them if he said nothing.
He thought that
Martin had some inkling, however. Looking up into Martin’s face, he
saw a reflection of his own fragile emotions, his own desire for
intimacy. Their physical attraction was a huge thing, overwhelming,
but it wasn’t everything between them. There was more. He met
Martin’s eyes and held his gaze, trembling all the harder. More
than anything, he wanted the closeness, but it terrified him.
Martin kissed him,
soft and lingering, his hair falling to either side of Henry’s face
like a curtain, making a private world. He broke the kiss but stayed
still a moment, resting his forehead against Henry’s. He let out a
soft sigh.
“Martin?”
“Let’s…make
love this time. Be sweet to each other.”
Henry agreed
readily. “Yes. I want that.”
Martin pushed
himself up and reached for the oil. He shifted to straddle Henry’s
hips, A fine string of fluid connected the tip of his pretty cock to
Henry’s belly. He wet his fingers with oil and reached back between
his cheeks to prepare himself, wincing a little at first. His
expression was serious, almost solemn, though he had bright spots of
color high on his cheekbones and his breath came through parted lips.
Martin put more oil
on his hand, a more generous amount this time, and reached back to
slick Henry’s cock. Martin’s slippery hand felt like silk sliding
over his skin and Henry’s cock jerked in his grip.
Softly, Martin
asked, “Are you ready?” He didn’t wait for an answer but knelt
up, held Henry’s cock in position, and eased back onto it, once
again wincing as his hole was breached. He gave a shaky sigh and let
his head fall forward, his hair falling in a sheet, obscuring his
face. “You feel so good inside me.”
Henry held his
breath as Martin took him in. The slick pressure around the head of
his cock felt so good, felt new every time. He pressed his hand flat
against Martin’s belly, feeling the muscles work as Martin tilted
his hips, arched his back. Martin lifted himself up until just the
head of Henry’s cock remained inside his body and paused a moment
there before sinking back down, a delicious molten slide that made
all the hairs stand up on Henry’s fevered skin.
Martin moved like
this a little while, languid but thorough, making use of Henry’s
length, muscles in his thighs flexing beneath Henry’s palms.
Despite his obvious pleasure, his expression remained serious,
thoughtful. Whenever Henry looked at his face, he was looking back,
meeting Henry’s eyes, and it was almost more than Henry could bear.
Under Martin’s intensely calm gaze, Henry felt laid open. No one
knew him like Martin did, and no one else ever would.
Henry took hold of
Martin’s cock in a loose fist, just touching it while Martin moved,
letting him push through the circle of his fingers. Martin let out a
shaky moan and Henry gave his cock a gentle squeeze, ran his thumb
through the slickness at the slit.
Henry felt impetuous
words welling up, thick in his throat. He wanted to tell Martin of
his outsized feelings, his burgeoning love, but instead he bit his
lip and tried to express himself through his actions, his hand on
Martin’s pretty cock.
Martin sighed and
ground himself down on Henry’s lap. “Henry,” he said. “Oh,
god, Henry.” He was wild-eyed, hair falling across his face.
He leaned forward to brace his hands on Henry’s chest and began to
move more forcefully, little grunts as his ass smacked against
Henry’s thighs. Henry reached back with both hands and grabbed
Martin’s cheeks, pulled them wide, and lifted his hips to meet
Martin’s buttocks. As Henry thrust up into him, Martin let out a
quavering moan and folded over onto Henry’s chest, his face pressed
against Henry’s neck. Henry slowed his movements but kept fucking
him, sliding steadily in and out, while Martin made little cat cries
and clung to his shoulders.
Sounding almost
bereft, Martin said, “It feels too good, Henry. Too good.”
He shivered and kissed Henry’s mouth, messy and whimpering with
need. He pressed his knees tightly against Henry’s sides and moved
against his thrusts, his timing erratic, making greedy little grunts
each time Henry plunged deep. Martin’s helpless desperation made
Henry want to protect and ravish him both. He dug his fingers into
Martin’s buttocks and fucked him in short, hard thrusts while they
kissed, Martin moaning into his mouth.
“Henry,”
Martin gasped. “Oh, god, Henry, please.”
“What is it?”
Henry asked. “What do you want?”
“Can I come,
Henry? Please?” As Henry thrust into him, he cried out and begged,
“Please,” again.
“Do it,” Henry
urged. “On me, like you said.”
Martin pushed
himself up off Henry’s chest and tossed his hair back. He was
breathing hard, shaking, with that same look of saintly suffering
that had shaped his face while he played the violin, but then he
smiled at Henry, bright as the light of a star. Looking at him,
seeing how emotional he was, made Henry emotional, too: so happy,
unbearably happy.
Martin lifted up off
of Henry’s lap and took hold of his cock with his left hand and
began to work it with efficient little flicks of his wrist. Henry
grasped Martin’s hips, planted his feet firmly on the bed, and
pounded up into Martin’s quivering ass while Martin made little
injured-sounding cries, like a broken bird.
“Oh, Henry! Oh,
please, Henry!” Martin shuddered and stilled, his cock
jerking in his hand, and his hot spunk hitting Henry’s skin with
force. “Oh! Oh, god!” The muscles in his belly contracted
in rhythm with his flexing cock as he eased himself down Henry’s
length. “You now,” Martin said breathlessly. “Please.
Don’t wait. Come in me while I’m still shaking.”
Henry did as he was
told, once again thrusting up into Martin’s plush, tight, perfect
ass while Martin whimpered and gasped, hanging over Henry with his
hands braced on the bed. Henry looked up and met Martin’s eyes, and
for a moment he was absolutely certain that Martin loved him, too,
and then he came in a cascade of dazzling white sparks, giving a
shaky groan as he gathered Martin close and wrapped his arms around
his back.
They stayed locked
together until their hearts slowed, until it began to matter that it
was hard to breathe holding each other so tight. With a sigh, Martin
climbed off Henry’s cock, which was still hard. A white pearl of
semen slid down the shaft and disappeared in coarse curls. Martin
stretched out at Henry’s side and put his head on his chest,
avoiding the skin that was slick with spunk.
“That was the best
we’ve done today,” Martin said softly. “Don’t you think?”
It was by miles.
“Definitely the best.” Henry kissed the top of Martin’s head.
They lay in
contemplative silence a few minutes, a bubble of intimacy, Henry
stroking Martin’s hair with shaking hands, full of feeling. Henry’s
love felt too big for his body. It made him feel nobler than he
possibly was. It might be the best thing about him.
“What are you
thinking about, Henry?”
He answered readily.
“How much I like you. How glad I am I found you.”
“I feel that too.
We’re lucky, aren’t we?”
Henry felt quite
confident that none of his friends shared this kind of precious
closeness with his slave. He felt he truly was a proper lover to
Martin, just as he wanted to be, and that it meant more than mere
sex.
“No one matters
more to me than you,” he said, giving it the force of a vow.
“I feel the same,”
Martin said. “Not because you’re my master—not because it’s
my work—but because I care for you, too.” He turned his head and
pressed a kiss to Henry’s chest and then rubbed his cheek on the
spot where he’d pressed his lips. “It hurt a little when I came,”
he admitted, seeming more amused than upset.
Henry laughed. “I’m
a little sore, too. How’s your ass?”
“It feels fine. It
feels good.”
“Promise to say
something if it’s too much.”
“It’s been only
three times with my ass,” Martin pointed out. “We’ve done that
lots of times before.”
“Promise.”
Martin’s sigh
implied Henry was being ridiculous. “I promise.”
They stayed close
and warm, Martin seeming content to stay put instead of bustling
around with his basin, and Henry appreciated this. He must have dozed
a little, because he was jolted alert by Martin asking a question.
“Henry, do you
want to try one more time before I go down, or should we wait until
after dinner?”
Henry felt heavy and
slow, not at all up to the task. “What? Oh, let’s wait.”
Martin sat up and
climbed over Henry and down off the bed, reaching for his basin on
the nightstand. Henry was just grateful Martin had been willing to
hold off as long as he had.
After Martin’s
ablutions were complete, he stretched out on top of Henry, his hair
spread across Henry’s face, and Henry reveled in the weight of him,
the solidity. He was lean, but he was substantial and real. Henry
wasn’t imagining him, even if he was something out of a
dream.
“Are you thinking
about what you want to do next?” Martin asked.
Henry laughed.
Martin was so driven! “No, I haven’t thought about it at all.”
“You want to keep
going, don’t you?” Martin seemed worried that this would not be
the case.
Henry would keep
going because that’s what Martin obviously wanted to do. He would
endeavor to keep going until Martin was satisfied; he was
already quite content.
“Of course we’ll
keep going,” Henry told him. “I’ll think about what we should
do while you’re at dinner.”
“I should get
ready,” Martin said, rolling off of Henry and getting down from the
bed. He moved about the room picking up the clothes they’d tossed
on the floor. He hung Henry’s suit in the wardrobe, carried their
soiled linens into his own room, and emerged fully dressed a short
time later looking very proper, his hair pulled back neatly.
“Do you need
anything before I go, Henry?”
“Just a kiss.”
Martin smiled and
bent over him to give him a kiss, soft and sweet, before leaving.
Alone, Henry, did
consider what they might do next. They had tried sex in all sorts of
contorted positions in the past, but neither had ever wanted to
revisit those poses. Some of the things Henry thought of seemed
unduly taxing of one or the other of the parties involved; maybe it
was enough to simply alternate general methods and follow Martin’s
rule.
Henry slept again,
this time without memorable dreams, and woke when Martin returned to
dress him for his dinner. Martin admitted with some amused
embarrassment that he must have been emitting some sort of inner red
light, an erotic aura that hinted at how he’d spent his day, as
Billy and Jerry had spent the dinner hour teasing him mercilessly
about the more intimate aspects of his job.
“They wouldn’t
let up, not until Mr. Tim told them to leave me alone.”
Henry didn’t like
the sound of this. “Are you sure you’re okay with them treating
you that way? I can say something about it.”
“Oh, no, it’s
fine, Henry. It was embarrassing, but I’m a little proud, too. I
don’t mind everyone knowing that I do a good job for you, and that
I enjoy it. I would be a terrible companion otherwise, don’t you
think?” He helped Henry on with his jacket and looked over his
shoulder, meeting his eyes in the mirror.
“It makes it so
much better that you enjoy it,” Henry assured him. “If I felt you
were just putting up with it, I wouldn’t want to do it nearly so
often. Probably not at all.”
“I love having sex
with you,” Martin said simply and solemnly. He came around and ran
his hands over the lapels of Henry’s jacket. “There, you’re
ready.”
Henry ate his dinner
without tasting it and was restless in the parlor while Pearl read,
impatient to return to his marathon.
“You have the
attention span of a gnat,” Father remarked about his fidgeting, and
Henry blushed at his disapproval.
Released to return
to his bedroom, Henry was undressed, and then Martin dealt with their
laundry while Henry brushed his teeth. Henry was tired, maybe even a
little tired of sex, but he determined he would soldier valiantly on
so long as Martin needed him to do so. Upon Martin’s return, they
made a seventh attempt, ultimately coming to a satisfactory
conclusion as they sucked one another’s cocks. Before their eighth
effort, both admitted to a little soreness and fatigue, but Martin
adamantly wanted to continue, so Henry spooned and fucked him while
they kissed.
The eighth orgasm
was pleasurable and painful in equal measure. Henry was ready to be
done, thinking eight times was quite enough, but Martin pressed for
one more go.
“I’m sure we
could have done it once more before dinner,” Martin said. “We
should do it once more now to make up for not doing it then.”
“Do you think you
can even come again?” Henry asked, feeling dubious about the
prospect for himself.
“Yes,” Martin
said firmly. “It might take a bit more work, but I’m sure I can.”
“All right,”
Henry said. “Once more. Whatever it takes to get the job done, even
if we have to break the rule.”
They tried a lot of
different things, variations on themes. Henry came the ninth time
with surprising ease with a combination of Martin’s mouth and
hands. Martin took longer, straddling Henry’s waist and tugging on
his own cock with Henry’s fingers hooked deep in his ass.
“Come on,” Henry
urged. “Come for me, you dirty boy.”
“Oh, god, Henry!”
Martin’s hand sped up.
“Come on me,
Martin. Do it.”
Martin moaned and
threw his head back. “Henry!”
“That’s right,”
Henry said encouragingly. “Do it for me, Martin. Come for me.”
Martin hunched over,
his hand moving erratically, and then stilled, the muscles in his
stomach jumping as his cock jerked out a few paltry drops of jism
onto Henry’s belly. “Oh,” he said, “Oh, god, Henry. That
hurts!” He laughed and folded forward into Henry’s arms. “That
really hurts!”
They rolled back and
forth on the sheets, giggling. Henry teased, whispering, “One more
time? Just once more?” and Martin laughed and shoved him away.
When at last Martin
got up to fill his basin again (which Henry thought entirely
unnecessary considering his meager final output), he moved a little
gingerly.
“Are you in pain?”
Martin smiled at
him. “I’m tender. It’s fine, though. I knew I would be but I
wanted to do it anyway.” He wiped Henry’s chest clean with a
dreamy smile. “We had a wonderful day, didn’t we?”
“It was amazing,”
Henry agreed.
“I was right. We
could have done it once more before dinner.”
“We did nine,
though, Martin. Nine’s a lot.”
“It is a
lot,” Martin conceded. “But ten would’ve been even better.
Double digits!”
Martin returned his
basin to the bathroom and then got into bed with Henry, curling up
against his chest. Henry felt raw and tender, emotionally and
physically, and he felt slightly in awe of Martin, whose endurance
seemed almost heroic.
As he was falling
asleep, sifting through the last traces of the glittering, epic
affection that had fueled his day, Henry felt so very lucky, so
blessed. His heart throbbed slow and heavy in his chest, aching with
inchoate feelings.
In the aftermath of
all their sex, Henry had a satisfying awareness of his physical self,
a sense that he was a particularly sleek, robust animal, and he
reveled in this confidence. He was not invincible, however, and he
couldn’t help wondering what would happen if—when—his
love for Martin continued to grow. He already felt quite at capacity,
skin tight, bursting at the seams, with scarcely room enough to draw
breath. If his affection increased, it seemed certain to blow him
apart, and the idea was exhilarating and terrifying both. When Henry
had dreamed of some intimacy with a boy, when it had all just been
imaginings, he’d never suspected it could be so tender. Even the
dirty moments, the rough moments, were sweet as nectar.
He was
gripped by a strong desire to be vulnerable with Martin, to be
utterly open to him, and he might have dared to say some extravagant,
passionate words if Martin had been receptive, but Martin was already
asleep, his breath warm against Henry’s throat. Henry smoothed his
hair back from his forehead and kissed his fluttering eyelids. His
affection for Martin was a pressure in his chest, in his throat,
bringing tears to his eyes. He drew Martin closer still and fell
asleep quickly, soothed by Martin’s steady breaths and the measured
beats of his heart.
Sunday morning,
Henry awoke with the muscles of his hips and ass pleasantly sore from
his day of vigorous sex. Martin was only just up and out of bed,
stretching with arms overhead and back arched, still naked. He had a
handspan bruise on his hip and Henry felt a peculiar satisfaction
knowing he’d put it there.
“Oh, you’re up
early,” Martin noted with a smile, seeing that Henry was awake.
“You don’t need to get up yet. You can sleep awhile longer if
you’d like.”
“You should come
back to bed,” Henry suggested, lifting the sheet in invitation.
“It’s nice and warm.”
Martin smiled again,
but shook his head. “I have to go down for my breakfast, Henry.”
“Eat with me
instead. My parents are never there.”
“But they could
be,” Martin pointed out. “Any day they might decide to eat with
you, and I don’t want to go hungry.”
“I wouldn’t let
you go hungry,” Henry promised. He patted the bed. “Just lie down
with me a minute.”
Martin laughed and
shook his head again. “I have to go downstairs. But if we’re
lucky, I’ll be able to sit down with you while you eat, too.” He
went into the bathroom and began running the taps for the shower.
Henry sighed and
flopped back against his pillow. He shifted, noting the satisfying
ache in his hips. He thought Martin would surely be sore, too, but
suspected he would not mind the discomfort either. Thinking over
their marathon day, Henry’s cock stiffened and he petted it idly, a
soothing gesture, while he remembered particularly tender moments,
specific angles, the roughness of Martin’s cries and the softness
of his mouth.
After an efficient
few minutes, the shower was shut off, and moments later a steamy mist
emanated from the hallway. Henry could hear Martin opening and
closing drawers in his own room.
“Martin?” he
called.
Martin appeared in
the doorway dressed in fawn trousers and unbuttoned shirt. His hands
went to the placket of the shirt as he said, “Yes, Henry?”
“How are you
feeling this morning? Are you sore?”
Martin grinned, his
cheeks pinking. He shook his head. “I feel good.”
Martin went
downstairs, and Henry intended to go back to sleep, but his eyes
didn’t want to stay closed. He rolled around restlessly, making a
messy nest of the bed, and buried his face in Martin’s pillow,
smelling his scent on the case.
While he was
dreamily breathing in vetiver, he remembered that Louis had broken
things off with Miss O’Malley last night while he’d been enjoying
himself with Martin—while they’d been enjoying each other. Even
if the break-up had gone relatively well for Louis, without tears or
accusations, Henry imagined it couldn’t have been a particularly
happy scene; after all, no matter how well Miss O’Malley took the
news, Louis was still going to end up without a girl.
Henry couldn’t
help comparing his own ideal situation to that of his friend and
thinking how much better off Louis would be if only he felt for Peter
what he’d claimed to feel for his Bridget.
Near lunchtime, and
when he was sure the Briggs family would have returned from church,
Henry called Louis to inquire about his evening.
“Come over,”
Louis suggested. “I don’t want to talk about it over the
telephone.” He didn’t sound happy, Henry noted.
After lunch, he and
Martin walked up to the Briggs house, Martin wincing a little from
time to time.
“You are
sore,” Henry said, concern and a faint accusation in his tone.
“Tell the truth, Martin. Did I hurt you?”
Martin smiled and
shook his head. “I am a little sore today, Sir, but I’m
fine. I promise you, I don’t mind it at all. We had such a good
day, don’t you think?”
It had been an
amazing day, a momentous day. “Yes,” Henry said. His whole body
was flooded with heat at the memories of everything they’d done,
everything they’d shared, and the way it had made him feel, not
just in his body but in his heart. “It was the best day.”
“What about you,
Sir? Are you sore?”
“It stings when I
pee,” Henry admitted in a low voice. “But I don’t care because
it just reminds me of everything we did.”
Martin laughed.
“Well, that’s how I feel about my ass, Sir.”
They were at the
Briggses’ front door. Patrick let them in and took their coats.
“Mr. Briggs is
expecting you,” Patrick informed them. “You’re welcome to go
upstairs.”
Louis was sitting on
the floor of his bedroom, a surly expression on his face, slumped
back against the footboard of his bed, arranging a handful of toy
soldiers with the air of a cat toying with a mouse.
“They’re
Teddy’s,” he explained. “I took them away from him.”
“Why?” Henry
asked, baffled.
Louis shrugged. “I
felt like it.” He flicked at a soldier with his fingernail and the
whole lot of them fell like dominos, scattered on the floor. He
looked up at Henry and his eyes were full of anguish.
Henry sat on the
floor beside Louis; Martin went to sit with Peter a few feet distant.
Henry didn’t have
to ask Louis any questions; he began speaking without preamble. “It
was pretty awful, Henry. She cried a lot,” Louis said, sounding
remorseful. “She wouldn’t take the money, so I gave it to her
friend to give to her later.” He hesitated and sighed. “I don’t
know, Henry. Maybe I made a mistake.”
Henry felt almost
positive that he had, but again did not say so. “Well, you know you
weren’t ever going to be able to marry her,” he pointed out,
hoping to make Louis feel better. “I know you had fun with her, but
it’s probably better that you got out before things got too
serious.”
“That’s the sort
of girl I ought to be with though,” Louis said. “Someone who
likes me, someone who likes sex, someone who’s not always
looking over my shoulder to find a more handsome guy.”
“There’ll be
girls like that,” Henry promised. “When we’re of an age to
think about marriage, there’ll be a girl, I know it.”
“She really liked
me,” Louis said, almost in wonderment. “She thought I was funny.”
His voice heavy with regret, he said, “And in the end, I treated
her like a whore.”
“You know,”
Henry suggested hesitantly, scooping up one of the soldiers to fidget
with, “I’ve been thinking…doing things James’ way might not
be the best for you, actually. You and James are pretty different,
after all.”
Louis was quiet a
long minute. “You could’ve said something before.” Louis
sounded more than a little accusatory. “If I thought you
were going to do something stupid, I’d say something.”
“I didn’t say
stupid!” Henry insisted. “Just…maybe you didn’t need
to treat her that way. Maybe you could’ve just said goodbye nicely,
if you had to say goodbye at all.”
“You don’t even
think I should have broken it off with her, do you?” Now Louis
sounded blatantly hostile.
Henry was beginning
to wish he hadn’t come over. “I-I didn’t say that, either. If
it was time to end it, you’d know better than I would. You don’t
need to take your mood out on me.”
Louis seemed to
recognize the truth in what Henry said. “Sorry. I just feel like I
made a bunch of mistakes, one after another, and now I feel bad about
hurting her feelings.”
“Could you make it
up to her?” Henry stood the soldiers up in a row.
“I doubt it,”
Louis told him. “She made it pretty clear she doesn’t want to
speak to me ever again.”
“Well…” Henry
didn’t know what to tell him. “You won’t make this mistake next
time, I guess.”
“If there’s
a next time,” Louis said darkly. “I should’ve just stuck with
Peter. That’s what he’s for, after all, and I don’t have
to have a bunch of feelings about it, either.”
Henry darted a
glance at Peter, who seemed unaffected by this statement. This was,
of course, certainly not Henry’s experience at all, but he supposed
it was possible that Louis felt no emotional connection to Peter, at
least no connection related to sex. “Sure,” he agreed. “That’s
what slaves are for.”
They all four played
poker for a short while, but Louis was restless and distracted.
“It’s your turn,
Sir,” Peter said gently. “Are you going to bet, Sir?”
Louis laid down his
cards. “I don’t want to play any more, I don’t think. I’m
sorry, Henry. I’m just feeling so down.” He sat slumped so low he
was practically lying on his back.
“Do you want me to
go?”
“No, stay. Talk to
me. Do you know any gossip?”
Henry did not. Louis
was the one who heard gossip. Henry was silent, racking his brain for
any tidbits of interest.
“I-I know some
gossip, Sir,” Martin suggested in a nervous voice. “It’s only
slave gossip, of course, Sir, but maybe you’ll find it amusing.”
“Oh?” Louis
lifted his head and looked a little interested. “About which
slave?”
“Alex, Sir. Mr.
Maxwell’s slave.”
“You don’t like
Alex, do you?” Louis recalled.
“N-no, Sir,”
Martin admitted. “We don’t get along.”
“Do you know what
gossip he’s talking about?” Louis asked Peter.
“I think so, Sir,
but I’ll let him tell it.”
“Well, Sir,”
Martin said, sitting up straighter, “as you may already know, Alex
asked Mr. Maxwell for permission to court a girl who belongs to
another house and Mr. Maxwell said no, which of course is his right.
Alex wasn’t at all happy about this—”
“He wasn’t,
Sir,” Peter put in. “He said some very disrespectful things where
everyone could hear.”
“Like what?”
Louis asked, definitely interested.
Peter’s face
reddened. “It was extremely inappropriate, Sir.”
“Just say it,
Peter. Tell me what he said.”
Peter looked very
much as if he wished he’d kept his mouth shut. “He said things
about Mr. Maxwell’s performance in bed, Sir. Of course, it’s not
Mr. Maxwell’s job to please Alex, Sir, but Alex said that he
didn’t.”
“Really?” Louis
seemed intrigued and quite frankly delighted by this bit of
information.
“So Alex wasn’t
happy at all, Sir,” Martin continued. “He became very resentful
of Mr. Maxwell and began doing little things, little acts of
defiance, to see if Mr. Maxwell would notice and reprimand him.
Things like mismatching shirt studs and cuff links, or deliberately
giving him wrong answers for homework.”
“So did David
notice?”
“Mr. Maxwell
thought they were honest mistakes, Sir, but in the meantime Alex was
telling everyone at school exactly what he’d done, trying to get
back at Mr. Maxwell for denying him the privilege of courting this
girl.”
“Do all of you
talk so freely about your masters?” Louis asked. “I’ve got to
say, I don’t like that idea at all.”
“We all share
things with our particular friends, Sir,” Peter admitted. “But
most of us are careful what we share even then. We don’t want our
masters gossiped about. Alex practically invited gossip, Sir, going
on like he did.”
“Mr. Maxwell was
very tolerant of Alex’s ‘mistakes,’ Sir, and so Alex had to try
harder to get his attention,” Martin continued. “It was very
childish and immature of him, I must say. He waited until Mr. Maxwell
was asleep and left his room to go spend the night with one of the
Maxwell chambermaids, and they both got thoroughly drunk on liquor
they’d stolen, and when Mr. Maxwell woke up, Alex wasn’t there.”
Henry imagined
waking up and finding Martin gone; he would be frantic. Perhaps David
wasn’t as attached to Alex as Henry was to Martin, but it must have
been disconcerting at the very least.
“What do you think
he was trying to accomplish?” Louis asked. “Did he want a
whipping?”
“He doesn’t make
a lot of sense to me, Sir,” Martin said. “I don’t know if he
even considered what might happen. As you know, I don’t get
along with him, and his incomprehensible behavior is one reason.”
He considered the situation a moment, then added, “I think he just
wanted to hurt Mr. Maxwell. It’s quite a betrayal just for him to
have told the rest of us slaves about the sex they have, and then
trying to make Mr. Maxwell look like a chump by deceiving him and
talking about it…it would never be my way, Sir, nor
Peter’s.”
“No, of course
not, you’re good slaves,” Louis agreed. “So did David have to
hunt him down? How did this all play out?”
“They searched all
over the house for him, Sir, Mr. Maxwell along with some of the other
Maxwell slaves, and they found him still drunk and naked with this
girl. Mr. Maxwell was furious, of course, and dragged Alex out of the
girl’s bed.”
“What day was
this?” Louis asked. “Remember, Henry, there was that day when
David missed English and showed up for Mr. Granger’s class in a
foul mood? That must have been it.”
Henry did remember.
“He wouldn’t tell anyone why he was late. He’s got more sense
than his slave, then, I guess.” Henry turned to address Martin and
Peter. “Because Alex had to have told you all of this himself,
right?”
“Yes, he did, Sir.
He was bragging about it,” Martin said. “Mr. Maxwell Senior
decided that it wasn’t worth punishing Alex over, so he felt like
he’d gotten away with something.”
“It sounds like
he’s crazy,” Louis noted. “Actually not right in the head. I
feel bad for David having a slave who’s nuts.”
“I’ve never
liked Alex, Sir,” Martin reminded them, his tone a little snooty.
“What house is he
from, again?” Louis asked. “I’m trying to picture his mark…”
“Nereus, Sir,”
said Peter.
“Nereus is a newer
house, of course, Sir,” Martin said in the same judgmental tone.
“But I know they go through the same sort of psychological testing
that Ganymede slaves do, so he must have been very crafty to pass.”
“We had to pass
tests, too, Sir,” Peter added. “Everyone does. No one is supposed
to act like Alex is acting, no matter which House he’s from.”
Louis seemed quite
cheered. “This is very interesting information,” he told the
slaves. “Why didn’t either of you tell us before?”
Martin looked
abashed. “We really shouldn’t have told you at all, Sir. It’s
not done to spread gossip about masters—”
“Even when the
slave is asking for it, like Alex is doing, Sir,” Peter
interjected.
“It’s not done,
Sir,” Martin continued, “because we don’t want our own masters
talked about.”
“Martin’s very
careful anyway, Sir,” Peter noted. “He never talks about Mr.
Blackwell at all.” Peter darted a glance at Henry and gave him a
quick smile. “And I never have anything to talk about with you,
Sir, since you just tell all of your friends everything anyway.” He
laughed and Louis joined him. “But some of the others are not so
discreet.”
“Like who?”
Louis asked. “Tell me more!” Obviously, this gossip was cheering
Louis up a great deal.
Henry also wanted to
know more but felt shy about saying so. It was a relief to think that
Martin really didn’t talk about him with the other slaves, but it
also reminded him that Martin could, and if Martin were
indiscreet, Henry’s life would be ruined.
“M-maybe I could
tell you some things without using names, Sir? Would that be all
right? I would feel better about betraying confidences if I could do
it that way.” Martin was understandably hesitant; he was, after
all, betraying his friends for the sake of entertaining Louis.
Louis thought on it
a moment. “Well, it’s not as fun that way, but I guess it would
be all right,” he allowed.
Martin also took a
moment to gather his thoughts. “There’s one of your friends,
Sirs, who makes his slave compliment him on his cock, making him say,
‘Oh, Sir, your cock is so big,’ and ‘Oh, Sir, your cock is so
beautiful,’ and makes him pretend to choke on it, but of course his
cock isn’t big in the least. Quite to the contrary, Sir, and he
doesn’t come anywhere near close to satisfying his slave.” After
a brief pause, Martin added, “Of course, it’s not a master’s
job to satisfy the slave, Sir, but most do at least try.”
Louis snorted in
amusement.
“Lots of the
masters want to be reassured their cocks are impressive, Sir,”
Peter pointed out.
“I’m not worried
on that account,” Louis said, laughing and clearly bragging. Henry
laughed with him but of course gave no indications as to the nature
of his own cock, satisfactory or otherwise, and Martin maintained a
polite, bland expression while the others chuckled.
“Another of your
friends is worried that having sex with his companion will turn him
into an invert, Sir,” Martin said. “He’s very concerned that
he’ll get too accustomed to seeing a boy’s body during sex and
won’t be attracted to a woman when he finally has one in front of
him. So he bought his slave a gown, Sir, and makes him dress up and
paint his face before they have sex—”
“He makes him
simper and act coy, Sir, like how he imagines women act,” Peter
added. “He even calls him by a girl’s name sometimes, can you
imagine?”
Louis looked at
Peter. “Petra,” he said. He turned to look at Martin. “Martina.”
Then he began to laugh again, deep belly laughs, and clutched his
sides. Louis was still rolling on the floor when Peter began to speak
again.
“Did you know,
Sirs, that there’s at least one master who kisses his
slave?” Peter said. He caught Martin’s eye and said, “You know
who I’m thinking of,” and Martin nodded reluctantly, seeming a
little uncomfortable with the tack the conversation was taking.
“Really?” Louis
was riveted, definitely interested. “And the slave told
you?”
“He only told
because he wanted advice, Sir,” Peter explained. “He doesn’t
like it at all, but he doesn’t want to get his master in trouble
with his family, and if he told the master’s father or the father’s
companion, then his master would definitely be in hot water. He just
wanted advice on how to get his master to stop.”
Henry felt sorry for
this master who surely intended his kisses to be pleasant for his
slave, and he also felt badly for the slave who had to put up with
unwanted attentions. Henry thought it deplorable that slaves had to
put up with malicious acts by their masters, but it must be nearly as
terrible to endure affectionate acts that were unwelcome. Yet, for a
good slave, were any acts actually unwelcome? Wasn’t it part of the
companion’s job to be receptive?
“What did you all
tell him, then?” Louis asked. “How to get the master to stop?”
“No one had good
advice, Sir,” Martin admitted. “Most just suggested eating lots
of onions or being deliberately bad at kissing. Things like that. If
a master is determined to kiss a slave, Sir, there’s really nothing
the slave can do about it without souring the relationship entirely.”
“Yeah, I can see
how going to the master’s dad or the dad’s companion isn’t
really a good option either,” Louis mused. “The dad would get
angry at the master for acting like a fairy, at the very least, and
it would be embarrassing all around.” He thought another moment,
then added, “I’ll bet a lot of the masters have been
inappropriate with their slaves, though, right?” He looked between
Peter and Martin, both of whom wore studiously blank expressions and
averted their eyes. “Fine, don’t say, but I know I’m right.
Some of the guys have confessed things to me—”
“To you?”
Henry said, surprised. Louis was not known for keeping secrets,
though he supposed Louis might be considered a sympathetic ear.
“I can keep
a secret if I have to,” Louis said, defensive and a little proud.
“And I’m not going to name names, but some of our friends have
gone a little further than they’re supposed to, let’s just say.”
Henry desperately
wanted to know which of their friends Louis was talking about, but
didn’t think he could press him for names. Maybe Martin would tell
him later, because surely Martin would know.
“We’re young,”
Henry said with a shrug. “People make mistakes when they’re
young, right?” Considering his own behavior, he was more than
willing to be a little generous with their friends who might have
strayed from the righteous path.
Louis shook his
head. “I worry about some of these guys, Henry. Touching slaves,
after all…it’s a slippery slope, and there’s a big pile-up at
the bottom.” He laughed, though. “Of course, all of our friends
are rich, and almost anything can be smoothed over with money. Maybe
they don’t have anything to worry about, after all.”
Henry laughed, the
sound of it very false to his ears, but seemingly believable to the
others. “Yeah, probably not. Money solves most problems.”
It was time for
Peter’s dinner, then, so they took their leave. Louis was in much
better spirits as he told them goodbye, and Henry was grateful to
Martin for cheering him up.
“I could tell it
made you uncomfortable to share that gossip with him,” Henry said,
jumping a puddle as they crossed the street. “I really appreciate
that you did it, though. You helped my friend, Martin. Thank you for
that.”
Martin looked very
pleased at the praise. “You’re welcome, Sir. I don’t like
seeing Mr. Briggs so unhappy, either.”
“It was a mistake
for him to break up with Miss O’Malley, though.”
“Oh, definitely,
Sir.”
“You told me to
telephone him and I didn’t do it,” Henry noted. “I should’ve
listened to your advice.”
“Oh, well, Sir,
what’s done is done,” Martin said, clearly uncomfortable with
this line of conversation.
They got home and
went upstairs before Martin would have to go down again for his own
dinner. Henry hurried to his room, tugging Martin along by the wrist.
Inside, he held Martin close and felt such gratitude for what they
had together. He would never have Louis’ problems. He would never
have to mess around with dance hall girls, would never have to worry
about whether he was only liked for his money. Thinking of the other
young masters, he couldn’t imagine a scenario in which Martin would
betray or defy him, and he felt quite sure that Martin wasn’t lying
about enjoying sex with him. Their relationship was perfect. He would
never have to worry about Martin leaving him. He would have Martin
for the rest of his life, and having Martin made that life worth
living.
Cora’s birthday
was on Wednesday, which Henry would not have remembered, but Martin
had learned this from Nurse and on Tuesday morning reminded Henry as
he dressed him for school.
“So what should we
do?” Henry asked. Unless things had changed a great deal since his
own childhood, there wouldn’t be a party, as such. He lifted his
chin so that Martin could tie his necktie.
“Well, Nurse says
there’ll be cake upstairs in the afternoon and that we’d be
welcome to join them when we get home from school. Little Miss would
be so happy, don’t you think? She’d love to see you.”
Henry snorted. “I
think it’s you she wants to see.”
Martin smiled at him
in the mirror. “She’ll be happier if we’re both there, then.”
After school, they
walked to the toy store in search of a suitable present, again at
Martin’s suggestion. Henry was at a loss as to what Cora might
appreciate. She had plenty of dolls. There were board games, but if
Henry got her one, he’d then have to play it with her. Maybe it
would have to be a doll after all; he would have to ask Martin’s
opinion as to which one might be best, since Martin knew more about
Cora’s existing assortment than he did.
Henry put down the
game he’d been looking at. “Martin?”
There was no reply,
and Henry looked around and saw no sign of Martin up or down the
aisle. Henry frowned, displeased that Martin had just wandered off
without saying a word. He went looking for him, and found him two
aisles over examining the contents of a large pasteboard box.
“Martin.” Henry
was prepared to be annoyed with him.
“Oh, there you
are, Sir. Look what I’ve found. I think Little Miss would love
this, don’t you?”
“You just wandered
off,” Henry said in an accusatory tone, but he looked at the box
Martin showed him and lost all interest in being blameful. “Oh!
That’s really good. Good job, Martin.”
The box held a
brightly-colored toy circus, very detailed, with jointed wooden
animals, clowns, a ringmaster, and a cloth tent to house them all.
“Look, Sir,
there’s even a dancing bear,” Martin said, giving it a little
poke with his fingertip. “Do you think she’d like it, Sir?”
“She’ll love it.
It’s perfect.” He put his arm around Martin’s back and gave him
a squeeze before he realized what he was doing. Flushing a furious
crimson, he pulled his hand back and looked around; no one had seen
him embracing his slave. “I’m glad you found it.”
Henry paid for the
circus—which was quite expensive—and the big box was wrapped in
brown paper and tied with a narrow red ribbon. Martin carried it to
the omnibus stop, but once they were on the omnibus, Henry held the
bulky package in his lap while Martin stood in the aisle.
Henry was tempted to
take it directly to Cora, so confident was he that she would love it,
and so eager was he for her thanks, but Martin convinced him to wait
until the morrow.
“She’ll like it
even better if she gets it with her cake, Sir,” Martin told him.
“She’ll like it better on her actual birthday.”
Martin was right, of
course. Henry then had to resist the urge to unwrap the box himself.
It was a charming toy; he could certainly see his way clear to
playing with it, should Cora want his company.
Henry woke on
Wednesday still full of enthusiasm about the toy circus and thought
about it from time to time throughout the day. He would have liked
such a toy himself when he was small. He couldn’t remember many of
his childhood toys—he hadn’t been attached to many of them, not
like Cora was with her dolls. He’d had a stuffed mouse named Pinky
that he slept with until he’d been brought down out of the nursery,
but he didn’t remember what had happened to him. Nurse would know.
After classes were
over for the day, Henry was impatient to return home but was
unwilling to admit to his friends that he was in a hurry to attend
his little sister’s birthday party, so lingered with them on the
forecourt of the school discussing their holiday plans. Several of
Henry’s friends were going with their families to visit relatives
out of town for Christmas, but most boys would be staying in the city
over the holidays.
While they loitered
in the chill air, Henry and his classmates made plans to get together
over the upcoming break. Henry was happy to receive the invitation to
Charles Ross' New Year's Eve party. It was his first invitation of
the year; he’d missed out on all the previous parties because of
his feelings about swapping, and it felt good to be included. He felt
confident, then, that this would be a regular party; Charles would
know better than to invite him to a swap party.
The adult Rosses
were having a fancy dress party of their own, and Charles and his
friends were to have their “children's” party in a separate wing
of the house.
“There'll be so
much liquor around,” Charles promised. “Last year, even the
chambermaids got drunk. All the slaves, really. It was a madhouse.
Believe me, we'll be able to get our hands on whatever we want.”
This sounded very
promising! Most of their class was invited, excepting Adam Pettibone
and his few cronies, for which Henry was grateful. He had done his
best to avoid Adam since their fight in October, and for once Adam
seemed content to stay clear of him, as well.
To Louis’ dismay
his grandmother was coming to visit from the Midwest and he would be
expected to spend more time with her than he thought she actually
warranted.
“At least you have
a grandmother,” Henry said, unsympathetic to Louis’ complaints.
Henry had no grandparents and rather envied the Briggs children their
bossy, loving Grandma Ida. Henry’s Grandfather Wilton had died long
before he was born. Grandmother Wilton had held on until he was 10,
but he remembered her only as a querulous and addled old woman with
wispy hair and clothes that smelled of mothballs.
Henry would be
spending Christmas as he always did, with his mother’s people, the
Wiltons. To the best of his knowledge, there were no Blackwell people
to spend holidays with at all. Henry liked the Wiltons but rarely saw
his mother’s relatives outside of their holiday party. They’d
seen the Wiltons more often when Henry was younger—Mother had
insisted on it then; she no longer fought Father on the matter now,
though Henry wasn’t sure whether she’d lost the will to do so or
merely the interest.
There were quite a
lot of Wiltons, actually. Henry’s grandparents had only three
surviving children, Mother and her brothers, but Grandfather’s two
brothers had had larger families, one with five children and the
other with seven, and many of these cousins of Mother’s had large
families of their own. They were Wiltons and Carmichaels and Bensons
and Hatches. Besides Henry’s cousins, Bette and Jesse, there were
also innumerable second cousins of all ages, many of whom would make
an appearance at the Christmas party.
Henry always felt
like an outsider at these Wilton parties, and certainly he was
one. He had not grown up within this big, friendly family, but on the
periphery of it, and felt it keenly. However, he did enjoy the little
time he got to spend with the Wiltons, and wished he could have more,
though he had never asked. Father didn’t like the Wiltons and Henry
did not wish to cross Father.
Henry was cold and
his nose was running. Louis seemed like he could talk for hours more
and Henry didn’t want to wait. “I’ve got to go. I’ll see you
guys tomorrow,” he said to the group as a whole with a wave of his
hand. “Come on, Martin.”
Martin broke away
from Tom and the rest of his friends and hurried to Henry’s side,
smiling broadly. “Are you eager to see your sister, Sir? I can’t
wait to see what she thinks of her present!”
Henry grinned, a
little embarrassed to be so excited about a toy. “Me, neither.
Plus, there’ll be cake.”
They hurried to the
omnibus stop. The car was crowded enough when they got on that both
had to stand, and Henry feigned an unsteadiness he didn’t really
feel so that he could sway and lean against Martin, who admonished
him in a low voice but snickered as he did so, clearly amused.
At home, they
hurriedly changed their clothes, Henry wearing his bottle-green suit
and the green-striped waistcoat.
“I do so like you
in this,” Martin said, and Henry wondered if he remembered that it
was what Henry had been wearing when they’d met. He had often
wondered what had happened to Martin’s tight Ganymede breeches; he
had not seen them again since that first afternoon.
Henry kissed him,
fond and lingering, and it was tempting to put off going upstairs,
but then Martin was giving him little placating pats on the arm and
pulling away.
“Let’s go
upstairs, Henry. I’m sure Little Miss is waiting very impatiently.”
They went up to the
third floor, Martin carrying their gift—Henry thought of it as
theirs rather than his, since Martin had chosen it—and Henry
knocked at the nursery door.
“They’re here!
Nurse, they’re here!” Cora called from within.
Nurse opened the
door, smiling, and ushered them inside. “Hello, Sir. Hello, Martin.
Little Miss is very excited you’re here with her today.”
Cora was picking her
way across the nursery floor, trying to avoid stepping on the toys
that were scattered everywhere. “Henry! You brought me a present!”
“Martin helped me
pick it out,” he told her. “It’s from both of us.” Nurse, he
thought, would not look askance at this assertion.
“Can I open it?”
She held her hands out for the package, fingers wiggling in
anticipation.
Henry looked at
Nurse, who frowned and shook her head.
“Let’s wait
until we’ve had cake, Miss. You’ve so been looking forward to
your cake.”
“When are we
having cake, then?” Cora asked. “Can we have it now, Nurse?”
“How do we ask for
things, Miss?”
A flicker of
annoyance passed over Cora’s face, balking at rules. “We say
please. Please can we have cake now?”
Nurse smiled and
stroked her hair. “I’ll call downstairs, Miss, and have them
bring it up for you.”
While Nurse went to
use the house phone, Cora took Henry by the hand and pulled him
deeper into the room and Martin followed, pausing en route to put the
birthday present down on the nursery table.
There were dolls
everywhere, and doll furniture, and plush toys. It appeared as though
everything that had been heaped on Henry’s old bed on their last
visit had been spread across the floor. Cora led them to the spot
near the cabinet house where it seemed she did most of her playing.
Baby Ann lay naked in the middle of a circle of dolls, also naked,
that leaned into one another and sat with splayed legs on the
linoleum.
“All those others
are some toys I wasn’t playing with any more,” Cora explained.
“Nurse said I should give them to charity, but I had to play with
them all again just to be sure I’m really done with them.”
“What did you
decide, Miss?” Martin asked, lowering himself to sit cross-legged
on the floor beside Baby Ann and the rest of the naked dolls. “Are
you finished with those old toys now?”
“It would be very
nice of me to give them to charity, wouldn’t it, Martin?” Cora
plopped down beside Martin and looked up earnestly into his face.
Martin laughed, but
not unkindly. “It would indeed, Miss. There are lots of little
girls who’d be happy to love your old toys.”
Henry wasn’t so
sure. Cora was very hard on her dolls, in his opinion, and even those
she favored looked somewhat grotesque and witchy, with snarled hair,
torn dresses, and grubby fingerprints marking their bisque faces.
They looked better suited to the refuse heap than some less-fortunate
girl’s arms, in Henry’s estimation. However, he did not think
this opinion would be well-received and so kept it to himself. He
pushed a stuffed lion with dusty fur aside with the toe of his boot
and sat on the floor in the space he’d made.
“Why are all your
dolls naked?” Henry asked, gesturing toward Baby Ann and her
audience.
Cora frowned. “You
shouldn’t be looking, Henry!” She leaned sideways and
snagged a ratty blanket with her fingertips and threw it over the
grouping of dolls. With deep disapproval in her tone, she said,
“You’re supposed to be a gentleman, Henry. You shouldn’t have
noticed.”
Martin tried not to
laugh and Henry shot him a sidelong glare. “It was hard not to
notice, Cora. They’re sitting right out in the open.”
“Martin
didn’t look,” she pointed out.
Technically, it was
only that Martin hadn’t said anything, not that he hadn’t looked,
but Henry would not argue the point with Cora. “Well, Martin’s a
better gentleman than me,” Henry told her. “But, anyway, why are
all your dolls lying around naked?”
“They all got
lice,” Cora explained, “and their laundress is boiling the
clothes.” She pointed to a tableau in the corner, a floppy cloth
clown slumped next to an enameled basin full of doll dresses.
“Oh. Well.”
Henry didn’t know how to respond to this. How did Cora even know
about lice?
“That’s very
unfortunate, isn’t it, Miss? Has Baby Ann been itching terribly
much?” Martin managed to seem so interested, so unruffled by what
Henry found to be very unnerving play on Cora’s part. Henry didn’t
recall that he’d ever played at diseases, at infestations.
Cora’s face lit up
at Martin’s mention of Baby Ann, clearly delighted that he
remembered her dolls. “She has. She’s been so itchy,
Martin! She scratched until she bled.” Cora seemed delighted
to relate this.
“Miss, really,”
Nurse said with a sigh and a shake of her head. “Paul’s coming up
directly with your cake, Miss. Shall we clear a path for the cart?”
With a put-upon
sigh, Cora got to her feet and began to move dolls and toys aside,
pushing things out of the way with her boots and moving a few
armloads of detritus to Henry’s old bed. Nurse did most of the
work, of course, and cleared off the top of the table to make room
for the cake, moving Cora’s present to her bed.
Henry leaned closer
to Martin and out of the side of his mouth asked, “Isn’t that a
little weird? That she’s playing all the dolls have lice?”
Martin grinned.
“It’s funny, isn’t it, Sir? She’s very imaginative.” He
seemed very unbothered, so Henry resolved to let it bother him less,
then, if he could manage it.
They all heard the
rattle of the elevator grille opening at the end of the hall and
Nurse went to open the door. Martin got to his feet and held his hand
out to help Henry up.
Paul wheeled in a
pink-frosted cake with eight candles ready to be lit. Cora could not
be still, twirling and clapping her hands and throwing herself first
against Martin, then Henry, in her excitement, leaning against their
legs and tugging at their hands. Paul withdrew with a polite bow, and
Nurse put the cake on the table and stood ready with a box of
matches.
“Miss, if you
want, we can light your candles now.”
“Yes, please!”
Cora went to the table and leaned over the cake, ready to blow.
“You have to stand
back a bit, Miss. I don’t want you to catch your hair on fire!”
She turned to Henry. “Sir, could you…?”
Henry didn’t know
what she wanted, but Martin did. He went to stand behind Cora, his
hands on her shoulders as a friendly reminder that she shouldn’t
lunge into the path of open flame. “Pink icing, Miss,” Martin
said in an admiring tone. “That’s quite fancy, isn’t it?”
“Pink is my
second-favorite color,” Cora informed him.
“What’s your
first-favorite, Miss?”
“Green,” Cora
said. “What’s yours?”
“I rather like
purple, Miss.”
Henry had not known
this, and wished he had ever thought to ask Martin the question.
All of the candles
were lit, making a penumbra of warm, wavering light around the cake.
“All right, Miss,”
Nurse said. “Everything is ready. You must hold your hair back,
though, to keep it out of the flames.”
“Can I make a wish
now, Nurse?” Cora asked eagerly.
“Of course. Happy
Birthday, Miss. I love you very much.”
“I love you, too,
Nurse.”
“Happy Birthday,
Miss,” Martin said, and at the same time Henry said, “Happy
Birthday, Cora.”
Cora gulped in a
deep breath, closed her eyes, then let the air out with force,
blowing out seven of eight candles. She took in another quick breath
and blew out the last one and said, “I got them all! Did you see?”
and they all pretended she had.
Nurse cut the cake,
making especially generous slices for the boys and more modest ones
for herself and Cora. Henry and Martin both took seats at the low
table; the child-sized furniture was not a good fit for such lanky
people, and Henry thought they must look quite ridiculous.
“It’s my
birthday.” Cora frowned at her still-generous piece of cake. “Why
does Henry get more cake on my birthday?”
“Your brother and
Martin are much bigger than you, Miss, and they need more food. If
you want more cake after dinner, you can have more then.”
“I will
want more,” Cora said with confidence.
The cake was sweet
chocolate with a rose-flavored icing, which Henry thought rather
sophisticated for an 8-year-old’s palate, but Cora seemed to love
it.
“Oh, yes, Sir,
Little Miss eats a great many flower-flavored treats,” Nurse told
him. “Cook very kindly indulges her tastes. She’s also fond of
violet shortbread.”
“I want to
try it,” Henry said, feeling left out and even a little hurt. “I
didn’t even know anything like that was being made.”
“I’ll ask Cook
to let me know next time, Sir,” Martin said soothingly, giving
Henry’s forearm a little squeeze. “I’ll ask her to make enough
for you to have some, too.”
“It’s very good,
Henry,” Cora told him. “It really tastes like flowers.”
Henry and Cora both
finished their cake; Nurse and Martin ate more slowly. Henry slid
from his ill-fitting chair to sit on the floor and Cora came around
the table to join him. He sat with his legs stretched out in front of
him, leaning back on his hands, and Cora sat close at his side. They
were both in good position to watch Martin eat. Martin glanced up and
smiled at them, and Cora gave a happy little wriggle and beamed at
him. It was embarrassing how much Henry related to Cora’s
adulation.
“Martin? When is
your birthday?”
“It’s in June,
Miss.”
“Henry? Isn’t
your birthday in June, too?”
“Yes, four days
after Martin’s.”
“So Martin is
older than you?” Cora seemed shocked.
“Well, yes—by
four days, Cora. So not by much.”
“Companions can be
older than masters?”
“Lots of them
are,” Henry told her.
She seemed
flabbergasted.
“I don’t see
that it makes any difference,” Henry said. “Masters and
companions are always close in age. It doesn’t matter who’s
older.”
“When I get my own
slave,” Cora said in a low tone, giving Nurse a sidelong glance as
if she thought Nurse would scold her for having the preference, “I
want her to be younger than me. Can I do that, Henry?”
“If it’s
important to you, you can. But I don’t think it will matter very
much to you when you’re 16. You’ll just want to have a slave you
like, someone you’ll get along with, and it won’t matter when her
birthday is.”
“Celeste is older
than me,” Cora said. “My mean friend Celeste. She always gets her
way because she’s older.”
“I think Celeste
actually gets her way because she’s a bully, not because of her
birthday,” Henry remarked.
Martin put down his
fork, and Nurse set hers on her plate and dabbed at her mouth with a
napkin. Martin got down from his chair and sat cross-legged on the
floor, his bent knee touching Henry’s ankle, but got up again right
away when Nurse asked for his help in bringing the heavy present down
from the bed. He set it on the floor before Cora with a soft thud.
“Happy Birthday,
Miss,” Martin said, giving her the sort of smile that was usually
reserved for Henry.
“May I please
open it now, Nurse?” Cora asked hopefully.
“Yes, you may,
Miss.” Nurse knelt down next to Cora, tucking her skirts around her
knees.
Cora fell upon the
package, her movements a little frantic. It was necessary for Nurse
to get the sharp scissors from their special cupboard to cut the
ribbon, but after that Cora made short work of the wrapping paper.
The large color label on the lid of the box showed a circus scene
with ringmaster, clown, elephant and tiger.
“Circus!” Cora
flapped her hands, giddy and overjoyed. “I love circuses! But what
is it?”
Henry laughed. “Open
the box and see.”
She opened the lid
and shrieked with delight when she saw the little wooden people in
their colorful costumes, the brightly-painted animals, and all the
accessories that made it much like a real circus—a circus ring,
balls and barrels, pedestals for the elephants to stand on, a high
wire for the acrobats, and a big top tent. It was every bit as
charming as Henry remembered and, with a pang of regret, he realized
that the little circus would be subject to Cora’s harsh treatment
and would likely lose its luster in short order.
“Look, Miss,”
Martin said, leaning over the box and pointing. “Did you see the
dancing bear?”
Cora gave a shriek
of glee and grabbed for the bear which, like all the other figures,
was tied into the box. Nurse used her scissors again to cut the bear
loose, and set to freeing all the members of the circus while Cora
exclaimed over her bear.
“Do you like it?”
Henry asked, knowing that she did.
Cora looked at him,
eyes shining. “I love it! It’s the best present ever!”
They took the box
over to where Baby Ann and the rest of the dolls lay under their
modesty blanket. Cora shoved them carelessly aside, making room for
her circus. Nurse and Henry set up the tent while Cora and Martin set
out the rest of the contents of the box in neat rows. Henry and
Martin both helped Cora set up a scene with a lady acrobat standing
on the back of a horse, a gentleman acrobat walking on the high wire,
the elephant on its hind legs on a red-and-gold pedestal, and the
dancing bear front and center with the animal tamer and ringmaster
both admiring its performance.
“What about
clowns?” Henry asked, surveying the scene. “Shouldn’t there be
clowns?”
Everything was
rearranged to make room for a trio of cavorting clowns. It really was
a wonderful toy. The only thing missing was an audience, and when
Henry pointed this out, Cora quickly salvaged her bedraggled dolls
from beneath the blanket and set them in two rows in front of the
tableau. It did not seem to bother Cora that they were all three or
four times the size of the circus performers, but Henry thought the
size disparity a little unsettling, especially in tandem with their
nudity and their general impression of having undergone something
harrowing.
Having admired this
arrangement for a few minutes, Cora needed to make adjustments, then
substitutions, then took all of the figures out of the tent and began
from scratch. She enlisted Martin’s help, but did not seem to need
anything from either Henry or Nurse.
“It’s a lovely
set, Sir,” Nurse murmured. “I fear she won’t be as careful as
it deserves, though.”
“I thought of
that, too,” Henry said. “I guess if I want to keep it nice, I’ll
have to buy my own.”
Nurse chuckled. “You
were always quite careful with your toys, Sir. Little boys are
supposed to be rough, but you were always very gentle.”
Henry frowned. He’d
always been unusual, unmanly.
“Most of your toys
were given to charity to make way for Little Miss’ things, Sir, but
I did save something of yours. Would you like to see it?”
“Certainly.”
Henry watched as Martin helped Cora balance clowns on a seesaw until
Nurse returned to his side.
“Do you remember
Pinky, Sir?”
Henry had just been
thinking about Pinky, of course, but he had never imagined Pinky
would still be knocking around the nursery. “Yes, of course I do. I
loved Pinky.” Henry held out his hands for the toy. Pinky was
smaller than he remembered, perhaps seven or eight inches tall. He
remembered Pinky with such affection, so it was somewhat surprising
to see how shabby the little mouse was, how he had loved it nearly to
pieces. Pinky had been given his name because of his pink felt nose
and paws, but these were a wan grey now, faded and worn. His grey
pelt was moth-eaten, and the pink silk lining of his ears was
shattered. Without thinking what he was doing, Henry brought Pinky to
his nose and breathed him in: stale, but smelling of sleep. He smiled
to himself, pleased that Pinky still existed.
Martin got up and
stretched. Cora was still engrossed in play.
“What do you have
there, Sir?”
“Come see. It’s
my old toy.” He held the mouse out for Martin to take.
Martin laughed. “Oh,
my, Sir. You certainly loved this little fellow, didn’t you?”
Martin touched Pinky’s glass eyes and dirty felt nose. “What’s
his name?”
“Pinky. He used
to have pink on him.”
To Henry’s
surprise, Martin brought the toy near his face and inhaled. When he
saw Henry’s incredulous expression, he explained, “I wanted to
see if he smells like you, Sir.”
“Well, does he?”
Martin smiled. “Yes,
Sir. Like you, but dusty.” It was a little embarrassing that Martin
had said this in front of Nurse, that Nurse would know how well
Martin knew Henry’s scent, but it didn’t necessarily mean
anything untoward. Any companion would know the smell of his master’s
skin, wouldn’t he?
“He’s been on a
high shelf for six years, Sir,” Nurse explained. “Perhaps I
should have put him in a box to keep the dust off.”
Henry waved off her
concern. “I’m just glad you kept him for me.” And he felt
surprisingly grateful that he’d had the opportunity to show the
little mouse to Martin. “You’ll continue to keep him safe, won’t
you?”
“Well, of course,
Sir. I certainly wouldn’t get rid of him for anything!”
The three of them
stood watching Cora play, Martin idly stroking the mouse’s mangy
fur until he realized what he was doing and gave Pinky back to Henry.
Henry clutched the toy to his chest, full up with sentimentality and
feeling soft-hearted, before handing it back to Nurse.
“Thank you for
showing him to me,” Henry told her. He bent and kissed her cheek.
“You know, I
missed you so much when you moved downstairs, Sir. More than any
other toy, Pinky reminded me of you.” Nurse appeared quite
choked-up, and this made tears well in Henry’s eyes, and he was
about to be terribly embarrassed in front of Martin, but then a knock
came at the nursery door.
“Come in, please,”
Nurse called.
Paul entered and
made a little bow. “Hello, Sir. Hello, Miss. Martin, Esther. I’ve
just come for the cart.”
“Leave the cake,”
Nurse said. “Here, I’ll help you.” She went to assist Paul,
taking Pinky with her, and left Henry standing next to Martin.
“It must be close
to my dinnertime, Sir,” Martin murmured. He took his watch out of
his pocket and consulted it. “Do you think we might go downstairs
soon?”
“We’ll go now,”
Henry told him. “We’ll just say our goodbyes.”
Cora was so involved
with her circus that she made no fuss about them leaving. She gave
them perfunctory hugs and kisses and returned to her circus, humming
busily and tunelessly.
“You’re such a
good brother, Sir,” Nurse told him. “She really loves it.”
“Really, Martin
picked it,” Henry told her. “I was just going to get her another
doll.”
Nurse turned to
Martin, smiling, and put a hand on his arm. “You’re a good boy,
Martin. You’re so kind to Little Miss.”
“Of course I am,”
Martin said. “She’s my master’s beloved little sister.”
“We’re all glad
you’ve come to live here, you know,” Nurse told him. “You’ve
been so wonderful for both Young Sir and Little Miss.”
Henry was deeply
embarrassed by this assertion, though he certainly had no grounds to
question its veracity.
“We should go,”
he blurted, giving Martin’s arm a tug.
“Oh, of course,
Sir,” Martin said agreeably.
Nurse saw them to
the door and kissed them each on the cheek.
They made their way
downstairs in a friendly silence. Henry took Martin’s hand for a
moment, just a brief interlacing of their fingers, and Martin pulled
away immediately, as expected, but with an amused chuckle.
Inside Henry’s
room, Henry flopped on the bed, leaving his boots hanging over the
side so that Martin could remove them for him. “Well, I think that
present counts as a success,” he said, feeling enormously pleased.
Martin quickly
untied Henry’s boots and pulled them from his feet, and Henry swung
his legs up onto the bed.
“I’d have to
agree with you, Henry. She seems quite delighted.”
“She’s so much
happier than she would have been with another doll. You always know
what she’ll like—better than I do, and certainly better than
either of my parents.”
“Maybe it’s just
because I was around so many children before I came here. I don’t
think I have any special talent with your sister.” He took off his
own boots and got up on the bed beside Henry. “I liked seeing your
mouse, Henry. Your Pinky.”
Henry flushed,
bashful but pleased. “I’m glad Nurse saved him. When I was
brought downstairs, my father wanted me to leave all my toys up in
the nursery. I got different toys once I was down here, of course,
but nothing soft. Manly toys. Nothing to keep me company while I was
falling asleep. I guess my father thought things like that were for
babies.”
“Oh, Henry.”
Martin put his hand on Henry’s cheek. “Poor little Henry. Is it
better now? Now that you have me to keep you company?”
Henry laughed and
put his arm around Martin, drawing him close. “You’re certainly
an improvement on Pinky.” He kissed Martin’s cheek, just in front
of his ear. “What sorts of toys did you have at Ganymede when you
were little?”
“Oh, well, we
didn’t have toys of our own, or we weren’t supposed to,
though we were all prone to making pets out of rocks, and the
cleverer boys would make poppets out of grasses and straw. We had
toys that we played with, but of course we had to share everything.
Board games were always a disaster because we wouldn’t have one
more than a day or two before pieces were lost and it would become
unplayable. Chess and checkers were likewise disasters. Actually,
playing games at Ganymede was a good exercise in coping with
frustration and disappointment.”
“I know you had
baseball, and bicycles, too. Were those any better?”
“Again, we had to
share, of course. When I started riding a bicycle, I was quite short,
but by the time I left I was one of the taller boys of any age. I
rode a lot of different bicycles over the years, some in better
repair than others.”
“What about
baseball? Did you have to share gloves?” This seemed less than
ideal to Henry. A glove formed itself to the wearer’s hand, after
all.
Martin grinned. “Not
really. There weren’t that many other left-handed boys, so I
usually got to use the glove that I liked best. Everyone else,
though—they were fighting over gloves every time we played.”
“Did you have any
kind of plush toys?”
Martin thought about
it a moment. “Hmm. Not really. There was an oilcloth clown that
some of the others liked to play with when we were very small, but
not me. It was rather grubby, you see.”
“So you didn’t
have any toys you could curl up with under the blankets? Nothing like
Pinky?”
“Oh, no, nothing
like that. But we did have each other. We all shared beds our whole
lives, of course, and the boys you shared with were your comfort.”
“Who did you share
with, then?”
“Oh, different
boys at different times,” Martin said dismissively. “A lot of
different boys over the years. I’m very used to sharing a bed, and
I prefer it to sleeping alone. I’ve been so happy since you’ve
let me share your bed, Henry. I love being close to you.” He leaned
on Henry and pushed his face into Henry’s neck. “I love the smell
of you. I’m sorry I embarrassed you smelling your Pinky.”
“It’s all
right,” Henry assured him, though he blushed all over again
thinking about it. “Nurse would expect that you’d know what I
smell like anyway.”
“Don’t you think
that’s why she’s saved Pinky? Because he smells like you? She
didn’t want you to leave, after all. You’re precious to her.”
Henry had not
thought of it in just this way, and was both touched and embarrassed
by the notion. He had cried himself to sleep many nights after his
tenth birthday, alone in his big bedroom and missing Nurse and Pinky
both. The idea that Nurse might have been just as bereft without him
and clinging to the toy for comfort was strangely satisfying.
Martin pulled his
watch out of his pocket and sat up, out of the curve of Henry’s
arm. “I should go down, Henry.”
“Kiss me before
you go,” Henry said, clutching at Martin’s sleeve.
Martin did so, the
touch of his lips very soft. Henry wanted more; he always wanted
more.
“I’ll see you
soon.” Martin got down from the bed and went to the door, turning
to give Henry a little wave as he left.
Henry groaned and
flopped back on the pillows. He was aroused from the kiss but
uninterested in doing anything about it on his own. He contemplated
going back upstairs to play with the toy circus with Cora, but
decided he should leave her be. What he really wanted to do was make
her play nicely with the toy, but based on the state of all her other
playthings, that would be a losing proposition. He would just have to
reconcile himself to her destroying it. He wondered if having Martin
talk to her about it would make her treat it more gently, and made a
mental note to ask him to do so.
Henry made himself
do some of his homework, sprawled on the floor before the fire. He
got most of it out of the way in short order, but then was left with
only Latin, and it was a daunting prospect.
Henry tried his
hardest. He worked laboriously over some translations about wicked
farmers and good sailors who were apparently engaged in some sort of
warfare. Henry found the characterization of farmers as wicked a
little baffling, having quite idealized views of those engaged in
agricultural pursuits, and also questioned why the farmers and
sailors would bother with one another at all. Maybe if the Latin
phrases made more sense, he’d understand the language better.
He painstakingly
translated Malī agricolae cum bonīs nautīs pugnant as
Wicked farmers fight with good sailors and felt reasonably
confident he was right, or close enough. He was willing to settle for
close enough.
While he felt a
sense of accomplishment at completing the work, it had taken him
nearly twenty minutes to translate just one sentence—and he wasn’t
even sure it was correct—and there were nine more to go. He was
still uncomfortable with the idea of having Martin do his work, but
since the last round of grading it seemed much smarter (and certainly
easier) than struggling through it on his own. It was what Father
wanted—what Father had demanded. And if all of his friends were
doing it, why shouldn’t he?
When Martin
returned, Henry had set the Latin aside and was simply basking before
the fire in his shirtsleeves.
“Oh, you’re
doing your homework. Do you need any help?”
Henry swallowed and
blushed, but he told Martin the truth. “Yes. I need help.”
Martin sat down
cross-legged on the carpet. “With what? I’m happy to help you
with anything at all.”
Henry pushed himself
up to lean back on his elbows. “I can do everything but the Latin.
That’s all I need help with.”
“Let me see it.”
Henry found Dr.
Foster’s mimeograph. “Here. It’s all these sentences about
wicked farmers. Since when are farmers known for their wickedness?”
Martin snorted. “I
don’t know. I think it’s just to teach you vocabulary. They could
just as easily be miserly farmers or frivolous farmers.”
“If it made more
sense, I’m sure I’d understand it better.”
Martin picked up a
pencil and began translating. “I’m sure you’re right, Henry.”
It took Martin no
time at all to translate everything. He didn’t even have to look at
the book for help. Henry watched, slightly awed and definitely
envious.
“Here you are. You
just need to copy these in your own handwriting and you’ll be set.”
Henry did as Martin
suggested. It still seemed like cheating, but it was the same
cheating everyone else did, and Martin obviously didn’t mind Henry
claiming the work as his own. When he finished copying the
translations, Martin dressed him with brisk efficiency and then
followed him downstairs to the dining room.
After dinner, Cora
was brought down to the parlor to receive birthday greetings from her
parents. She was full of talk of the circus, and of her brother and
Martin, and Father frowned and blinked at her excited chatter.
“…and there’s
a dancing bear, Father, which is my very favorite, and a
gentleman acrobat and a lady acrobat, too. How do you think a
lady gets to be an acrobat, Father? Is there a school? Could I go to
acrobat school and dancing school?”
“Certainly not,”
Father said. “Henry, are you putting ideas in your sister’s head
about joining the circus?”
“No, sir. I gave
her a toy circus for her birthday, though, and she seems to like it
quite well.”
Eagerly, Cora said,
“Father? Did you know? Martin picked it out for me—Henry said
so.”
Father raised an
eyebrow and Henry shrugged. “He did, sir. He’s good with her.”
There was a package
for Cora, her present from Mother and Father. Pearl roused Mother so
that she could watch Cora open the gift, an astrakhan muff and
matching hat. Cora seemed to like this gift perfectly well, and
thanked her parents with minimal prompting from Nurse, but it was
clear to Henry that she felt much more grateful for the circus, and
he couldn’t help feeling pleased. Thoughtfulness made for good
gifts—Martin’s thoughtfulness. Next time he might have occasion
to give a gift, he would do well to follow Martin’s example and
consider the recipient.
On Friday, everyone
at school was in high spirits, talkative and boisterous. They were
scolded for their immaturity and restiveness by each teacher in turn,
but the chastisement had little impact on their collective mood. They
would not be back in their seats until January 2nd, a break of eleven
whole days, and all were anticipating ease and pleasure, presents and
good food.
They rode home on
the omnibus as part of a large, convivial group, and when Henry and
Louis got off with their slaves, the other boys opened the windows
and shouted Merry Christmas at them, which embarrassed Henry
but gladdened his heart. They walked the short distance home and
Henry and Martin said goodbye to Louis and Peter at the front gate.
“By the way, James
will be home tonight,” Louis said. “He’s coming in on a late
train. Why don’t you come over tomorrow afternoon to say hello to
him and Grandma Ida?”
Henry was a little
apprehensive about seeing James again after their last encounter. But
all he said was, “I’ll be glad to see them both.”
There was a new Pals
waiting for them inside, and seeing it lying there on the console in
the hall made Henry’s heart beat a little faster. Martin, equally
excited, went down to the kitchen for some of the gingerbread he knew
Cook had baked and brought it upstairs to share.
“Are you ready?”
Martin lounged across the end of the bed, magazine in hand.
“Yes, yes, hurry
up and read it!” Henry licked crumbs off his fingers and settled
back against the pillows.
They’d left the
story last month with the Dauntless four days’ sail from the
nearest port marked on the map by the Order of the Red Eye. Hoping to
catch up to Dr. DeSade, Theo had made an educated guess that this is
where the Ruthless would have headed, but it was only that—a
guess.
George stayed abed
healing, with Theo in attendance as much as possible, leaving the
running of his ship to other crew members. Dooley stayed nearby, as
well, much to Henry’s chagrin.
“Doesn’t he know
where he’s not wanted?”
Martin snickered.
“Hush!”
Dooley had lots of
questions, the answers to which would likely be useful to a new
reader. He asked about Theo and George’s history together, learning
of George’s dramatic rescue at Theo’s hands when both were young
men of 22.
“Huh,” Henry
said. “I don’t think they’ve ever said before how old they
were. That sounds about right.”
George described
being carried across Theo’s shoulders, barely conscious, blood
dripping from his ruined back, and feeling the safest he’d ever
felt.
“He saved my life,
Sir,” George said to Dooley. “And having saved it, Sir, I felt
confident he’d keep it safe. And see, he’s saved it again.”
George pointed to his bandage and Dooley was suitably impressed.
“I thought he was
quite the finest man I’d ever met,” Theo told Dooley. “It
didn’t matter that he was a slave; what mattered was the quality of
his character.”
“I’ll bet George
has a really nice ass,” Henry remarked. “I’ll bet that had
something to do with it, too.”
Martin snickered at
this. “Henry, really!”
Theo redressed
George’s wound, and Dooley stuck around for that, too, commenting
on George’s many scars in an admiring fashion.
“You should see
the Captain’s scars, Sir,” George told Dooley. “He was shot
clean through the shoulder, and with only me to stitch him up, it
wasn’t a pretty result, Sir.”
So then Theo took
off his shirt to show Dooley the bullet wound and puckered scar
resulting.
“He’d better not
touch him,” Henry said. “He’d better not even try.”
Dooley kept his
hands to himself, only admiring the scar and complimenting George on
doing an admirable job of piecing the flesh back together. He was
also shown the scar on Theo’s side where he’d been stabbed the
first time they met Dr. Nero DeSade and Turk, and a short history of
that encounter was given, reestablishing that DeSade was a dastardly,
murderous fiend with no respect for human life, free or slave.
At last, long after
Henry had tired of Dooley, Theo tired of him, as well, telling him
to, “Make yourself useful up on deck,” and shutting the door in
his face.
“What do you think
Theo did after he kicked Dooley out?” Martin asked playfully.
“George was
tired,” Henry pointed out. “But I’m sure he could tolerate
having his cock sucked.”
When they finally
sailed into port four days after they’d started, George was feeling
much stronger and Theo was on deck commanding his men, cutlass
hanging at his hip.
“They’re not
going to find DeSade,” Henry said confidently. “Not if Theo’s
carrying a real weapon.”
The men of the
Dauntless disembarked quietly and with as much circumspection
as possible. Once again, to Henry’s chagrin, Dooley tagged along
with Theo and George. George wore a jacket around his shoulders to
make the sling supporting his injured left arm less noticeable. Theo
had wanted to leave him behind to rest, but George had argued
convincingly that he was often more successful than Theo in ferreting
out information.
Three hours later in
a dockside tavern, Theo’s pockets lighter by a few pieces of
silver, they had made a host of new friends and learned a little more
about the Order of the Red Eye. The Ruthless had indeed been
in port overnight, leaving just hours before the Dauntless
made landfall. Cloaked men from the Ruthless had been seen
stealing up from the waterfront and climbing the hill to a forbidding
mansion where mysterious lights flickered in the dead of night and
hooded figures could be seen furtively scuttling in and out at the
gate. A local boy, a lad called Sneed, offered to show them the way
to the mansion, should they want to see it for themselves.
Surmising that this
ominous edifice was the Order’s lair, Theo put on the dead
henchman’s robe, picked up the ceremonial dagger and prepared to
make the journey. George wanted to go with him, of course, but Theo
ordered him—he actually ordered him—to stay behind, while
Dooley went in his place.
“I can’t believe
this!” Henry felt furious on George’s behalf. “Dooley is
no replacement for George!”
“But George is
injured, Henry. He can’t fight.”
Henry heard the
sense of this but didn’t care. He didn’t like Dooley, and he
didn’t like Dooley supplanting George in the least. He suspected
the author was enamored of the Dooley character for some unknowable
reason, and had written the injury for George specifically to let
Dooley get closer to Theo. He suggested this to Martin, who had no
convincing counter-argument.
“Let’s just wait
and see. Don’t you want to know what happens next anyway?”
With Theo disguised
as an Order member and Dooley as his captive, they approached the
mansion under cover of darkness. Leon and Boot remained with Sneed in
the shadowy lane outside the mansion’s high wall while Theo and
Dooley approached the imposing front door. If they’d had any doubts
they were in the right place, those were put to rest by a stained
glass transom displaying a bloody-red eye.
“You know your
part?” Theo asked. “You’re prepared to do what needs doing?”
“I know it, sir.”
Martin didn’t have a Dooley voice but just used his own with a
particularly uninspired inflection to show his disdain for the
character, which Henry suspected he might be doing for Henry’s
benefit. “I’m brave, sir, don’t doubt it.”
Theo knocked and the
door was opened by a cadaverous butler whose throat was disfigured by
the scarring of an excised mark and a newer tattoo, a red eye. The
combination of Theo’s robe and the ceremonial dagger was enough to
gain them entry.
“This one escaped
DeSade just four days ago,” Theo explained, jerking Dooley forward
by his elbow, and Dooley looked appropriately surly. “I hoped I
would catch up to him here and could deliver the prisoner in person.”
“The Doctor has
headed for the Refuge, Sir,” Martin explained in the butler’s
raspy, cobwebbed voice. “We are in a state of emergency, Sir.”
“I’ve been
a-sea,” Theo explained. “What is the emergency?”
“We’ve been
exposed, Sir. Everything is chaos.” Martin coughed and cleared his
throat. “I’m sorry. This voice is difficult.”
“You don’t have
to do it,” Henry told him, but he couldn’t mask his
disappointment.
“No, Henry, I’ll
do it. Just let me get some water.” He went to the bathroom and
came back with a glass of water and drank. “All right, I’m
ready.”
Theo demanded to be
taken to whoever was in charge, and the butler led them deep into the
house, through innumerable parlors and suites and down flights of
stairs until reaching a sub-basement secured behind three locks.
Beyond this sturdy door they found a laboratory, thoroughly modern
and state-of-the-art, and a surgical theater showing bloody signs of
recent use.
“The Doctor did
some work while he was here, Sir,” the butler explained hoarsely.
“We’ve still to do the cleaning up.”
Beyond the medical
rooms, there was a dungeon-like area with a cell housing perhaps a
dozen miserable wretches, all slaves. Like the gruesome butler, all
of these slaves showed evidence of tampering with their marks,
healing patchwork scars or fresh red-eye tattoos. These captives
looked upon Theo and Dooley with expressions of true and unrelieved
misery, as if without the least hope of salvation. Theo resolved upon
seeing them that he would see each one released from captivity or die
trying.
“Captain Theo
really is a wonderful person, isn’t he?” Martin asked,
though Henry did not think he expected an answer. “He reminds me of
you, you know.”
“Me?” Henry was
surprised.
“You care about
slaves,” Martin explained. “In Captain Theo’s place, you’d
rescue them if you could, wouldn’t you?”
Henry thought that
he’d certainly have the impulse to help, but seriously doubted his
ability to carry off a successful escape. Nevertheless, he liked
having Martin’s good opinion. “I’d try,” he agreed. “Because
what if some of them were like us? The master would be out in the
world somewhere missing his slave so much.”
“The slave would
be missing his master, as well,” Martin pointed out.
They were both quiet
a minute, contemplating the romance and drama of a forced separation.
Henry liked the idea that he’d go to the ends of the earth to
search for Martin if Martin was stolen away, but he suspected he
might become entrenched in the inertia of despair instead.
“If it was me,”
Martin began slowly, thinking out loud, “I’d do my best to send
you a message of some kind, or leave a clue that would lead you
straight to me. But if I couldn’t do that, I’d just do my best to
stay alive until you came for me. Because you would come,
wouldn’t you, Henry?”
“Of course I
would,” Henry assured him. Of course he would. There was very
little he wouldn’t do for Martin. Really only the one thing.
“Shall I keep
reading?” Martin cocked his head, looking to Henry for an answer.
“Please.”
Theo and Dooley were
led into the inner sanctum, a dimly-lit room redolent of incense,
quite in contrast with the medical area. They were surprised to see a
young woman in a kimono lying limp across a divan, her long, dark
hair cascading to the floor. She did not stir when they entered.
The man in charge
was suitably gruesome, with a grey complexion and the pale eyes of a
wolf. He wore a white doctor’s coat and had a stethoscope looped
around his neck.
“Dr. von Belcher,
this Esteemed Initiate has captured Dr. DeSade’s escaped prisoner.”
Martin said in the butler’s craggy voice, then took a sip of water.
“Vonderful,”
said von Belcher in a voice that Martin might have intended to be
Germanic. “Let us put him in viz ze ozzers, yes?” He walked past
Theo, taking Dooley by the arm as he did so and jerking him along
with brisk yanks.
The Doctor fumbled
with a heavy ring of keys and slid an oversized iron key into the
lock of the cell door. As the aperture swung wide, the inhabitants of
the cell backed away, huddling together in the rear, clearly
terrified of the Doctor. At this moment, Theo cried out, “Now,
Dooley!” Dooley shook the loosely-knotted rope from his wrists and
pulled a knife from beneath his shirt. He lunged after the foul
butler and slit his throat, giving him only time enough to loose a
single hoarse, corvine cry. He clutched at Dooley as he went down,
bathing him in blood.
Theo cornered von
Belcher and threatened him with the dagger. “Tell me,” Theo
demanded, “where has DeSade gone?”
Von Belcher gave an
evil cackle. “I’ll tell you nozzing!” Theo gave him a little
jab with the dagger, but he only laughed again. He took a pill from
his pocket and rapidly put it between his lips. “I die for ze
cause!” Still laughing, he began to foam at the mouth and convulse
and fell to the floor dead.
Theo and Dooley then
turned their attention to the captives, who were frightened and
bewildered, and Theo feared they would be of no help in effecting
their own escape. They had passed few people on their way into the
house, but they could not count on such good fortune on their way
out, especially with a dozen weakened and debilitated captives to
protect. Theo searched the drawers of von Belcher’s desk and found
a loaded revolver. He armed the strongest-seeming man amongst the
captives with a letter opener.
“You have to want
to live,” Theo said to the captives. “I will do my best to remove
the obstacles in your path, but it is you who must walk the path. Do
you understand?” The captives all understood. The light of passion
was rekindled in their dull eyes.
The girl was alive
but insensible. Dooley lifted her to her feet but she would not stand
on her own. She wore nothing but the lurid kimono and a flimsy
chemise. Dooley judged her quite beautiful.
“Oh, who cares
about the girl?” Henry said petulantly. “The girls never stick
around. No one will even remember her next month, so I don’t
understand why they bother including her at all.”
“There must be
some boys who like the idea of a romance,” Martin offered gently.
“It is a more traditional outlook, after all.”
“Hmph.” Henry
sulked and ate another piece of gingerbread.
Passing through the
gruesome surgery, the captives armed themselves with any sharp
instruments they could find. They met resistance at the top of the
staircase and from there fought their way out of the house in heroic
style. Of their large party, only Theo really knew anything about
fighting and, while Dooley was proving valuable, he was still mostly
untested, and hampered in his movements by the need to support the
beautiful girl, who was growing more sensible by the minute but
remained a liability.
“They should leave
her,” Henry suggested. “For all they know, she’s another mad
doctor.”
“An interesting
possibility,” Martin said. “You have such a clever way of
thinking, Henry. You should write a story.”
Henry loved that
Martin thought him clever. “I could write one where the heroes
actually do kiss.”
Martin laughed,
pleased by the idea.
Fighting on the main
floor of the house, they were outnumbered, meeting wave after wave of
Order lackeys, and there was some suspense resulting from the
situation, though Henry was confident Theo would prevail, as always,
despite the odds. After a particularly close call, Theo fired his gun
at the ceiling to alert the men waiting in the lane outside, and as
they moved through the endless parlors and suites of the cavernous
mansions, they heard the sound of wood splintering ahead of them,
Theo’s men breaking down the front door.
The Dauntless
men fought their way into the house to meet up with Theo and the
captives and then they all fought their way back out again. In the
confusion, Theo took a knife wound to the chest, a slice across his
left pectoral that sent blood sheeting down his shirtfront but did
not prevent him from killing the lackey who’d cut him.
Escaping from the
mansion, they led the captives downhill to the relative safety of the
dockside tavern. Every one of the captive slaves had been kidnapped
elsewhere and brought to this place for nefarious purposes. Theo, who
knew so well how close the bond between master and slave could be,
determined to give help to all who wished to return to their rightful
homes. They would not have the luxury of time to deliver the captives
to their masters themselves, however; they needed to find Dr.
DeSade’s Refuge and end him once and for all. Theo gave ample funds
for sea passage to all he had freed and wished them the best.
The girl, however,
was coming with them.
“Why?”
Henry demanded. “What the hell for?”
“Dooley likes her.
Maybe she’s for Dooley, not Theo?”
She had amnesia and
didn’t know where she belonged, and none of the people in the
tavern recognized her as coming from the town. She clearly had some
special importance to DeSade’s organization, and Theo believed it
possible she might have important information about the Order should
her memory return.
The tavern-keeper’s
wife gave her a dress to wear and a pair of shoes, and in exchange
the girl gave the woman her floral kimono.
They boarded the
Dauntless with the girl and sailed out of the harbor as dawn
broke, with one of the nearest Order locations as destination. George
got out of bed—
“The bed they
share,” Henry reminded Martin.
“Oh, I remember!”
—and cleaned
Theo’s wound, insisting that he sit still and let George take care
of him. Satisfied that the wound would heal properly, he then helped
Theo pore over the Order’s map, looking for any sign of this Refuge
of DeSade’s. Finally, with Theo nearly asleep on his feet, George
convinced him to lie down.
“Just for a
moment, Sir,” George said very tenderly. “Just to rest your
eyes.” Theo let himself be led to the bed and George tucked him in.
“That’s it for
this month,” Martin said with a sigh. “To be continued. Oh, it’s
really getting good, don’t you think?”
“Yes,”
Henry said, feeling deeply satisfied by the direction things were
going at the end. Theo and George taking care of each other, the girl
maybe meant for Dooley, DeSade’s nefarious plans taking on more
dimension…it was all great.
Martin shoved a
piece of gingerbread in his mouth and laughed when it came apart in
his hand. Henry felt such affection for him that he could hardly
contain himself. He tackled Martin, pushing him down on the bed,
getting crumbs everywhere.
“Henry…”
Martin tried to sit up and Henry pushed him down again.
“Lie back,”
Henry said. “Lie back and have your cock sucked.” He began to
work at the placket of Martin’s trousers, feeling Martin’s cock
grow hard beneath his fingers. For so long, fictional George had been
his ideal of a companion slave, but his own Martin was a thousand
times better.
“Lick my fingers.”
Martin held out his hand, crumbs and frosting on his fingertips.
“Lick them clean and then you can lick my cock.”
Henry wasn’t sure
if that had been a suggestion or an order, but he did it regardless,
and gladly.
On Saturday
afternoon, Henry and Martin walked up to the Briggs house. Henry
understood that James should have been home by now, but there was
none of James’ sort of havoc in evidence when Patrick opened the
front door. The smaller Briggses made up for it, however: Robbie and
Teddy shouting at one another and little Edward wailing as if someone
had just told him there was no Santa Claus, which was in fact what
had happened.
Alice was with
Grandma Ida and Mrs. Briggs in the front parlor, next to the
Christmas tree, but upon sighting Henry she went pale with
mortification and ducked behind her grandmother’s chair. Henry
pretended he had not seen her—it seemed the best choice for both of
them—and paid his respects to Louis’ grandmother, whom he had
always liked quite well. Likewise, Grandma Ida had always been fond
of Henry, thinking him a civilized young man and comparing him
favorably to her ruffian grandsons.
After Grandma Ida
had exclaimed over Henry’s growth since she’d last seen him and
complimented him on his choice of slave, Louis impatiently tugged on
his arm.
“Let’s go to my
room,” Louis said, heading for the stairway.
Henry stood prepared
to head down the hall to the game room. “I thought we were going to
play billiards?”
“James is in
there. We don’t want to bother him.”
“Why not? Is he
still mad at me about Halloween? That’s crazy! I’m the one
who should be—”
“No, it’s not
that. Come on. I’ll tell you upstairs.”
Once Louis’
bedroom door was closed behind them, Louis turned to Henry with his
lips in a grim line and said, “All right. You have to promise not
to tell anyone at school what I’m going to tell you.”
“I promise. What
is it?”
“James is in
trouble.”
This did not
surprise Henry. “James is always in trouble,” he scoffed.
“Not like this.”
Louis lowered his voice. “He’s been expelled from college for
conduct. And he might have to get married to some barmaid.”
“No!” Henry was
properly horrified.
“Yes. I
don’t even know what he did, exactly. Something to do with property
damage and the things the slaves were being made to do at one of the
parties he organized. One of them was hurt pretty badly, I guess, and
the owner is threatening to sue both James and the school. Of course
the thing with the barmaid didn’t help any. She missed her
monthlies and might have a baby, and he’ll have to marry her if she
does. Her family is making a big stink about it.”
“That’s
horrible.” It wasn’t just horrible for James, though. Poor
slaves. Poor barmaid. Henry darted a glance at Martin, who was
bloodlessly pale and seemed transfixed by what he’d heard.
“He’s been holed
up in the game room drinking and sulking since he got home last night
with all of his trunks, everything he had at college. He’s only
letting Joseph go in and out to bring him food. He hasn’t talked to
any of his friends, but they’ve been calling for him and no one
knows what to say. We’ve just been lying and saying he’s not home
yet.”
“What’s your
father going to do?”
“Dad’s furious
at James for embarrassing him like this. If James ends up married to
this girl and has a baby, we’ll be tied forever to some
tavern-keeper, and how will that look for Dad?”
Henry didn’t
really see why it should matter, but understood that it did. “Not
good,” he said.
“He’s ruining
Christmas,” Louis complained. “He takes things too far, every
time.”
This was entirely
true, Henry thought.
Louis turned then to
Martin. “You’d better not say anything, not to Tom or anyone, or
you’ll be sorry.”
“Yes, Sir, of
course,” Martin said, lowering his gaze and looking properly
chastised.
Annoyed, Henry said,
“Don’t threaten him, Louis. He wouldn’t tell anyway.”
“Maybe not.”
Louis shrugged and chewed his lip, preoccupied with his brother’s
situation. “But I already know he’s a gossip.”
That hardly seemed
fair; Martin had only gossiped to cheer Louis up. “Look, maybe we
should just leave,” Henry said, fed-up. “Are you sure you even
want company right now?”
“Let’s play
cards,” Louis said, as if he hadn’t heard. “It’s more fun
with four people.”
Peter got the cards
and a tray of poker chips down from the shelf and they passed a few
hours in this way. Midway through the afternoon, Louis sent Peter and
Martin down for some snacks and they came back with slices of yellow
cake that Henry did not think were as good as what his own cook made,
but he ate his piece all the same. Even with Martin surreptitiously
slipping him chips, Henry eventually lost all his markers. Peter was
out next. Henry willed Martin to lose to Louis, to give his friend
just a little lift.
Peter checked his
pocket watch. “Sir? Might I go down for my dinner?”
Louis waved him off,
not looking up from his cards. “Go. Eat.”
Henry checked his
own watch. It would soon be time for Martin’s dinner, as well.
“Martin needs to eat, too.”
“We’re playing,
though,” Louis said.
“Who’s winning?”
Henry demanded.
Louis did not
answer.
“Mr. Briggs is,
Sir,” Martin said. “I’ve lost the last five hands.”
Louis frowned at his
pile of markers, then Martin’s. “We’d have to count our chips
to know for sure.”
“So Louis wins,”
Henry said, pretending he hadn’t heard Louis. He stood and said,
“Come on, Martin. Let’s get you home.”
Louis seemed vaguely
disgruntled at the way Henry hustled Martin out the door, but he did
not protest their departure.
On the way home,
Martin said, “Thank you, Sir. I’m sure I would have been playing
for hours if you hadn’t intervened.”
“I feel bad for
Louis,” Henry said, “but that’s no reason for you to go
hungry.” He paused and then said, “I noticed you were upset when
Louis was telling us about James’ trouble.”
“Yes, Sir. I feel
badly for the slaves that he hurt, and for this barmaid, as well. I
don’t believe they’d have a happy marriage, Sir, do you?”
“Not at all. I
can’t imagine James married, period. I want to talk more about this
whole James situation,” Henry said as they walked through the
Blackwell gate. “but I guess it will have to wait until after our
dinners.”
“Certainly, Sir.”
Martin hurried up the front steps and rang the bell and Paul let them
inside.
“Hurry or you’ll
miss dinner,” Paul said to Martin. To Henry, he said, “Good
evening, Sir.”
Martin said, “I’ll
see you soon, Sir.” He shed his coat into Paul’s hands and headed
for the rear of the house at a near-run.
They had little time
to talk when Martin joined Henry upstairs to help him dress, as they
were running late—still—and Martin had special news that he
wished to impart.
“I’ve arranged a
treat for you, Henry,” Martin said, smiling, as he tied Henry’s
tie.
“Is it food?”
Henry asked hopefully. “Is it—?”
Martin’s grin
widened. “Yes. It’s macaroni and cheese. I ate so much at
my dinner! I feel quite overstuffed.”
“You’re so fat
now,” Henry told him, pulling him in for a tight embrace. “I can
barely get my arms around you.” Martin laughed and squirmed in his
arms.
“Let me finish
dressing you, or you’ll be late.”
At the table, Henry
barely tasted anything offered to him, his taste buds thoroughly
primed for his macaroni and cheese. When he got his macaroni at last,
following a fillet de boeuf a la Rossine, the pleasure he took
in eating it was almost sexual, so closely tied was it to Martin and
Martin’s desire to please him. He embarrassed himself with an
inadvertent growl that expressed his immense satisfaction, and as the
sound escaped his throat, both his parents looked at him with
eyebrows raised.
As usual, Pearl read
after dinner. They were nearing the end of Best Intentions, a
rather tedious moralizing tale about a well-off do-gooder and his
little working-class helpmate, who was clearly in love with him. The
story had featured no heaving bosoms, no rakish sons, and no shocking
content whatsoever, for which Henry was grateful, but neither had it
been interesting, unfortunately.
Henry used the
family hour to consider what he should do to Martin as soon as he was
given his freedom. The pleasure of having eaten something that he so
enjoyed had him wanting to keep putting things in his mouth.
Pearl closed the
book and smiled at Henry. “Tomorrow I’ll read the last chapter,
Ma’am, Sirs.”
Mother was possibly
asleep, and Father was busy, as always.
“Thank you,
Pearl,” Henry said. “You have such a nice reading voice.”
“Thank you, Sir.”
Pearl colored a little at the praise.
“Father? May I be
excused?”
“What? Oh,
certainly. Go. Goodnight.” Father waved him off, and Henry left the
room at a fast walk, Martin right behind him.
“Sir?”
“Come on.” Henry
reached back for Martin, grabbed his wrist and pulled him forward. He
leaned close and said, “More than anything, tonight I want to suck
your cock.”
Martin gave a
throaty laugh and picked up his pace. “I certainly won’t deny you
the pleasure, Sir.”
They kissed behind
the locked door, tugging at each other’s clothes and unbuttoning
whatever they could reach. Their jackets fell to the floor, followed
by their waistcoats. Henry pulled the tie out of Martin’s hair and
let it fall loose around his shoulders, held it in handfuls and
lifted it off his neck. Martin tilted his head to the side, arching
his neck, offering it for Henry’s mouth. Henry kissed Martin’s
throat and fumbled with the buttons of Martin’s braces, then the
buttons of his drawers, and then pushed everything down off of his
hips, trousers crumpling around his ankles. Henry lifted Martin’s
shirttails and Martin’s cock stood stiff and exposed, slick at the
head.
“Let me,” Martin
murmured, and he stripped off his shirt and undershirt while Henry
impatiently waited. Martin took Henry’s hands by the wrists and
pressed them against his bare skin while they kissed.
Henry dropped to his
knees, eyes level with Martin’s cock. He held onto Martin’s hips
and pushed him back against the door then nuzzled the wiry hair at
the base of his cock and pressed kisses along its length. He inhaled,
breathing in Martin’s smell, and wondered if other men could
possibly smell so good, if the scent of any other man’s cock and
balls would get him so hard or make him so excited.
Henry looked up past
Martin’s hard cock to his beautiful face and the expression of
dreamy satisfaction he wore. “I’m so looking forward to this,”
he said, caressing Henry’s cheek and smoothing his hair back from
his forehead, then added, “I think you were made to suck my cock,”
in a rough voice.
Henry loved the idea
that he had been destined for this, and that Martin would claim him
for the job. At this assertion, a volley of painless explosions went
off behind Henry’s eyes, his vision going briefly white. He gave a
shaky moan and took Martin’s cock into his mouth, eyes closed, the
bitter-salty flavor so familiar and all the more arousing because of
it.
“Oh, Henry,”
Martin said in a hushed, reverent tone, petting Henry’s head and
tucking his hair behind his ears. “How I love your mouth!”
The flared head of
Martin’s cock slid over his tongue and pushed into his throat, and
Henry made the effort to suppress his gag reflex because he loved the
way it felt to be so full of Martin, so full up he couldn’t
breathe. Martin held his head lightly, ever-so-lightly, guiding his
movements with such deft touches, encouraging Henry to take his cock
deeper into his throat. Henry knelt up with his nose pressed flat
against Martin’s belly, his throat spasming around Martin’s cock,
his fingers digging into Martin’s ass, and Martin shuddered,
crooning at him, his fingers tangled in Henry’s hair.
“Make me come,”
Martin said in that same hushed tone. “Make me come in your mouth.”
Henry worked the
length of Martin’s cock with his lips and tongue and throat,
sucking it in deep and letting it slide almost all the way out again
at a leisurely pace while Martin groaned and squirmed and pawed at
his head. Henry was so blissfully aware of everything, the flex of
Martin’s thighs, the texture of his cockhead, and the little gasps
he made as Henry’s busy tongue molded itself to the shape of his
cock. Henry opened his eyes and Martin was looking down at him, lips
parted and eyes hazy, and his cock flexed in Henry’s mouth.
“I’m close,
Henry, I’m so close,” Martin breathed, frantically combing
through Henry’s hair with clawed fingers. “Please, Henry.
Make me come.”
Henry redoubled his
efforts, intensely sensitive to Martin’s reactions, every whimper
and twitch. He knew Martin was almost finished when he began calling
Henry’s name with a familiar rhythm and urgency, Henry, Henry,
oh, Henry, and shuddered to a sudden stillness, just the faintest
tremor in his long thighs and his fingers knotted tight in Henry’s
hair. Again, Henry took him in all the way, nose to belly, and
swallowed as he came. His own cock throbbed, pulsing just short of
orgasm, and he thought it would take almost nothing to make him come,
too. He held Martin’s cock in his mouth for as long as Martin would
let him do it but, as always, he was too sensitive to tolerate it for
long.
“That’s enough.”
Martin stroked Henry’s hair, patted his head. “Oh, Henry, that
was so good.” He crouched down in front of Henry on shaky
legs and kissed him, tasting himself in every corner of Henry’s
mouth, his arms looped around Henry’s neck. He broke the kiss and
asked, “What about you? You must want to come, too.”
Henry did
want to come. “Let me fuck you.”
“Anything you
want.” Martin stood up, then bent over and removed his boots and
kicked off his hobbling trousers and drawers. “What about your
clothes?” He offered Henry a hand and helped him stand, then felt
his cock through fabric and squeezed. “I’ll just help you with
your boots.” He knelt at Henry’s feet and began loosening his
laces.
Henry unbuttoned his
braces. He yanked at the front placket of his dinner shirt, forcing
the studs out of the stiffly-starched bib. He stripped off his
undershirt while Martin reached up and unbuttoned his trousers and
then his drawers.
Martin knelt up and
kissed his cock. “Do you want me here or on the bed?”
“Let’s get on
the bed.” Now it was his turn to help Martin get to his feet.
Martin crossed to
the bed and lay down with his knees drawn up, his expression
expectant and eager. “Do you want me to get myself ready for you?”
Henry smiled and
shook his head as he came to join him. “I’ll do it.” He liked
to feel the clutch of Martin’s asshole around his oiled fingers,
liked to see the look on Martin’s face as he slid his fingers
inside. He got the bottle of oil out of the nightstand drawer and sat
back on his heels between Martin’s feet.
“Have you been
hard for me all this time?” Martin propped himself up on his elbow
and reached for Henry’s cock with his other hand, petting the slick
head so fondly.
“Yes,” Henry
admitted, face flushing with the admission. “I love sucking your
cock.”
“Kiss me, Henry,”
Martin urged, reaching for him. “I have to kiss you for saying a
thing like that.”
Henry bent over him
and they kissed, Martin’s mouth hungry and urgent, his hands
ranging over Henry’s back.
“Let me get you
ready,” Henry said, breaking the kiss. He wanted to come; he wanted
to feel Martin gripping him tight, hot and slick. He was a little
careless in preparing Martin, pushing two oiled fingers into his body
and then almost immediately adding a third. Martin licked his lip and
spread his legs farther apart and made a little sound, not so much
pained as intrigued, and tilted his hips to meet the pressure of
Henry’s hand.
“You don’t need
to wait,” Martin assured him. “It’ll feel so good if you fuck
me now.”
Henry chose to
believe him, though he suspected it might hurt him a little, too. He
oiled his cock and lined himself up and drove inside, and Martin let
out a long hissing breath and reached for Henry, wrapping his legs
around his back.
“Oh, god, Henry,”
Martin sighed. “You belong inside me.” He lifted his head to kiss
Henry’s neck.
“I’m not going
to last,” Henry warned him. “You feel so good to me.” He bent
and nuzzled Martin’s neck and held him close, trembling and ready
to come.
“Don’t hold
back. Come when you’re ready. Let me help you.” He held Henry’s
face between his hands and kissed his forehead. “What are you
waiting for?” He pressed kisses all over Henry’s face, a tender
lick to the corner of his mouth.
Henry didn’t know
what he was waiting for. He didn’t know the words for what he was
feeling. He began to move and felt his orgasm rushing toward him,
almost ominous, as unstoppable as the shadow of a cloud passing
overhead. His actions slipped his control and he was overcome by a
dizzying combination of pleasure and panic and cried out,
embarrassing himself, but Martin met his cries with tender
encouragement, loving whispers. Henry came, the inside of his skull
going white again, and his hips stuttering to a standstill. He looked
down at Martin, feeling so delicate and raw, and Martin looked back
at him with his beautiful clear eyes, and Henry thought that it might
just be possible that Martin cared for Henry every bit as much as
Henry cared for him. If love was something more than this, Henry
didn’t think he could bear it.
They lay wrapped
around each other a few minutes, but eventually Martin nudged Henry
aside and went for his basin.
Clean, curled
together and headed for sleep, Henry thought back on James’
predicament and Louis’ dismay, and of how his opinion of James had
altered over the course of just a few months. “There’s something
I don’t think I ever told you about James.”
“What’s that,
Henry?”
“It’s a little
embarrassing. Before I met you, I thought I was in love with him.”
“No! Henry, not
really!” Martin was aghast.
Henry laughed.
“Well, he’s handsome, and I thought he was exciting! He’s so
utterly without care. I wanted to be like that, too.”
“Well, I’m glad
you’re not,” Martin said firmly. “You’re nothing like him. I
know I shouldn’t say so, but I think he’s terrible! He does
horrible things to slaves.”
“What has he done,
then? I know the others must tell you about what happens at these
parties they’re going to.”
Martin wrinkled his
nose. “Awful stuff. At the Halloween party, he singled out Tom and
made him do things that I don’t even know the names for. Mr. Briggs
made him take two boys in his ass at the same time! Tom was terrified
he was going to be seriously hurt.”
“How did that even
work?” Henry tried to picture it, where all the limbs would go.
“I don’t know.”
He hugged Henry tighter and gave a shudder of distaste. “I’m glad
you didn’t share me with him.”
Henry had not
forgotten James threatening to fuck Martin at Halloween, and even if
it had been just an idle threat, as Louis claimed, it had still been
exceedingly ungentlemanly to make it. “I’ll never let James or
anyone else hurt you,” he promised. “I’ll protect you always.”
“I know you will,
Henry.”
Henry thought a
moment about the scenario Martin had described, poor Tom stuffed full
of cocks. “So what he did to Tom, that’s definitely not usual, is
it?”
“Oh, no! I
understand that the parties your friends normally have are much less
extreme. It’s only Mr. Briggs who goes out of his way to hurt
slaves.”
“What other sorts
of things happen at James’ parties?”
“Nasty things.
Slaves are fucked in the mouth until they throw up. Slaves are made
to drink until they pass out and then they’re fucked by whoever
wants a go. Mr. Briggs goads masters to be cruel and dares them to do
things that they might not otherwise do. Terrible things like that.”
Henry grimaced,
finding this quite disturbing. “Why would a person even want to do
any of that?”
“Mr. Briggs is
just horrible,” Martin said with conviction. “Peter tells me that
Mr. Briggs finds it all very funny.”
“Peter doesn’t
like him?”
“I don’t think
any slave likes him.”
“What about his
own? What about Joseph?”
“Well, Joseph is
stuck with him, isn’t he? But Joseph is tired of Mr. Briggs hurting
him, so he helps him find new victims instead. Peter doesn’t much
like Joseph, either. He thinks Joseph’s a bit of a bully, too.”
“What about
Freddie?” It had just occurred to Henry that Tom’s master would
have been there to witness Tom’s harsh treatment. “Why didn’t
he stop James from hurting Tom?”
“You know how Mr.
Briggs is, Henry. He’s older and harder, and he has all those
mean-spirited drunkard friends to back him up. The young masters want
to seem worldly and tough to the college boys and end up being
intimidated into letting terrible things happen to their slaves.”
He shook his head, frowning. “Mr. Caldwell didn’t stand up for
Tom.”
A madman could get
away with doing all sorts of awful things to a slave in private, of
course, but Henry didn’t understand how James was able to get away
with tormenting slaves in front of whole crowds without anyone
attempting to stop him. He did it in front of the slaves’ masters,
even!
“Aren’t you glad
I don’t swap you?” Henry pulled Martin closer and kissed the side
of his head.
“I’m glad you’re
so concerned about how I’m treated.”
It was amazing to
Henry how his opinion of James had changed in such a short period of
time, and it had all been through the filter of Martin, of caring
what happened to Martin. It was as if his affection for Martin had
made him more aware of the people around him, let him see more
clearly facets of their personalities that might have seemed
inconsequential before. James had always seemed wild and exciting,
but now that vicious, charismatic energy seemed dangerous, unstable
and unkind. Henry’s regard for Martin had made him more concerned
about everyone’s behavior and character, more interested in
determining who was a force for good, and who for ill.
With James at home
for the foreseeable future, Henry would have to be more cautious in
accepting invitations to the Briggs house. He didn’t trust James to
leave Martin alone, and, although he thought he could win, he didn’t
want to have to fight him. It was better to arrange things so the
situation would never arise.
At Sunday dinner,
Mother seemed more alert than usual, and Henry caught a glimpse of
what she’d been like on her good days when he was little, what she
might have been like when Father first laid eyes on her. She smiled
at Henry across the table.
“Darling Henry.”
Mother's voice came out rough, as if she hadn't used it in awhile.
She cleared her throat and said, “Oh, darling, you’re getting so
tall. I think you’ll be taller than your father before you’re
done growing.”
“I might be,
Mother,” Henry said to be agreeable. He had no real opinion on the
matter. He would or wouldn’t be.
“You don’t take
after my people in that regard,” she continued, “but you seem a
Wilton in all other respects.”
Father looked up
from his plate and fixed her with a steady stare, waiting to see
where she was going with this line of talk.
“Wilton men are
always so handsome, so graceful, and such good dancers, too. You
remind me so much of Reggie, darling,” she said. “Do you remember
your Uncle Reggie?”
Henry did indeed. In
Reggie’s presence, Mother had been another person entirely, a
vivacious creature with flashing eyes and a sense of humor. The
siblings had been close all their lives, and only Reggie had ever
seemed able to lift her melancholy, but Reggie left abruptly when
Henry was just 7, plunging Mother back into a black depression from
which she had never really emerged again. Henry understood that
Reggie had been living outside the United States all this
time—France, perhaps, or Greece? It had always been hurtful that
Reggie had simply left without saying goodbye, and that he had never
written to Henry, not even so much as a postcard.
“Of course I do,”
Henry assured her. “I loved Uncle Reggie.” He darted a quick
glance at Father to see how he would react to this; Father’s gaze
did not waver from Mother’s face, so Henry felt emboldened to add,
“I’ve missed him. Do you ever hear from him at all?”
Mother gave him a
grateful and loving smile; it transformed her into a marvelous
stranger. “I do, darling. I’ve just had word, in fact. He’ll be
with us at Christmas!”
Father coughed and
seemed to be choking; Timothy stepped forward and bent to confer with
him, but bowed away gracefully as Father got his breathing under
control.
“What’s he doing
back in the country, Louisa?” Father’s voice was sharp,
suspicious. “Why is he here?”
“Well, you know
his friend died, that Mr. Ellsworth, and now there’s nothing
keeping him in Italy. He thought he’d come home at long last.”
“He has everything
he needs in Italy,” Father said. “He’s provided for handsomely.
What will he do for money here, do you think?”
“Oh, Hiram, can’t
we discuss this later? Surely something can be worked out! I’ve
missed him so, and I know he’s missed me. He was gone for all of
Henry’s growing up, and he loved Henry so dearly! He’s never even
met Cora!”
This was the most
Henry had heard out of his mother in ages. Just the fact of her
speaking at length like this was remarkable, but the actual news she
had to impart was exciting, too. Uncle Reggie!
Father frowned at
his plate. “You know I don’t care for Reggie. I don’t want my
children influenced by his example.”
“Reggie isn't
harming anyone, Hiram. He's only trying to be happy.” She put down
her fork and let her hand fall heavily to her lap. “Besides, Henry
is nearly grown, Hiram, and entirely under your influence. If
he’s not turning out as you’d like, you’ve no one to blame but
yourself.”
Henry froze,
horrified by her words. He knew he wasn’t turning out as Father
wanted. He looked down at his napkin in his lap and felt his face
grow hot with crimson shame.
“You’re making
the boy uncomfortable with this talk,” Father said gruffly. “He’s
turning out fine.”
Fine. That
wasn’t a positive assessment, per se, but it wasn’t
overtly negative, at least.
“Say you’ll talk
to Reggie,” Mother urged. “Hear him out. He just wants to come
home, Hiram.”
Father made a
noncommittal grunt.
The family hour was
tense, all members of the group sullen and feeling wronged by the
others. Mother sighed and fretted with the edges of her shawl, her
dramatic exhalations interrupting Pearl’s reading. Best
Intentions ended with a wedding, of course, and Henry was not at
all surprised. He’d guessed there’d be a wedding from the first
page.
Paying only the
barest mind to the story, Henry considered the return of his Uncle
Reggie. It was exciting news, to be sure, but upsetting, as well.
Nine years without a word! Would he even remember Henry? Would he
even care how much Henry had missed him?
In the bedroom,
conflicted and emotional, he grabbed Martin and pushed him down on
the bed, half-undressed. He fucked him from behind, pounding hard,
almost frenzied, and then put him on his back and fucked him
face-to-face, now more slowly and looking into his beautiful, calm
eyes. He felt like he might cry, and Martin was ever-so-tender with
him, kissing him and stroking his hair as they moved together.
Afterward, he lay with his head on Martin’s chest while Martin
petted his hair.
“Henry, you’ve
only ever told me a little about your Uncle Reggie. Why don’t you
tell me what you’re thinking now?”
“I don’t really
know what to say. I loved him a lot. I know my father never liked
him. Reggie was always different than other people, and I loved that
about him. Now that I’m older, I’m quite positive he’s some
sort of fairy and obviously Father disapproved of him on that
account. But Father didn’t have to put up with him for very long.
I’ve told you he left when I was just little. He never even said
goodbye.”
“Why do you think
he’s a fairy?”
“Oh, all sorts of
reasons. Like, certain mannerisms he had…he didn’t behave like a
woman, by any means, but he didn’t act like other men, either. He
was very charming, of course, and he’s a Wilton, so he was very
handsome, and he wore the most beautiful clothes. You also have to
consider the kinds of things he was interested in, and the kinds of
things he wasn’t interested in. He was so kind and loving
and unashamed of it. He loved wine and hated cigars. He loved art and
music and dancing. He always brought beautiful flowers when he
visited. He loved women, but not romantically. He loved their
clothes, and their hair, and their manners, but he never had a
sweetheart, and apparently girls were crazy about him. He doted on
his slave. He had a lot of gentlemen friends who were ‘sensitive’
types. I didn’t see all this myself, of course; I was only a child.
Some of this I picked up from hearing Pearl and my mother talking.”
“He sounds
lovely.”
“He was,” Henry
agreed.
“You missed him a
lot, didn’t you?” Martin kissed the top of his head.
“He paid more
attention to me than any of the other adults, so I definitely noticed
when he stopped coming. Mother seemed to just give up entirely after
he was gone. They were always very close, you see.”
“Your poor
mother.” Martin had a great deal more empathy for Mother than Henry
did. “Poor you, Henry. Poor little boy.” He smoothed Henry’s
hair back from his forehead. “It’s good then, isn’t it, that
you’ll have a chance to talk with him again at Christmas?”
“I’m feeling a
bit angry with him, actually,” Henry admitted. “Not a single
letter in nine years.”
“I’m sure he had
his reasons, Henry. Try not to judge him too harshly before you’ve
had a chance to talk with him.”
When Henry was very
young, the entire house had been decorated for Christmas, but since
there would be no guests to see the festive display, only the family
rooms were decorated nowadays. There was a Christmas tree set up in
the upstairs parlor festooned with garlands of glass baubles. Father
had got an electrician in to put electric bulbs on it, and they
reflected off of the tinsel to spangle the room with lozenges of
light.
When the family
gathered after dinner on Christmas Eve, Cora was brought down from
the nursery to open her presents. She brought the bedraggled and
cracked Baby Ann with her so that the doll might renew her
acquaintance with Martin and, to a lesser extent, Henry. Father and
Mother seemed slightly unbelieving that this broken and grubby baby
was Cora’s very favorite, exhibiting a sort of baffled cordiality
as Cora made the introductions. Cora’s presents were the same every
year, it seemed: she would get a new doll, a new tea set, and a new
dress she’d be expected to wear to the Christmas gathering on the
morrow. She did not seem to mind the invariability of her gifts, and
sat on the floor at Henry’s feet and played happily with the new
doll, making it drink pretend tea and pay tribute to Baby Ann.
“Henry, you be
this new girl,” Cora said, shoving the new doll at him.
Henry took the doll
gingerly. She had black ringlets, huge blue eyes, a fussy pink silk
dress. “What’s her name?”
Cora thought a
moment. “Brindle.”
“Really?” Henry
wasn’t sure, but he thought that was an animal color.
“Yes, Brindle,”
Cora said firmly. She arranged Baby Ann on her back on the floor and,
in a high-pitched, slightly spooky voice, said, “Brindle, I need
your help.”
Henry had never
tried to imitate a female voice in all his life thus far, and he was
not any good at it now, this first time. “What is it, Ann?”
“Baby Ann,”
Cora insisted.
Henry cleared his
throat and tried again. “What is it, Baby Ann? How can I help you?”
“Bring me some
tea, Brindle.”
Henry had to get
down on the carpet to make Brindle carry a teacup to Baby Ann’s
imaginary sickbed. Baby Ann then required Brindle to hold the cup
while she drank.
“Is Brindle Baby
Ann’s slave? I thought Baby Ann already had a slave,” Henry said.
“Baby Ann’s a
princess,” Cora explained. “She has lots of slaves.”
“Oh, she’s a
princess? What country is she from?”
“America,”
Cora said, rolling her eyes as if Henry was being especially
slow-witted. And then, in Baby Ann’s sinister, petulant timbre, she
said, “Brindle, tell me a story.”
Henry only knew
adventure stories. In his terrible Brindle voice, he asked, “Would
you like to hear a pirate story?”
Cora wrinkled her
nose. “No, thank you.” She looked up, past Henry. “Martin, do
you know any stories?”
“Miss?”
“Will you play
with me, Martin? Henry isn’t doing it right.”
Henry was somewhat
offended that his efforts were being discounted so decisively and
casually, but he didn’t want to play dolls anymore, either.
Nurse stepped in.
“Miss,” she said, “won’t you show your brother and Martin how
well you can entertain yourself?”
“But they’re
right here!” Cora protested. “I shouldn’t have to play by
myself.”
“Leave the boys
alone,” Father said, and that was that.
Henry didn’t
receive any presents but he was not upset by this; he had not
received presents in several years, though Father often suggested
options when the family came together. Henry was perfectly happy with
this state of affairs; all of his needs were met quite extravagantly,
and he desired for nothing.
“Take yourself to
Hamilton’s if you like,” Father suggested. “Put some things on
account. Let Timothy know so he can tell them to expect you.”
“Thank you, sir.”
Henry liked the idea of a new suit and perhaps some patterned
waistcoats, which made him wonder if he might be able to convince
Martin to wear a waistcoat a little fancier than the plain black he
wore every day. Probably not. Outside of the bedroom, Martin was a
stickler for protocol and rules.
Cora kissed everyone
goodnight and the party dispersed. Henry and Martin went back to
Henry’s rooms and had sleepy sex, and Henry thought that Martin was
the best present he’d ever had.
On Christmas
morning, Henry woke to Martin’s hand on his shoulder. “Merry
Christmas, Henry.”
“Merry Christmas.”
He pulled Martin down into the bed and kissed him. “How much time
do we have?”
“Not much,”
Martin admitted. “I let you sleep longer than usual. We’ll be
wanted downstairs directly for your breakfast.”
Henry nuzzled his
neck and squeezed his ass with both hands. “I’ll give you a
present later, then,” he promised.
Martin laughed. “I’m
counting on it.”
Henry showered and
was shaved and dressed in his bottle-green suit with a red paisley
tie.
Martin smoothed the
shoulders of Henry’s jacket, straightened his lapels, and said,
“You look very festive.”
Down in the
breakfast room, Father was in a foul mood, finding fault with
everything. Father disliked visiting the Wiltons and had discouraged
Henry from becoming any closer to his Wilton cousins, but Christmas
was the one day a year Father could not avoid interacting with his
wife’s family.
“Merry Christmas,
Father,” Henry said hopefully. “Merry Christmas, Mother.” He
sat in the chair Martin held out for him.
“Henry.” Father
said in reply. He looked Henry up and down and frowned at the green
suit.
“Henry, darling.”
Mother seemed almost happy; surely it was the prospect of seeing
Reggie again. “You look very handsome.”
“Thank you,
Mother.”
They had baked eggs
with cheese and herbs, ham, sausage, pancakes with apple-cinnamon
compote, raisin toast with butter and jam, and spice cake. Henry had
two cups of milky coffee. Mother sipped her tea and ate nothing.
Father, complaining of the substandard fare that would be offered in
Gilbert Wilton’s house, ate large portions of everything.
The Wiltons sent
their Clarence around—as well they ought, Father pointed out, since
he’d purchased it for them—as the entire Blackwell entourage
numbered eight people and each carriage could only comfortably seat
four. Henry and Cora rode together in the Wilton carriage, with its
unfamiliar green leather upholstery and fringed curtains, along with
Martin and Nurse. At Cora’s request, Henry allowed her to sit
beside Martin while he sat with Nurse.
Cora chattered to
Martin, adoring and shyly flirtatious, and Henry watched, amused.
Cora could certainly do worse in terms of a first love. Martin would
be careful with her heart. Then, with a pang of guilt, Henry thought
of Alice Briggs. He should be nicer to her. She was just a little
girl, after all.
“That was so kind
of you to play with Little Miss last night, Sir,” Nurse said in a
low voice, patting Henry’s arm. “Baby Ann can be quite the
tyrant.”
“Why that doll?”
Henry asked. “She has so many that are prettier, including the new
one.”
“I don’t know,
Sir. Even before her accident, Baby Ann wasn’t Little Miss’
prettiest doll. I don’t think pretty has anything to do with it.”
They sat in silence
a moment listening to Martin and Cora chat, then Nurse said, “I’ve
meant to say, Sir, that your Martin seems very happy in your
service.”
Henry flushed,
pleased, and said, “I’m glad to hear you think so. I think we’re
both happy.”
“I think now you
have a friend who understands you, Sir,” Nurse said blandly, as if
she didn’t notice how her words intensified Henry’s blush. She
gave Henry’s arm a little squeeze and shake. “It’s the
friendship I’ve always dreamed of for you, Sir, even if it is with
a slave.”
Henry swallowed
hard, so embarrassed he could scarcely speak, but he had to respond.
“Well, the slaves have always cared for me the most anyway,” he
said with a shrug, forced casualness. “It’s possible it’ll
always be that way, don’t you think?”
“Someday you’ll
have a wife who’ll love you, Sir,” Nurse said, but she did not
sound particularly convinced that this was the sort of love Henry
would find fulfilling.
The Wilton house was
twenty blocks south of the Blackwells’ more fashionable
neighborhood, in what had been very fashionable territory a
century past. There were a few old families living here still, but it
was now a thoroughly bourgeois district. The Wiltons were a bit
snobbish about their long-standing residency, though to Henry their
outdated address just seemed to show how far they’d come down in
the world.
Henry liked his
Wilton cousins quite well. Bette and Jesse both had the Wilton dark
good looks and were lively young people with wide-ranging
interests—really, they were exactly the types that Father claimed
he wanted Henry to know but, because they were Wiltons, Father had
instead told Henry to keep his distance.
Over the years,
Father had made sure Henry knew that everything he saw in the Wilton
house had been paid for with Blackwell money. Father had been bailing
Uncle Gilbert out for over twenty years now, ever since marrying
Mother, and seemed to expect to continue to do so far into the
future. Uncle Gilbert had, of course, destroyed the Wilton family
business, and he had done no better with any of the ventures he’d
embarked upon after his spectacular failure with the mercantile
empire. Eventually, Father had given him a well-paid job at Blackwell
Industries where he had no real power and could do no serious harm.
Despite his
professional failures, Uncle Gilbert seemed a happy man. He and Aunt
Virginia got along very well and they were loving with and supportive
of their children to a degree that made Henry quite envious. Not only
were the four of them a cozy unit, but they regularly met and
socialized with numerous additional Wilton relatives, the children
and grandchildren of Grandfather Wilton’s brothers, many of whom
would make an appearance at the Christmas gathering. Henry certainly
would have liked to have been closer to the Wilton side of the
family. It would have been nice, also, to have at least a few
Blackwell cousins, but if any such people existed, Father had long
since cut ties with them.
At the Wilton house,
there was a wreath on the door with a big red bow, and the front hall
was garlanded with evergreen boughs. The house smelled of pine and
spices and roasting meats. Aunt Virginia came to greet them and
accepted a kiss on the cheek from Henry before spiriting Mother away
to a place of honor in the formal parlor where she might “rest”
and wait for Reggie to return from his morning calls.
Uncle Gilbert shook
Henry’s hand and suggested he might join Bette and Jesse upstairs.
“They’re in the music room,” he told him. “Do you remember
where that is?”
“Yes, sir. Thank
you.” Henry headed for the stairs with Martin at his back. Over his
shoulder, he said to Martin, “Jesse’s a year older, and goes to
school uptown. He wants to be a writer or an artist of some kind.
Bette must be 20 now. She’s not getting married just yet; she goes
to college at Bryn Mawr.”
“Very good, Sir.”
Someone was playing
the piano. The door to the music room stood open. Henry gave it a
little rap with his knuckles and pushed it wide.
Bette sat on the
piano bench, picking out a song, her slave Vera at her side. Jesse
sat sideways in an armchair, his long legs draped over the arm. His
slave Russ sat on the floor before the chair, eyes closed, his head
tilted back and resting on Jesse’s hip. Jesse’s hand lay across
the front of Russ’ throat, casually possessive. Henry was startled
and somewhat titillated by this display of intimacy. Neither he nor
any of his friends would dare be so openly affectionate with a slave.
Jesse had only had Russ a few months at last Christmas, and they had
not seemed nearly so at ease with one another at that time.
All four looked up
at Henry and Martin.
“Oh, hello,
Henry,” Bette said, smiling. “It’s so nice to see you.”
“It’s nice to
see you, too.” Henry went to her and kissed her cheek.
“I forgot you’d
have a slave of your own this year,” Jesse said, swinging his legs
around to put his feet on the floor. Although Jesse was older than
Henry, he looked younger, slim and boyish, with glossy black hair
falling in his eyes and a quick smile. He was handsome, to be sure,
and, with a little frisson of jealousy, Henry wondered if Martin
would think so, too. Jesse nodded at Martin. “Very nice. Ganymede,
of course?” When Father had purchased companions for the cousins,
he’d insisted that they come from the Houses he favored.
“Yes, he’s
Ganymede,” Henry agreed. “This is Martin.”
“At your service,
Sir. Miss.” Martin gave each of the cousins a little bow.
Jesse stood up and
stretched, and he gave Russ a hand up, as well. “I’ve found that
the Ganymede boys really are better trained than the others. Don’t
you think so, too?”
Henry had not paid
enough attention to have an informed opinion, but there was no need
to let Jesse know that. “Much better,” he agreed.
Jesse came forward
to have a look at Martin. “Say, you’re only a year apart, aren’t
you?” Jesse asked Russ. “Do you know one another, then?”
“Yes, Sir,” said
Russ, smiling at Martin. “Martin was one of the top boys in his
year.”
“Top boy, eh?”
Jesse grinned at Martin, sensing his embarrassment. “Russ was a
middle boy, maybe, weren’t you, sport?” Russ laughed and didn’t
deny it. “I’m lucky to have him, though. Your father did me a
good turn.” Jesse gave Henry’s arm an affectionate squeeze, as if
Henry had had some hand in the matter. Henry was always a bit
disconcerted by the amount of touching the Wiltons engaged in—he
didn’t dislike it, but he didn’t know how to respond to
it, either.
“Why don’t we
clear out and let the girls play in peace?” Jesse suggested. “We’ll
go to my room.”
Henry followed Jesse
down the hall, the slaves already talking in low voices at his back.
Slaves always seemed able to establish camaraderie with one another
on a moment’s acquaintance, and Henry wished that the knack of it
was taught to free boys, as well.
“We can play
poker,” Jesse suggested. “You know how to play, right?”
They played for
matchsticks. Jesse wasn’t much better than Henry, but he was
better. Henry quickly lost all his matches, Martin and Russ building
up larger and larger piles of sticks.
“Say, Martin,”
Jesse said. “Do you like your long hair?”
“Sir?”
“Do you like it?
Russ got sick of his, so I let him cut it, but now I wish I hadn’t.”
Henry recalled that last Christmas Russ had had chestnut waves to the
middle of his back, but now his hair was quite conventionally short.
“It got in my
food, Sir,” Russ protested. “It’s much better now that it’s
like this, really.”
“I-I do like it,
Sir,” Martin said hesitantly. “I’m a bit vain, to tell the
truth.”
Jesse laughed.
“Imagine that, looking like you do.”
Henry bristled a
little. Was Jesse flirting with Martin?
“How well did you
two know one another at Ganymede?” Jesse asked.
“We were friendly,
Sir,” Russ said. “We were different years, though, so we didn’t
spend a lot of time together.”
“So you didn’t
train together, then?” Jesse asked. “You don’t know each other
that well.”
“No, Sir,”
Martin said. “We were just friendly.”
“Maybe we can
change that,” Jesse said blithely. “After dinner.”
Henry froze,
horrified. He’d not anticipated this sort of interest from his
cousin, and he was loath to spoil the good time they were having, but
he wasn’t going to be willing to share Martin with either Jesse or
Russ.
Jesse seemed quite
unaware of Henry’s dismay. He began to tell Henry about his pen
pal, a second cousin on his mother’s side, a girl called Elizabeth
with whom he felt he was very much in love. He put down his cards so
that he could show Henry a cabinet card of an elfin blonde holding a
black kitten, and Henry agreed that she was very pretty.
“We’ll have
obstacles to overcome, to be sure,” Jesse admitted. “I’m only
two years older than her, and no one will think I’m mature enough
to marry when she’s eligible.” He threw two matchsticks into the
pot; Henry could plainly see that he had nothing in his hand, not
even a pair.
“You’re so sure
you’ll want to marry her?”
“Oh, absolutely,”
Jesse assured him. He discarded three cards and drew new ones that
were no better. “And I’ll be even more sure in three years when
she turns 18.” He bet again, cleaning himself out. “Oh, look, I’m
out of matches now.”
They sat
side-by-side with their backs against the footboard of Jesse’s bed
and watched their slaves continue to play.
“So, Uncle
Reggie’s back, you know. He got here Sunday late.” Jesse bumped
Henry with his shoulder. “He’s the same old Reggie. Still wears
crazy clothes. Still the most loving guy you could ever want to
know.”
Henry often forgot
that Reggie had belonged to other people, too, not just Mother and
himself. “I’m a little nervous to see him,” he admitted. “I
don’t know what to say to him, you know? I adored him, but then he
just disappeared and I never heard from him again.”
Jesse snorted.
“Well, he couldn’t exactly write to you, could he?”
“Why not?” Henry
was genuinely baffled.
“Well, it was
one of the conditions,” Jesse said, as if this were obvious. When
he saw Henry’s confused face, his expression softened. “Oh. Oh
dear. You didn’t know, then?” Jesse put his hand on Henry’s arm
again and gave him a squeeze meant to be comforting. “I’m sorry,
Henry, I thought you knew what happened.”
“Well, tell me.
Please.”
“Oh, gee.” Jesse
looked very much as if he wanted to be elsewhere. “Well, Reggie
owed your father a lot of money, you see, and he had done some things
that your father didn’t approve of, and so he panicked and ran off
to Europe with Mr. Ellsworth. Once he was overseas, well…your
father paid him to stay there.”
“Why would he do
that?”
Jesse gave him such
a tender, pitying look. “To keep him away from you, of course,”
he said gently.
“Away from me?”
Henry felt a terrible sinking in his gut. If this was true, then it
was because of him that Uncle Reggie had disappeared. It was because
of him, then, that Mother had been so miserable for the last nine
years.
“It’s not your
fault, Henry,” Jesse insisted, his hand still on Henry’s arm. “It
was all your father’s doing. Your father isn’t a bad man, Henry,
but he doesn’t trust people, and he went overboard. Anyone else
would have seen that Reggie’s harmless.”
Henry was
devastated. He felt so ashamed! It had all been to keep him from
turning out like Reggie, he realized, and he’d gone and done so
anyway. Everyone had been made unhappy for no reason.
“Sir?” Martin
had laid down his cards and was looking at Henry with a worried
frown. “Is everything all right?”
“Yes, yes, I’m
fine.” Henry was shaking, but at pains to hide it.
“I didn’t mean
to upset you,” Jesse said, sounding genuinely sorry. “Really, I
just assumed you knew, Henry.”
Henry hated his
father! Loathed him! All these years, he’d thought that Uncle
Reggie had just grown tired of him, that the kindest adult in his
life (barring Nurse) had lost interest in him, but in actuality
Reggie had been exiled.
Jesse put his arm
around Henry’s shoulders and gave him a hug that was surely meant
to be comforting, though in truth the contact made Henry a bit jumpy.
There was a knock on
the door and Henry pulled away from Jesse, flustered.
“Jesse? Can I come
in?” It was Darwin Hatch, a towheaded 14-year-old, second cousin to
both Jesse and Henry, who was voluble about baseball and what kind of
slave he wanted when he turned 16 in two years. Henry was grateful to
have someone there to pick up the conversational slack. Darwin’s
chatter was a sort of buzzing hum underlying Henry’s racing
thoughts: was it all his fault? Would Reggie hate him? Did his mother
hate him? Did his father hate them all?
“Sir?” Martin’s
voice, low and close.
“Hmm?” Henry
turned to face Martin, right at his side, looking worried. “What
about your game?”
“I don’t care
about poker, Sir. I heard what your cousin said. Please don’t blame
yourself, Sir, for a decision your father made.” He put his hand on
Henry’s shoulder and Henry leaned into the pressure. How he wanted
to pull Martin to him, to lavish him in kisses and forget everything
he’d heard.
Another second
cousin arrived, Lyle Benson, age 15, with dark Wilton coloring and
looking like a miniature of Jesse. Last year, he’d seemed a child,
but this year he was a young man. Lyle wanted to meet Martin, so
Henry got to his feet and made the introduction. Lyle circled Martin
slowly, eyeing him up and down as if he were a true connoisseur of
human flesh, and approvingly pronounced him, “Really excellent,
Henry.”
Henry nodded in
acknowledgement. He didn’t know how to respond to Lyle’s
compliment. Martin was a person, after all; he wasn’t some
accomplishment of Henry’s.
A slave came
upstairs with a tray of drinks, eggnog in silver cups. All the boys
and their slaves took cups and drank. As Henry watched, laughing
Jesse reached out and wiped eggnog off of Russ’ lip and let him
lick it off his thumb. Henry flushed a startled, aroused red; he
darted a glance at Martin and saw he was similarly transfixed. He’d
never known anyone to be so physically suggestive with a slave
before. For his part, Jesse seemed quite unconcerned and at ease.
Henry wondered if Jesse’s friends were like him, or if Jesse was
considered extreme; their cousins, who saw Jesse often, did not seem
to register anything untoward about Jesse’s treatment of Russ. Was
it possible that at a different school, with a different social
circle, Henry’s own behavior would fall within acceptable range?
The last addition to
their party was yet another second cousin, Eli Carmichael, a handsome
boy with gingery hair a few months older than Jesse, who arrived with
his slave Owen. Owen looked rather like a Wilton, actually, with
long, glossy dark hair, the air of a dissipated poet, and the
red-and-black mark of House Apollo on his chest. Eli looked Martin
over and smiled. “You have good taste, Henry.” Again, Henry did
not know how to respond and became bashful.
“Oh, say,” Eli
remarked. “I almost forgot. Jesse, Henry: your Uncle Reggie is here
now. He’s with Cousin Louisa in the parlor and they’re having a
big reunion scene. Everyone’s in tears!”
Henry’s heart
lurched in his chest. Uncle Reggie! Here! Would Reggie be happy to
see him? Or would he blame Henry for his banishment?
Jesse took hold of
Henry’s elbow. “Should we go down? You do want to see him,
don’t you?”
“Yes,” Henry
said. “Yes, but—”
Jesse waited for him
to finish his sentence, but Henry did not actually know what his
objection was. He was just frightened.
“Come on, Henry.
Let’s go down.” Jesse’s hand on his elbow gently guided him
toward the door. Henry turned to look over his shoulder and Martin
was close behind, smiling at him encouragingly.
They went
downstairs, pushing through a throng of Wiltons and Carmichaels,
Bensons and Hatches. Jesse was still steering Henry by the elbow,
guiding him through the crowd. “Don’t know if you remember, but
the formal parlor is up here on the left,” Jesse was saying. “My
mother wanted them to have their reunion in the nicest room.”
“That was
thoughtful of her,” Henry said, his voice barely audible. There
were familiar faces all around, people he was related to, people he
only saw once a year. Faces passing in a blur. Cousin Sophie. Cousin
Edward. Another of his second cousins, a girl he thought was called
Adelaide. A house full of people, hectic and laughing and happy, and
just twenty blocks from his home, but Father didn’t want him to
have this. Father didn’t want him to have this family.
The parlor door was
closed. Henry hesitated to knock, but Jesse reached past him and did
it, and a man’s muffled voice called out, “Come in.”
Jesse and Henry went
in with their slaves. Mother was crying on the settee, but joyously,
her eyes full of love and her smile brilliant. Henry had never seen
her like this, so purely happy. The man who sat beside her holding
her hand was smaller than Henry remembered, slight and dapper and
very handsome in the Wilton mold, with wavy hair and a neat mustache.
He appeared to have been crying, as well. Reggie’s red-haired slave
Benjamin stood off to the side with Pearl, who dabbed at her eyes
with a handkerchief.
“Oh! Reggie, look!
It’s my Henry!” Henry was taken aback by his mother’s
extravagant enthusiasm. “See how beautiful he is?”
“Henry!” Reggie
stood up and took a step towards him, arms open. “Oh, you lovely
boy! How good it is to see you!”
Reggie didn’t hate
him. Mother didn’t hate him. Choking back a sob, Henry stepped
forward and let himself be embraced. Reggie was small and light, like
a bird, and he smelled of heady flowers and amber. He held Henry
tightly and rubbed his back. Henry found that he was crying and
couldn’t stop.
“I’ll just leave
you, then,” Jesse said softly at his back, and Henry was dimly
aware of the door closing.
Henry breathed in
shudders, clutching handfuls of Reggie’s velvet jacket. “I’m
sorry,” he whispered.
“Whatever for?”
Reggie pulled away from him so that they might look one another in
the eye. “You’ve done nothing to be sorry for, Henry.”
“But I know,”
Henry said. “Now I know why you left.”
Reggie smiled and
touched his cheek. “That’s all in the past, Henry. We’re
starting over again today.”
“I missed you so
much. I thought…I thought you got tired of me.” Henry started to
cry again.
“Oh, no, darling,
no! You mustn’t tell the others, but you were always my favorite,”
Reggie told him. “My little prince. I could never tire of you,
Henry. You were such a delightful child. And look at you now! You’re
almost a grown man!”
Henry fished in his
waistcoat pocket for his handkerchief. He glanced over Reggie’s
shoulder and saw that Martin had gone to stand with Pearl and
Benjamin. Martin offered Henry an encouraging smile.
“I have my slave
now,” he said. “He’s…he’s amazing.” It was a silly thing
to say, and he blushed.
“You’re still
bashful,” Reggie said fondly. He turned to look at the slaves.
“Come here and meet me, young man.”
Martin stepped
forward and bowed. “I’m Martin. At your service, Sir.”
“So nice to meet
you, Martin. I trust you’re taking good care of my nephew.”
“I do my best,
Sir.”
“He’s a sweet
boy,” Reggie said, patting Henry’s arm. “He deserves a lot of
love.”
How he’d missed
Reggie! No one else talked about him like this; no one else thought
he was sweet or deserving. He felt his throat grow tight and feared
he would cry all over again.
There was a knock,
the door opened a few inches, and Jesse stuck his head through the
gap. “I don’t mean to interrupt,” he said, “but Mother says
dinner will be served in five minutes.”
“Thank you,
Jesse.” Reggie said. “We’ll be out directly.”
“Oh dear,”
Mother said. “I’ve been crying so much! I must look a sight!
Reggie, couldn’t we stay here? Maybe Virginia would send us in a
tray?”
Reggie went to her
and took her hand. “Nonsense, Louisa. Everyone wants to see you.
They want to see you happy. No one will mind the tears.”
Mother and Henry
both got themselves under better control and Mother went out to the
dining room on Reggie’s arm just as the clock struck two. Just as
Reggie had said, all the family members were happy and excited for
the reunited siblings. Mother’s cousins gathered around her
offering congratulations and affection, little touches and pats.
Father stood by
himself at the far end of the long table. Henry was surprised to see
that he didn’t seem angry, as he had earlier, but instead looked
sad, even sheepish, as he watched his wife’s effusive relatives
comfort and encourage her. He saw Henry and gave him a solemn nod,
and Henry realized that his father would be able to see that he’d
been crying and felt guilty. It felt disloyal to Father to be so
happy to see Reggie, but he couldn’t help it. He’d loved Reggie
better than either of his parents.
Henry watched Reggie
lead his mother to a chair and hold it for her, both Pearl and
Benjamin looking on, letting him do it. Jesse took his elbow again
and gave it a little tug.
“We’re still in
the family parlor this year,” he said, “with all the little ones.
There’re too many adults for there to be room for us at the big
table.”
There were tables
set up for the young people in the parlor adjoining the dining room
and the smaller children were running between them laughing and
shouting, their nurses trying in vain to corral them. Cora was
already seated, Nurse standing behind her, but when she saw Henry and
Martin, she got up from her chair and darted over to greet them. She
hugged Henry and leaned against Martin’s legs, seeming supremely
contented.
“Hello, Jesse.
Hello, Jesse’s slave.” She smiled up at Russ. “I remember your
face, but I don’t remember your name.”
“I’m Russell,
Miss. I remember you, too.”
“Look, Henry,”
Cora said, reaching into the pocket of her pinafore. “I brought
Honey.”
“Honey?”
“The dancing
bear,” Cora explained, showing him the little bear from her circus
set. “Martin, do you see? I brought Honey to Christmas. I’ve been
telling our cousins all about my circus.” To Jesse she said, “Did
you know, Jesse? Henry and Martin gave me the best present for my
birthday.”
“Really? What was
that?” Jesse asked politely, and Cora proceeded to tell him about
the circus with great enthusiasm and in exhaustive detail.
“Miss?” Nurse
came and put her hands on Cora’s shoulders. “Miss, come sit.
Leave the boys be.”
The rest of the
children and young people began filing into the room. Bette had
graduated to the adult table this year, as had another of the older
girls, but otherwise the faces around the tables were all familiar.
The little ones were attended by their respective families’ nurses,
but only Henry, Jesse and Eli were attended by slaves of their own;
none of the remaining girls was old enough for a companion. Adelaide
and Caroline and Theresa all made a point of telling Henry how
handsome they thought Martin was which made Henry blush. Once again,
he accepted compliments rather gracelessly.
Everyone found
places and sat. Jesse was at the head of the boys’ table, Henry and
Eli to his right and left, respectively, and the rest of the table
filled out with the younger boys, some on their own and others with
nurses. Darwin sat at Henry’s right elbow, whispering questions
about Martin.
“How did you
choose him, anyway? How many did you look at before you picked him?”
As far as Henry was
concerned, the choice had been made for him by fate; he had seen
Martin and responded viscerally to his beauty, and that had been all
he had needed to know to make a decision. He certainly wasn’t going
to tell Darwin this, however, as it was far too romantic and foolish
to share. “Oh, I looked at a few,” Henry said blandly. “He was
the best one. He’s smart, and we like to do a lot of the same
things.”
“I like his hair,”
Darwin said confidentially. “Jesse should have kept Russ’ hair
long.”
The adults went
suddenly quiet, so the young people quieted, too. On the other side
of the wall, Uncle Gilbert cleared his throat and began a prayer in a
loud voice so that all could hear. Henry bowed his head along with
all of his cousins. He wondered what Father was doing, if he was
bowing his head or if he sat upright, scowling at all the
superstitious Wiltons with their pointless prayers. When Uncle
Gilbert said, “Amen,” Henry joined everyone else in saying it,
too.
As champagne was
being poured at the main table, a footman brought flutes for the
three eldest boys, who were all grateful and pleased.
Darwin elbowed,
Henry. “Can I have a sip?”
Amused, Henry let
Darwin gulp down half his glass.
Now there was a
toast. Uncle Gilbert said how glad he was to have Reggie back, his
voice nearly cracking with emotion, and there was a murmuring
throughout the gathering, a gentle but emphatic agreement.
“To Reggie,”
Uncle Gilbert said. “To family. A joyous Christmas to us all.”
“Here, here!”
The adults Henry could see from his seat raised their glasses, so the
boys did, too, clinking them together.
“I’m especially
glad you’re here, Henry,” Jesse said. “I wish we saw you more
often. Maybe, if Reggie stays…”
“Maybe,” Henry
agreed, although he didn’t see how Reggie’s presence altered
anything. Father would still be prejudiced against Wiltons. “Thank
you. I’m happy to be here.”
The Wilton slaves,
their numbers padded with the addition of slaves from other family
households, brought around the dishes for service a la russe.
Despite the good service from the slaves, the meal felt casual—the
early hour, the everyday dress, the laughter and cross-talk.
Lyle, it turned out,
was a fan of Drake’s Progress. Mouth full of quenelles, he
was happy to share with Henry his ideas about how Captain Theo might
beat Dr. DeSade for good and for all.
“I don’t
understand why he doesn’t just shoot him,” Lyle was saying. “And
why doesn’t he ever seem to have a gun at hand when he’s fighting
DeSade? Or his cutlass, for that matter? Why’s it always
hand-to-hand fighting?”
Henry finished
chewing his quenelles before replying. “But DeSade is a really good
villain, don’t you think? If Theo just kills him, what’ll they do
for a villain then? I don’t think they’ll come up with a better
one. Besides, it’s not just hand-to-hand. Sometimes they
have knives.”
Lyle seemed to
consider this. “I suppose you’re right about DeSade, but it just
seems ridiculous that Captain Drake can’t beat him. He beats
everyone else!”
Jesse got the
footman to pour more champagne in their flutes and then turned to
offer his glass to Russ, who sipped and gave it back with a murmured
thanks, and Henry was surprised again. He’d never before seen
anyone treat a slave so indulgently for all to see, with such fond
generosity, with such a lack of boundaries. He found it shockingly
erotic and he blushed once again. He found that he desperately wanted
to question Jesse about his relationship with Russ; it seemed
impossible that they weren’t actually lovers in a real sense.
Eli raised an
eyebrow. “If you’re sharing, I suppose we all need to share,”
he said, handing his champagne up to Owen, who drank giving the
impression that this sort of thing was nothing new to him, either.
Henry hesitated a
moment, then passed his flute up to Martin, who smiled at him and
mouthed, “Thank you, Sir.” Martin drank and Henry took the glass
by the stem and brought it to his own lips. He imagined his lips were
touching where Martin’s had been, and it seemed almost as exciting
and apocalyptic as if they’d kissed in front of everyone. He turned
his attention to his plate, hoping to hide the reddening of his
cheeks by lowering his face over his turkey and cranberry relish.
“What’s in this
stuffing?” Darwin asked, apparently noticing nothing odd about the
older boys’ behavior.
“Oysters,” Jesse
told him, passing his glass up to Russ again. “Don’t eat it if
you don’t like it.”
Peering across the
table and over Eli’s shoulder at the adult side of the party, Henry
tried to see how the adult Wiltons treated their slaves. Were they
sharing glasses with them? He wasn’t seeing the entire room, of
course, but it seemed unlikely.
The turkey was
followed by ham, sweet potato croquettes, broiled chicken, the
pleasant surprise of macaroni and cheese, French peas, and a lettuce
salad which did not interest any of the boys very much, though Henry
took some to be polite. Slaves came to sweep the crumbs from the
table and then brought out cheeses and fruit, mince and pumpkin pies,
and fruitcake. All the adults had coffee and the older boys were
allowed cups as well, including Lyle but not Darwin, whose parents
had forbidden it.
“I’m not a
baby,” Darwin complained. “I don’t know why they treat me like
one.”
While the masters
and their children took their dessert and coffee, the slaves went
into the bowels of the house for their dinner, which would
necessarily be a hurried affair. Henry watched Martin walk away, half
a head taller than either Russ or Owen, bending to speak first to
one, then the other. After the slaves had gone, the boys lolled in
their chairs, feeling stuffed and leaden. Jesse told them about some
French poet he liked, Arthur somebody and Henry was only
half-listening, wondering what Martin was eating, whether he was
getting along with the Wilton slaves.
After the slaves
came back to clear away the last of the dishes and the companions
rejoined their masters, the adult women went to the front parlor,
accompanied by some of the older girls. The men disappeared into the
library to smoke cigars. Jesse pushed his chair back and stood.
“Eli, Henry and
Lyle come with me. The rest of you go to the nursery.”
Henry remembered
what Jesse had implied about after dinner and felt
increasingly apprehensive.
“Even me?”
Darwin protested. “I’m not a baby, Jesse. Lyle’s not that much
older; why does he get to go with you?”
“Lyle’s 16 next
month,” Jesse offered as explanation. “Next year you can come.”
Jesse whispered
something to Russ, who headed for the back of the house. The rest of
them left Darwin with the younger boys, the next-oldest of whom was a
very immature 11, and headed up the staircase. Darwin wore such a
devastated expression that Henry almost felt sorry for him, except
that he would have been relieved to also be excluded from whatever
Jesse had planned.
Once they were
inside his room, Jesse locked the door, lit some heavily-perfumed
incense and threw a tattered red scarf over his bedside lamp, bathing
them all in pink light. Henry felt increasingly ill-at-ease. He was
going to have to excuse himself and take Martin with him, but he
hesitated, unsure when he might be able to do this without looking
hopelessly weak.
Jesse said, “Come
look at what I’ve been drawing, Henry,” so Henry went to see,
looking over Jesse’s shoulder. It was a pencil sketch of a woman,
nude to the waist, lounging on a chaise with her arms stretched
overhead. She had the face of the girl from the cabinet card,
Elizabeth. It showed a great deal of skill; Henry could see why Jesse
was proud of it.
“She didn’t pose
for this, did she?” Henry asked.
“Oh, no, of course
not,” Jesse assured him. “But I’ve told her I’m doing it, and
she’s very encouraging. She encourages me in everything I do, you
see.” He smiled fondly at the drawing, as if it were the girl
herself. “I’ve been writing her the most pornographic letters—you
can’t even imagine!” He thought about it a moment, and added,
“Well, maybe you can!” He laughed and nudged Henry with his
shoulder. “She just keeps asking me for more, asking for the
dirtiest details. I’ve told her she has to burn them after she
reads them. If anyone else finds them, I’ll be in the worst
trouble.”
There was a light
knock at the door and Jesse went to let Russ in, bearing a
nearly-full bottle of champagne. “Will this do, Sir?”
“Good boy,”
Jesse told him, ruffling his hair. He took the bottle from Russ’
hand and took a swig, then passed it to Lyle. All the masters drank,
then the slaves.
Jesse smiled at
Lyle. “Are you ready, then? Ready to be initiated?”
Lyle flushed bright
red. “Heck, yes!”
Jesse waved Lyle off
toward Russ’ attached room. “Slaves, go with him. You know what
to do.”
Martin looked to
Henry, who shook his head.
Henry cleared his
throat. “Martin stays with me,” he said. “I don’t share him.”
“Really?” Jesse
looked surprised. “All right, then. Russ and Owen, you go.” He
passed the champagne to Henry and sat down on the floor, crossing his
legs.
Henry sat, too, and
drank deeply, offering the bottle to Eli.
“No more for me,”
Eli said. He stretched out on the floor, knees bent, hands behind his
head. “I just want to digest for a bit.”
Henry gave the
bottle to Martin, who took a sip.
“Do you never
share him at all?” Jesse asked, nodding at Martin, who leaned
forward to hand him the bottle.
“No, never. I try
to stay away from all that.”
“Even with your
best friends?”
“Really, I don’t
share him. Honestly, Jesse, if I was going to swap him with anyone,
I’d do it with you, but I just don’t. At all.”
In the silence
following Henry’s words, they heard a fluttery moan emanating from
Russ’ room. Jesse and Eli laughed; Henry blushed.
“Fair enough,
Henry. I won’t try to convince you otherwise.” He gave Martin a
long look, smiling. “I’m sure you get lots of requests, though.”
“Most people know
better than to ask,” Henry said, tired of the subject. He found
Martin indescribably desirable, of course, but he sometimes thought
he would have liked it better if Martin’s appeal were less
universal.
After a few more
minutes, a rumpled Lyle emerged from Russ’ room with Russ and Owen,
both nude. Lyle was wearing a huge, irrepressible grin. Rather than
join the older boys on the floor, he flopped face-down on Jesse’s
bed. Owen went to lounge beside his master, bending to murmur in his
ear. Owen had more chest hair than Henry would have imagined, and his
slim body was surprisingly muscular. Russ also looked different naked
than Henry would have guessed, his limbs seeming especially
well-formed and shapely. Russ stood in the middle of the room and
drank from the champagne bottle, tilting it back, his half-hard cock
commanding Henry’s attention. His immediate thought was that he’d
like to suck it, to know what a different cock would feel like in his
mouth, and he felt a flushing heat permeate his skin once again.
“Come here,”
Jesse said, reaching for Russ. Russ went to sit by his side, within
the curve of his arm. Jesse kissed the side of his head. “Thanks
for doing that for me,” he said.
“Anything you
want, Sir, you know that.” He smiled at Henry and then Martin in
turn. “Is Martin really not going to play with us, Sir?”
“Shh. Henry
doesn’t share.”
“It’s a shame,
don’t you think, Sir?”
“Don’t make
Henry any more uncomfortable than he already is,” Jesse warned him.
“The subject is closed.”
“Very well, Sir.
Do you want me to suck you, or would you rather have Owen?”
Jesse turned and
asked, “Owen, are you busy?”
“No, Sir.” Owen
was already getting to his feet. Eli lay motionless on his back with
his forearm across his eyes.
“Come here, then.
Come help Russ. Show me what you did to Lyle.” He began to unbutton
his trousers.
“I should go.”
Henry got hurriedly to his feet, Martin scrambling up behind him.
“You don’t have
to.” Jesse let the slaves finish undoing his trousers and ran his
fingers through Owen’s hair, looking up at Henry wide-eyed and
guileless. “You can stay and watch if you want.”
Henry was shocked
and aroused in equal amounts. “No, I’d better go.” If he didn’t
go, he’d do something he’d regret. “I’ll come and say goodbye
before we leave, all right?” He went to the door and fumbled with
the lock. Martin reached around and turned it for him and they
escaped into the hall. They heard Jesse ask Russ to lock the door
behind them and listened as the bolt slid into place.
“Let’s go to the
music room,” Henry suggested. It seemed like neutral territory,
safe. Thankfully, there was no one else there. Henry sat in the
armchair and Martin went to sit on the piano bench, where he picked
out a tune.
“I didn’t know
you played piano, too.”
“Just a bit, Sir.”
He then belied that assessment of his skill by playing something
beautiful and lingering with a pellucid calm that soothed Henry’s
jangled nerves.
Henry slumped in the
armchair with his eyes closed, dazed, unaware that Martin had stopped
playing until he felt a hand on his shoulder.
“Sir? Are you
feeling all right?”
Henry put his hand
over Martin’s fingers so that he couldn’t pull them away. “Say
my name, Martin.”
Martin bent over
him, his mouth close to Henry’s ear. “Henry,” he said in a low
voice. “My Henry.”
Henry opened his
eyes and looked up at him. “I want to fuck you so badly right now.”
Martin liked the
idea, it was clear. “Maybe, Sir, if we could find a private place…”
Henry shook his
head. “I’m too scared of being caught.” Even if they did only
what was allowed, it would still reflect very poorly on his entire
family if he were found fucking his slave while a guest in someone
else’s home. Such bad manners! It would have been different,
however, if he’d stayed in Jesse’s room with the other boys, if
he’d stayed to fuck Martin while they watched. He shuddered at the
thought and shifted uncomfortably in the chair. “My cock won’t
stop being hard,” he complained.
Martin laughed and
perched on the arm of the chair at Henry’s side.
“So, I like my
cousin a lot,” Henry began, “but I don’t quite understand
what’s going on with him. Do you think he and Russ…do you think
they’re like us? He seems very fond of this Elizabeth, too.”
“I couldn’t say,
Sir. He’s a bit of a bohemian, is what I think.”
“A bohemian?”
Henry had heard the word, but didn’t know how it might apply.
“It means an
unconventional person, Sir. A person with an artistic temperament.
There’s perhaps a hint of…of sexual freedom associated with the
term, if it’s all right to say that about your cousin.” Martin
grinned, seeming to like the idea of sexual freedom, and Henry
wondered with a jealous pang if Martin had wished to stay in Jesse’s
room.
“Do you think he’s
handsome?”
“All of the
Wiltons are very attractive, Sir,” Martin told him. “So, yes,
your cousin is quite handsome, but not so much as you. At least not
to me, Sir.”
“Do you wish I
would act more like Jesse?”
“Sir?” Martin
cocked his head, his expression the very definition of quizzical. He
was doing that thing he did, stalling while he scrambled for an
answer, and Henry felt a little annoyed. He liked to think he could
handle the unfiltered truth.
“Do you wish I was
a bohemian?” Henry tried again.
“If that meant you
wouldn’t be so jealous, Sir, then maybe I would wish that,”
Martin offered gently. “I don’t like it when you’re suspicious
of me. I am very devoted to you.” They both thought on this a few
moments, then Martin said, “I don’t need you to draw nude
pictures of me, if that’s what you mean, Sir.”
Henry snorted. “I
certainly don’t have that talent,” he remarked. “I’m very
boring compared to Jesse, aren’t I?”
“You’re not
boring at all, Sir,” Martin reassured him. “You’re not
as…dramatic as Mr. Wilton, but dramatic people can be very tiring.”
Henry leaned over
and laid his head on Martin’s thigh and Martin petted his hair.
After a few quiet
minutes, Martin said, “Your uncle is just as you described him,
Sir. I can see why you’ve always loved him so.”
“I was afraid he
would hate me,” Henry admitted. “After what Jesse said.”
“There may be more
to the story, Sir. I don’t think you should take all the blame
without first talking to your uncle, or even your father.”
“I can’t talk to
my father about anything,” Henry scoffed. “He’s the one who
sent Reggie away.” He didn’t want to argue with Martin about his
father. “I’m glad you like Reggie.”
“Benjamin is
lovely, as well, Sir.”
“You noticed he’s
from Ganymede, I assume.”
“Yes, Sir.”
“It surprised me
to see Benjamin in regular clothes,” Henry told him. “I think
I’ve mentioned before that Uncle Reggie used to dress him up like a
prince in a fairytale, and kept his hair in these long ringlets…he
really stood out. They both did.”
“Well, why not,
Sir? Your uncle is the kind of man who can’t disguise what he is,
anyway, I think. With me, it’s not quite so obvious. Of course,
there’s no real stigma for a slave, Sir.”
“What about me?”
“No one would
guess, Sir. They would have to see how you are with me in private to
have the least inkling.”
“What about
Jesse?” Then, before Martin could answer, Henry said, “No, wait.
I think ‘bohemian’ covers it.” He laughed and lifted his head
off of Martin’s leg. “I feel calmed down now.” He dared to take
Martin’s hand and gave his fingers a brief squeeze. “I should try
to talk to Uncle Reggie again, I think.” Henry got up out of the
chair. “Let’s go down and find him.”
Reggie wasn’t in
the parlor with the ladies, nor was he in the library with the men.
Father wasn’t there, either. Henry spotted Uncle Gilbert in the
crowd and made his way over to him.
“Hello, Uncle
Gilbert. Merry Christmas, sir.”
“Henry! Why aren’t
you upstairs with the others? Everyone’s getting along, I hope?”
“Everything’s
fine, Uncle. I’m looking for Uncle Reggie. I wanted to talk with
him some more, if he has time.”
“Reggie’s in
conference with your father,” Uncle Gilbert said. “They’re
using my office. I don’t think you should interrupt, though.”
Henry didn’t think
he should, either. “All right then. I’ll wait. Thank you, Uncle.”
“It’s good to
see you, Henry. You’re so grown up now. A real young gentleman.”
Uncle Gilbert clapped him on the back and gave him a sort of
one-armed hug. “Oh, there’s Malcolm. I need to speak with him,
Henry, if you don’t mind.”
“No, that’s
fine, Uncle. I’ll find you later to say goodbye, at least.”
“That’d be
lovely, Henry,” Uncle Gilbert said. Then, calling over Henry’s
shoulder, he said, “Malcolm!”
Henry made his way
out of the smoky library into the hall. He wasn’t sure if it was a
good thing that Father and Reggie were talking or not. Was Father
going to send Reggie back to Italy? What would Mother do if he did?
She seemed so happy in Reggie’s presence. And what about Henry
himself? Not only had Henry missed Reggie’s kindness and the color
he had brought into his world, but if Reggie was a fairy, as Henry
was quite certain he was, then he might be the one person Henry could
talk to about his own situation.
They wandered idly
about the house. The slaves were busy in the dining room, removing
all the leaves from the long dining table and setting up card tables
so that the family might play euchre. Henry watched them work,
loitering at the sideboard and picking all of the chocolates out of a
dish of candy.
“Can I get you
anything, Sir?” Martin asked. “Something to drink, perhaps?”
Henry shook his
head. “I’m all right. Thanks, Martin.” He handed Martin a
chocolate drop that was only a little melted from the heat of his
hand and Martin ate it readily, which Henry found peculiarly erotic.
He loved that all he need do was offer something, anything, and
Martin would take it willingly into his body, whether it be food,
drink, or some part of Henry himself.
It was amazing to
him that he’d only known Martin these past four months and yet felt
about him the way he did. It truly felt as if Martin were essential
to Henry’s very existence. He thought of his mother, bereft after
the loss of her brother. How would he feel if Martin was taken
away? Oh, it was too horrible to think about! He just needed to
continue to exercise caution, keep all signs of his outsized
attachment hidden.
The ladies began to
drift out of the parlor and towards the card tables. Mother was
talking animatedly to Aunt Virginia and, though she leaned on Pearl’s
arm, she seemed less of a dragging burden than usual.
“Henry, darling!”
she called out. “Have you seen your Uncle Reggie?”
“Hello, Mother.”
Henry stepped away from the sideboard and greeted her with a little
bow. “I believe he’s with Father,” he told her. “That’s
what Uncle Gilbert said.”
“Oh.” Mother
stopped short, blinking. “Oh. I hope that’s good news.” Her
mouth trembled and she forced a smile.
Aunt Virginia patted
her arm. “I’m sure it will all be fine,” she said soothingly.
“Try not to worry, Louisa, dear.”
Mother looked as
though she might cry. “Pearl,” she said. “Do you have my
medicine?”
“Right here,
Ma’am,” Pearl said, reaching into her dress pocket. She turned to
Aunt Virginia and asked, “Might we have some tea for Mrs.
Blackwell, please, Ma’am?”
Mother was led to
the settee that had been pushed into the corner to make way for the
card tables and a slave was sent for tea. Mother’s lady relatives
gathered protectively around her and there was no need for Henry to
be there, none at all. “Come on,” he said, with a jerk of his
chin, and Martin followed him from the room.
In the library, the
men were leaving their cigars to smolder in the ashtrays and
swallowing the last of their drinks, readying themselves to join the
ladies at cards. Father stood champing on a cigar and talking to
Uncle Gilbert and a few of Mother’s cousins, all of whom seemed
interested in and attentive to whatever he had to say. Father might
not be the most well-liked person, but Henry knew that he was
invariably right about business matters. That didn’t mean, however,
that he was necessarily right about other things.
Father saw Henry
through the crowd and waved him over. The adults parted to let Henry
join their circle. “Has this been a merry Christmas for you, son?”
It was, for so many
reasons, none of which would likely meet with Father’s approval.
Henry decided to admit it anyway. “Yes, sir. Very happy.” He
wanted to ask where Uncle Reggie had gone, but hadn’t the nerve. He
did look about furtively but did not see Reggie anywhere, though
Reggie was short enough that he might easily be lost in a crowd.
Father had known at
once what he was doing. “If you’re looking for Reggie, he’s
gone to find your mother.”
Henry wanted to
immediately go after him, but feared making Father angry. He stood
looking guilty and discomfited until Father laughed at him somewhat
ruefully and waved him off. “Go on,” he said. “Go find him. I
don’t think Reggie can do you any harm at this point.”
“Very good, sir.”
Henry turned and rushed from the library, Martin on his heels.
Once again, Reggie
sat beside Mother on a settee, holding her hand while she cried. When
Reggie looked up and saw Henry, he brightened and smiled. “Henry!
Darling boy! Come here and sit with us.”
Henry wended his way
between the card tables. “My father,” Henry began, slightly out
of breath. “What did he say to you?”
Reggie reached up
and patted his arm. “You don’t need to worry about that.”
“But are you going
to stay?” Henry desperately needed to know, for his own sake and
for Mother’s sake.
“I have some last
bits of business to attend to in Italy,” Reggie told him, “but I
can come home for good after that.”
“Really?”
“Really and
truly,” Reggie affirmed. “Now, sit. Sit and let me get to know
you again.”
Henry pulled up a
chair from the nearest card table and sat with his knees bumping
against his uncle’s. With a glance over his shoulder, he saw that
Martin was right there behind his chair, his hand resting on the
back.
“What do you want
to know, Uncle?”
“Oh, everything,
darling!” Reggie leaned forward and patted Henry’s wrist. “Do
you have a lot of friends? You were so friendly with that rough
little boy down the street when you were young? Do you still know
him?”
“That’s Louis
Briggs. He’s still my best friend.”
“He was certainly
a noisy child, so boisterous and rowdy, like a little terrier! He had
a great number of siblings, as I recall.”
“There are seven
Briggs kids now.”
“Oh, my! I know
your father wanted a big family, but seven children just seems
so unnecessary to me, darling.” Reggie shook his head,
seeming dismayed by the prospect. “Do you have a lot of other
friends?”
“Well, there are
eighteen boys in my class, including me, and I’m friends with
eleven of them.”
“Those others are
completely beneath notice, I’m sure!” Reggie patted his arm
again. “And of course you’re all new slave owners this year.
That’s been exciting!”
Henry blushed to
think how exciting it had been. “I’m very happy with my choice,”
he said. “Martin is a really good slave.”
“Was he a Superior
boy? My Benjy was Superior, too. Ganymede boys truly are the
best, don’t you think?” Reggie smiled at Henry, then directed a
smile at Martin. Turning to Henry again, he said, “Tell me, darling
boy, what do you do for fun?”
“Er…”
Obviously, Henry wasn’t going to mention sex, though this was
certainly what came immediately to mind. “Well, I like to read—”
“You always did,”
Reggie affirmed, giving him another pat. “You could get lost in a
book.”
“There’s a
serial I’ve been following for years and years, and now Martin
reads it to me and does voices for all the characters.”
“Oh, my. Is he an
actor, then?” Reggie looked up at Martin again. “Are you a
thespian, young man?”
Martin sounded
flustered, perhaps surprised to be addressed. “Oh, no, Sir. I only
like to read aloud.”
“What else do you
enjoy, darling? Are you artistic like your cousin?”
Henry shook his
head. “I don’t have talents like Jesse.”
“You have talents
of your own,” Reggie said with confidence, though Henry wasn’t
sure he was right. “You were always such a graceful child, so
well-coordinated. Watching you play was like watching a ballet.”
Henry thought this
was surely an exaggeration. “Well, I’m still good at…physical
stuff, I guess. Sports and dancing.”
“Wilton men are
all good dancers.” Reggie offered this up as if it were an
indisputable fact.
“We like to go
riding,” Henry noted. “None of my friends much care for it, and
Louis is afraid of horses, but Martin loves to ride.”
Reggie offered
Martin another smile. “You chose well, then, darling.”
“We play poker all
the time, too. I’m pretty terrible at it, actually. Martin almost
always wins, but it’s just fun to play anyway.”
“As I recall, you
were never terribly interested in winning,” Reggie said. “You
were a generous, fair-minded little boy, and I think you must be a
sweet, giving young man.”
Henry blushed. “Oh,
I don’t know.”
Reggie turned to his
sister. “Louisa, what do you think?”
“Oh!” Henry’s
mother had not expected to be put on the spot and seemed slightly
panicked. “Oh, well, I’m sure you’re right, Reggie.”
Truthfully, Henry didn’t think she knew the first thing about him,
and he felt embarrassed for both of them; he didn’t want Reggie to
know how terrible they’d become without him around.
Reggie gave Mother a
stern look but said nothing; still, it seemed he had some inkling
that things were not exactly right between Henry and Mother.
The Wilton slaves
came around offering coffee and tea, and Henry took coffee with
cream, which Martin prepared for him. Reggie and Mother both took
tea, and Henry accepted a plate of ginger cookies.
Reggie sipped his
tea fastidiously, pinky extended. “What about school? Do you get
good grades?”
“I get As in
math,” Henry told him. “I’m average in other subjects, I
guess.” He decided to omit any mention of Latin.
“Oh, that’s
good, darling. I haven’t a head for numbers at all. That’s
why I could never make a go of any business.” He sighed and let
Mother take his hand in sympathy for his failures. “What about a
sweetheart?”
Henry shook his head
adamantly. “I’m not interested in girls,” he said firmly,
wanting this to seem significant to Reggie, but his uncle heard the
information impassively and did not question him further in this
regard.
“You seem very
fond of each other,” Reggie remarked, giving Martin a nod. “There’s
an ease between you. Are you benefitting from ownership, do you
think, darling? I mean, are you learning the lessons you’re meant
to learn? It’s such a tumultuous time in a boy’s life.”
“Uh…” Henry
scrambled for something to say. He’d learned everything, but
nothing he could talk about. “Well, having Martin around has made
me a better person, I think. I’m definitely a better brother than I
was before.”
Reggie’s brow
wrinkled, quizzical. “How is that, darling?”
“Martin is good
with children, and Cora adores him, so I’ve been paying more
attention to her than I did before.”
“How fortunate for
Cora. She seems a delightful child. Very outgoing. She was telling me
all about some circus you gave her?”
“Martin picked it
out,” Henry confessed. It was important to him that Reggie
understand how special Martin was, how vital to Henry’s happiness,
but he couldn’t just come out and say that.
But Reggie must have
had a sense. He smiled up at Martin and said, “The right slave
makes such a difference, darling. I think you’re very lucky.”
While they talked,
the men had come into the room and people were sitting down at the
tables. A chair was brought in from another room to replace the one
Henry had taken. Father stood in the wide doorway to the dining room
talking to Uncle Gilbert. He sent Timothy over to inform them that
they’d be taking their leave imminently and an additional slave was
dispatched to fetch Cora and Nurse from the nursery.
“I need to say
goodbye to Jesse,” Henry said, standing reluctantly.
“It’s good you
boys like each other so well.” Reggie smiled up at him. “I’d
always hoped you would.”
Henry knocked on
Jesse’s door and a few moments later Russ opened it. “Come in,
Sir.”
Both Jesse and Eli
lounged on the floor looking rumpled and indolent, but they were
clothed, and the slaves were at least half-clothed. Lyle lolled on
the bed, seemingly asleep.
“Are you leaving,
then?” Jesse stood and stretched. “Let’s try to see one another
again before next Christmas, all right?” He stepped forward and
hugged Henry and said, “I’d like to know you better, Henry. We’re
almost grown. Surely we won’t have to do what your father wants
forever?”
Henry wasn’t as
sure, but he didn’t say so. “I always like seeing you, Jesse.”
He shook Eli’s
hand, and Lyle was roused so that he might also shake Henry’s hand.
Martin said his goodbyes to the slaves.
Downstairs, while
slaves hurried to bring out their coats, Mother’s male cousins
shook Father’s hand and thanked him for the advice he had given.
Reggie hugged Cora, Henry and Mother, and then shook Father’s hand
very solemnly, and it was like watching a wary housecat touch paws
with a bear.
In the Wiltons’
carriage returning home, Henry toyed with the fringe of the curtain
and thought about what it might be like to have Uncle Reggie around
again, now that he was nearly an adult. He might be able to see Uncle
Reggie independent of either of his parents. He might convince Uncle
Reggie to show him the secrets of the city and the places where he
might be at ease around other people like himself, because surely
they existed, both the places and the people.
At home, Mother
needed a lie-down after the excitement of the day, and Henry boldly
followed Father to his dressing room, hoping that Father might
confirm for him what was going to happen in regard to Uncle Reggie,
but Father didn’t have time for that, as he was running late for a
dinner engagement and needed to change.
Timothy began to
strip Father efficiently. Father glowered at Henry. “Don’t bother
me, Henry. Don’t worry, you’ll have your uncle.”
“He gets to stay,
right, sir? You’re not making him leave again?”
Lips pressed into an
exasperated line, Father gave Henry a sidelong look and said, “I’ve
already told you so, Henry. I made a mistake, son. I’ll do my best
to rectify it. There’s no need to talk it to death.” He looked
down and stepped into his dress trousers, balancing with a hand on
Timothy’s shoulder. “Now, let me dress in peace.”
Martin, who had
known better than to follow Henry inside, stood in the hall waiting
for him. They made their way quickly to Henry’s room, where Henry
took Martin’s face between his hands and kissed him hungrily as
Martin struggled to engage the door’s lock. “For hours,” he
gasped between kisses. “For hours I’ve wanted to do this.”
Martin broke away
and began stripping off his clothes. He smiled at Henry, wicked,
showing teeth. “You were watching your cousin, weren’t you,
Henry? Watching the way he treats Russ, like a favorite pet.”
“It was making me
crazy,” Henry agreed. “He doesn’t even try to hide what he’s
doing, but no one seems to notice!” He tossed his tie on the floor
and went to work on his collar.
“But you
noticed.” Fully naked, Martin came to stand in front of Henry and
slipped his braces from his shoulders. “I saw you watching Russ
lick your cousin’s fingers and it made you hard, didn’t it?” He
pressed the palm of his hand against the front of Henry’s trousers
over his stiffening prick.
“Yes,” Henry
admitted, his voice roughened by arousal.
“You’d like to
be like that with me, wouldn’t you, Henry?” Martin knelt to deal
with Henry’s boots. “You’d love to show everyone how nicely I
lick you, wouldn’t you?”
“Yes,” Henry
said again, petting Martin’s hair with both hands.
“Or would you
rather have Russ lick you? You could have that instead, if you
wanted.” Martin reached for Henry’s trouser buttons.
Henry’s cock
jerked at the thought. “No,” he said, not sounding entirely
certain. “I just want you.”
“You wanted to
stay and watch, though, didn’t you? I could tell you didn’t
really want to leave.” He nuzzled Henry’s cock through his
drawers, then unbuttoned them and slid them off his hips.
“I didn’t want
to be tempted,” Henry explained. “I was afraid I’d—” He
stopped speaking, unwilling to examine exactly what he’d feared he
might do.
Martin licked
Henry’s cock and Henry swayed on his feet, a hand on top of
Martin’s head to steady himself. Martin took Henry all the way into
his mouth and pulled back with heavy suction, took him deep and
sucked again. Henry closed his eyes and held more tightly to Martin’s
head, very aware of the shape of his skull, the muscles of his jaw
tensing under his fingertips. Martin pulled off his cock and Henry
opened his eyes.
“All this licking,
Henry, and talk about licking…would you do something for me? You
might consider it a present.”
Henry smoothed
Martin’s hair back from his face. “What is it?”
Martin gave him a
smile that was somehow devilish and pure all at once. “Lick my
ass.”
Henry smiled back at
him. “Yes, of course. Get on the bed.”
Martin got on the
bed and Henry knelt behind him, putting a hand between his shoulder
blades and pushing him down to all fours. “All the way down,”
Henry told him. “Ass up.” Martin dropped down to rest on his
elbows, his back arched. Henry put a hand on each of his ass cheeks,
and pulled them apart, exposing his hole. He leaned over him and let
a pendant of saliva fall from his mouth to land on the dusky skin
just above the pucker and mentally congratulated himself on his aim.
Martin whimpered and flinched, and Henry spit again and watched the
viscous fluid run down over Martin’s twitching hole.
“Henry, please,”
Martin murmured, low and urgent.
“Please what?”
“I want your
mouth.”
“Be patient,”
Henry told him. He slapped Martin’s ass hard enough to sting, then
smoothed away the hurt with a caress, and Martin gasped and
shuddered.
He spread Martin’s
cheeks again and rubbed his finger over the tight opening, pushing
just the tip inside, and was gratified to hear a little growl from
Martin. He bent and bit Martin’s left cheek hard enough to make him
yelp and then began to lick him.
Long strokes of his
tongue back and forth over the hole then circling it with his tongue,
pushing at the muscle, plunging inside. Martin moaned and shook; he
was so sensitive here, so responsive to everything Henry did. The
skin felt so smooth and thin beneath his tongue, delicate but elastic
and hot. Martin was even hotter inside and quivered, breath hitching,
as Henry tried to push his tongue in deeper, then deeper still.
Henry could feel in
the way Martin’s body shuddered that he was touching himself, his
hand moving over his cock. Henry lifted his face from Martin’s ass.
“Stop it,” he said. “You can’t touch yourself.”
“Please!” Martin
begged. “Please, Henry!”
“Not yet,” Henry
insisted. “Not unless you want me to stop.”
“No, Henry,
please don’t stop!”
He bent back to his
task, licking and nipping at the tender skin. Martin began to breathe
in sobs, began to beg, please, Henry, over and over again. It
was only when Martin was hiccupping and frantic that Henry decided
he’d withstood enough and oiled his cock and fucked him.
“Touch yourself,”
he said, pushing the head of his cock into Martin’s spasming hole.
“Now you can touch yourself.”
It didn’t take
Martin long to finish, wracked with tremors and calling Henry’s
name. Henry came then, too, pulled Martin close, and curled around
him.
“Merry Christmas,”
he said, his voice muffled by Martin’s hair.
Martin chuckled and
reached back to keep him close. “Merry Christmas to you, too,
Henry.”
“I’ve been
spoiled, you know,” Henry told him. “There’s never going to be
a better present than you.”
“I could say the
same.” He turned in Henry’s arms and kissed him.
“Did you have
Christmas at Ganymede? With a tree and presents?”
“We had a big tree
and a nice dinner, and we all got a tangerine and a piece of candy,
but no, we didn’t have Christmas like people out in the world.
There were too many of us to have presents.”
Henry hesitated a
moment, considering whether he would say anything after all, but then
offered, “I…I have something for you, actually.”
“For me?” Martin
was plainly delighted. “You’re giving me…a present?”
“It’s nothing,
really.” Henry was already regretting committing himself to sharing
the gift. “I’m pretty sure I didn’t do it right.”
“A present…”
Martin repeated, his tone wondering.
“Don’t get too
excited,” Henry warned him. “Let me just get it.”
The present was in
his desk drawer, small enough to hide in his hand. He’d made it
just over a week ago, hunched over his desk pretending to be
diligently doing homework while Martin played the violin at his back.
Martin sat
cross-legged near their pillows, beaming with anticipation and Henry
cringed a little, quite sure that Martin would be underwhelmed by his
offering, possibly even offended. He might have committed some
terrible faux pas—he didn’t know the rules, after all.
He sat on the bed
facing Martin, their knees touching. “Hold out your hand.”
“Should I close my
eyes?”
“If you want.”
Martin closed his
eyes, grinning, and gave a happy shudder. Henry took and held a deep
breath and put the talisman in Martin’s hand. He held it there with
his own hand, pressed between their palms.
“What is it,
Henry? Can I look?”
“You can look,”
Henry agreed, letting go of his hand.
He’d gotten the
idea when he saw the rock in the schoolyard, a pale, flattish disk
that he’d thought would make a perfect Hetaeria protection stone.
His first thought had been to give it to Martin to use for that
purpose; his second thought was to make it into such a talisman for
Martin himself. Martin had talismans from all his other friends, but
surely Henry was his most important relationship, and surely no other
friend was as concerned with his well-being.
Martin opened his
eyes and looked at the decorated stone. “Henry?” He looked a
little tentative, a little confused.
“If I did it
wrong,” Henry hurried to say, “tell me, and I’ll undo it, or
fix it, or whatever needs to be done.”
Martin’s hand
curled around the stone, just slightly, and he touched it gently with
a fingertip. His tone was awed, a little unbelieving, when he said,
“You made this for me?”
“I don’t know
the right symbols or anything,” Henry admitted in a rush. “And I
didn’t have any paint, so it’s not pretty, but I just…” He
sighed. “I want you to have my protection, too, my
friendship. You told me the talismans represent relationships, so…so
this is me caring about you.” He swallowed nervously and clasped
his hands tightly to keep them from shaking.
Martin didn’t say
anything, but traced the heavily-inked H on the stone’s face with
his index finger. Henry had done his best job with the lettering and
it had turned out rather elegant. He’d also drawn some
spiral curlicues around the edge of the disk and these were perhaps
less artistically successful.
“If I did it
wrong…” Henry said again.
“No.” Martin
shook his head adamantly, and looked at Henry with wet, shining eyes.
“No, Henry, you did it perfectly.” His smile was tremulous,
joyous, and he got to his knees and leaned in to loop his arms around
Henry’s neck. “It’s so thoughtful of you, Henry! So
considerate. It’s a perfect present. You really do care for
me, don’t you?”
Henry snorted. “More
than anything.” He returned the embrace, full of happy relief that
he hadn’t done anything inadvertently stupid.
Martin was an
awkward fit on Henry’s lap, clinging fierce and insistent, all
elbows and knees. His cheek was wet against Henry’s neck.
“Martin? Are you
crying?”
“Don’t make
fun,” Martin said. “I’m happy. I’m so happy you would
do this for me, Henry.”
Henry lay back on
the bed and pulled Martin down with him. “I’m glad you like it.”
“I love it.
I never thought I’d have a master like you, Henry. A friend like
you.” He kissed Henry’s cheek, the corner of his mouth. “You’re
so good to me, Henry. I feel so lucky.”
“Me, too,” Henry
told him. He tasted the tears on Martin’s wet cheek, then kissed
his mouth. They necked for a bit, Martin squirming and making little
insistent grunts as they did so, but Henry was content to do nothing
more than kiss and Martin didn’t press for more.
Martin smoothed
Henry’s hair back from his forehead and smiled down at him.
Bashfully, Martin said, “I’m sorry I don’t have a present for
you.”
“You can make a
talisman for me sometime,” Henry suggested. “Only if you want to,
of course.”
“I will,” Martin
decided. “I’ll make you something really special.”
They lay in each
other’s arms a few contented minutes and then Henry’s stomach
rumbled.
“Are you hungry
yet?” Henry asked. “Did you get enough to eat at the Wiltons’?
I want some of that cake we had at breakfast.”
“I want cake,
too.” Martin hesitated, then asked, “Henry? Is it all right if I
put your talisman away?”
“You have to,
don’t you? You’re not supposed to leave them out, right?”
Martin smiled. “No,
they shouldn’t be left out. Let me just put yours with my others.”
Henry liked that
Martin was treating his offering just as he’d treat any legitimate
Hetaeria talisman made by a slave who knew what he was doing. Henry
felt his was a gift where it was definitely the thought that counted,
and Martin seemed to be taking the thought to heart.
Martin went into his
room with talisman in hand and returned in his pajamas and dressing
gown. He helped Henry to dress and then they went down the back
stairs to the kitchen. Many of the rest of the household’s slaves
were in the slaves’ mess room just off of the kitchen celebrating
their own Christmas, and when Cook heard them shuffling around, she
came out to see what they wanted.
“Mr. Blackwell was
hoping for some more of your spice cake, Bertie,” Martin said. “Is
there any left from this morning?”
“I’ll just get
that for you directly, Sir,” she said. “And for you also,
Martin?”
“Yes, please.”
She cut them large
squares of cake and found them forks and napkins. “I’ll get you a
tray, and I’ll send Billy up for it later.”
“Thank you,
Bertie. Could we also trouble you for some milk?”
Martin carried the
tray up to their rooms. Henry was struck anew by how competent and
imperturbable he was, what impeccable service he provided. He was so
very happy that Martin was his own, that he’d have Martin as long
as they both lived. They sat on the floor of his bedroom in front of
the dying fire and ate their cake.
“Today was
wonderful,” Henry said. “Everyone made me so happy. My uncle, my
cousin, even my mother, and you most of all.”
“What about your
father, Henry? He’s letting your uncle stay, after all. You must
feel a little pleased with his decision.”
“I’m more than a
little intimidated by my father,” Henry admitted. “Knowing what I
know now, I’m afraid of what would happen if he found out what I’m
really like. Do you think he’d want to be rid of me? Would I be
exiled, too?”
“You’re
important to your father,” Martin insisted. “He wouldn’t do
that.”
“He might. He
might replace me with little Calvin Murdock.”
“He wouldn’t.”
Martin was adamant about this. “You are his legitimate son, Henry;
you’re his heir. He does have great expectations of you, but I
don’t believe he would ever throw you over.”
Henry felt like he
knew his father better than Martin did, having sixteen years
experience of the man versus Martin’s few months. Then again,
Martin was a keen observer, and thus far Martin had proven right
about so many things.
“Your father gave
all the slaves a present, did you know, Henry? Mr. Tim handed out the
envelopes at breakfast.”
“What did he give
you?”
“A hundred
dollars!” Martin exclaimed. “What am I going to do with a hundred
dollars?” He laughed, amused at the thought.
“You’ll think of
something you want,” Henry told him, although he wasn’t sure this
was true. Martin seemed content with what he had, what was given to
him.
Martin put the tray
outside the door and they undressed and brushed their teeth. They got
into bed and curled up together, Martin making himself small and
tucking his head under Henry’s chin; Henry found it unbearably
sweet how Martin found ways to insinuate himself, to fit closer and
closer, so that even though he was nearly as tall and
broad-shouldered as Henry, he still managed to seem vulnerable, in
need of protection. Henry kissed the top of Martin’s head and drew
him close. He loved Martin so much, he was sure of it, but was afraid
to say it because it would kill him if Martin didn’t feel the same.
“Goodnight, Henry.
My sweet Henry. Thank you so much for the present.” Martin pressed
a kiss to his collarbone.
I love you.
It was right there on his tongue, but Henry swallowed it. “Goodnight,
Martin.” He rubbed his cheek against Martin’s hair and closed his
eyes.
On New Year's Eve,
Cook served a light buffet. Mother went to bed early and Father went
to some fancy-dress ball, no doubt meeting up with Mrs. Murdock,
taking Timothy with him. At Martin's suggestion, they went up to the
nursery and wished Cora a Happy New Year and Henry gave Nurse a kiss.
At ten o'clock, he and Martin walked to the Briggs house and met up
with Louis and Peter. The four of them walked a few blocks further to
the Ross house. There were adults in evening dress alighting from
carriages in front of the house, and the boys slipped inside between
arrivals. Henry had only ever been to the Rosses’ house for
Charles’ birthdays and was surprised that the Rosses' footman
seemed to know Louis' by sight.
“Good evening, Mr.
Briggs.”
They surrendered
their coats in the tinsel-bedecked hall. As they were climbing the
stairs to the second floor at the footman's back, Henry questioned
Louis. “Why does he know you?”
Louis shrugged and
blushed. “I’ve been over a few times.”
Henry raised an
eyebrow, hoping Louis would elaborate, but for once Louis was
close-mouthed.
They were delivered
to a parlor full of boys and their slaves who were in the middle of a
game of Twenty Questions, where the answer was plainly “cock,”
though everyone was having such fun howling at the questions that it
was obviously better to prolong the game than to win.
“Can I put it in a
slave's mouth?”
“Can I put it in
your mouth?”
Charles came to
greet them, his cheeks very pink. He offered them a flask and they
took surreptitious sips. “Once the party gets underway downstairs,
we won't have to be cautious with the liquor, but until then we
should be discreet.” There were perhaps ten boys in and out of the
room and the room adjacent, all with their slaves, and there were
several flasks in circulation.
Someone said, “Are
we getting the slaves drunk, too, then?” with laughter as the
response. Someone shoved a flask into Martin's hand and he took a sip
and passed it to Peter.
Charles’ best
friend Robert sidled up to Henry, offered him a nearly-empty flask,
and said, “Isn't this the first one of Charles' parties you've been
to?”
“Yes,” Henry
said. “Does he have lots of parties? I didn't know.”
Robert blushed,
realizing his faux pas. “Oh, well. I think he must have thought you
wouldn't come before.”
Henry thought of the
Rosses' footman familiarly welcoming 'Mr. Briggs,’ and realized
that Charles must host swap parties, was maybe even the main host of
swaps in their class, and that Louis had been coming to Charles’
parties without telling Henry or seeing to it that he was invited,
and this stung a little. More than a little.
The game of Twenty
Questions came to an end in a crescendo of hilarity that made
everyone in the room fall about laughing, though perhaps only five or
six of them had actually heard the joke. Henry certainly hadn't heard
it, but the mood was infectious and he laughed anyway. Some of the
boys found paper and pencils and started a game of Dictionary. It
promised to be crude and filthy. Henry moved closer to the players so
he could hear the definitions. He dared to touch Martin's hand in
passing and felt Martin's eyes follow him as he made his way across
the room.
The adult party
downstairs was noisier now, the orchestra having started playing.
Charles recruited Robert and two others to go downstairs with him to
steal some bottles. Henry stood a little apart, watching his
classmates laughing together. He felt some distance from them;
perhaps the alcohol would help with that. What he really wanted to do
was talk with Martin, but he knew how odd it would look if he chose
to be with his slave over his friends. For his part, Martin looked
very happy and at ease with his fellow slaves; Henry wondered, not
for the first time, if Martin ever ached for him the way he did for
Martin.
Louis was writing up
his definitions for Dictionary when Charles and the rest returned
with bottles of gin and whiskey. The game was abandoned for the
moment as Robert handed around glasses. Charles brought round the
whiskey and poured.
“Cheers,” he
said.
“Cheers.” Henry
raised his glass. “What about them?” he asked, with a nod of his
head toward the slaves. “Are they drinking?”
“They have a
bottle to pass around,” Charles said. “We don’t want them too
drunk, though.” As Charles spoke, his Simon tilted back a bottle of
gin and then passed it to Martin.
Louis came to stand
by Henry. “Who do you think will be first to get sick?” he asked.
“I know it won't be me.” Louis had a cast-iron stomach, hardened
by years of attending James' parties and taking his dares.
“Me neither,”
Henry said, though he had far less authority to make such a claim.
“Maybe one of the slaves?”
“Nah,” Louis
said, shaking his head. “They never get that drunk at these things
unless someone insists. They're always on duty, after all.”
“You've been to a
lot of Charles’ parties, I guess.” There was more acid in Henry's
tone than he'd intended, and he was a little embarrassed at how
jealous he sounded.
Louis colored. “They
haven’t been the sort of parties you’d like Henry.”
“How do you know
what I'd like?” Henry asked, surly, tossing back his whiskey.
Louis scoffed at
this. “How would I know? Right, Henry.”
“I might have
changed my mind,” Henry said, just to be contrary. He had not
changed his mind. “Is this a swap party, then?”
Louis shrugged,
looking uncomfortable. “I don’t know what Charles has planned. Do
you want more whiskey, then? Or would you rather have gin?”
Henry made a
conscious effort to shake off his jagged jealousy, to be in a more
lighthearted mood. He let Louis pour him more whiskey and tried to
drink it judiciously, not wanting to be the fellow vomiting in the
toilet while the rest were having fun.
Everyone was feeling
the alcohol, that was plain. Charles and Robert tried to act out for
the group a recently-viewed peep show of men leap-frogging, which
resulted in Charles falling on Robert's head, laughing helplessly.
“It's not supposed
to go like that,” Robert said, wincing and rubbing his scalp.
“Make the slaves
do it,” someone suggested.
Charles shook his
head. “No. Don't want to tire them out now, do we?”
Henry took a seat on
the sofa. He felt a little out of place, embarrassed by the
understanding that all of these boys had been getting together
without him. It wasn’t exactly a surprise, of course, but he’d
tried not to think about it. He didn’t want to swap Martin, but he
wanted to be included anyway, somehow, and it hurt that he hadn’t
been. He knew he was different than the rest, but he didn’t want to
be an outcast.
He didn't have much
to contribute to the conversation, but as the boys around him
chattered, he laughed at their jokes and encouraged them to tell
their stories. He drank still more whiskey, dimly thinking that it
might not be his best idea to get drunk. Louis caught his eye now and
then and smiled. He could hear Martin's voice at his back, Martin's
laughter, and resisted the urge to turn around to look at him.
The whiskey bottle
was passed around and around, Henry topping off his drink each time
it came his way. The door to the other room was closed now and Henry
realized he’d never seen what was on the other side. Gradually,
Henry blearily noticed that the crowd was thinning out. Had Charles
made another liquor run and taken the group with him? Louis sat
across from him on a spindly chair, Albert sat cross-legged on the
floor, Wendell and Freddie stood in the corner mixing gin and whiskey
in their glasses and making faces as they drank the results. Where
had the others gone?
Albert stood up and
called to his slave. “Stuart!” To the rest, he said, “I'm going
in, then, I guess. See you in a bit?”
“Maybe later,”
Louis said. He flushed and looked down at his drink.
Albert opened the
door leading into the next room and ushered Stuart inside, then
followed him in and closed the door behind them.
Wendell and Freddie
looked at each other and shrugged, then beckoned to Ralph and Tom.
They also disappeared behind the connecting door, leaving just Louis
and Henry and Peter and Martin in the room.
There were thuds and
laughter from behind the door. Henry felt a distinct unease. “Louis,
what's going on?” He knew, though.
Louis winced. “Aw,
you can guess, can’t you, Henry?”
Henry could. “But
there’s a whole ball going on downstairs!” he said in protest,
thinking how improper it seemed to be having a sex party over the
heads of the oblivious adults. But just the other day, his own
cousins had been swapping with a very merry Christmas party happening
below. Boys could swap in any circumstances, it seemed, their
determination and lust unaffected by unfavorable or precarious
conditions.
“We do this all
the time, Henry. The adults don’t interfere—they know exactly
what’s going on. The rest of us have been getting together to play
with them since we first got them. You had to know this, Henry.”
Of course Henry had
known, but he hadn’t wanted it to be true. “Why haven’t I been
invited, then?” he demanded.
“You’ve never
liked the idea of swapping, Henry, and I’ve always known this. I
told people not to invite you, because I didn’t want you to be put
on the spot. Besides, when you fought with Adam about the…cocksucking
incident, you made it clear to everyone that you didn't want to
share, so why would they invite you to parties where sharing is the
point?”
“Why was I invited
to this party, then?”
Louis shrugged,
looking irritated. “I don't know, Henry. Ask Charles. But
I'd guess it's because you're a good guy and he likes you all right,
and maybe he thought you'd have changed your mind about swapping by
now. If he'd have asked me, I'd have told him not to invite
you. No one needs you being all judgmental, Henry. We’re not doing
anything wrong.”
Angrily, Henry
drained his glass. “I’m not being judgmental,” Henry
insisted. “Just because I don't want to share Martin doesn't mean I
care what the rest of you do with your slaves,” he said, though
this was actually untrue. He did care about how the other slaves were
treated.
However, despite his
sincere concern for their well-being, Henry was absolutely not
opposed to the slaves being made to have sex at a master’s whim.
The idea was extremely titillating. In truth, Henry would very much
like to observe a swap party, if not actually participate in it. He
imagined being with Martin, hidden behind some filigreed screen or
velvet curtain, watching and listening and pleasuring one another as
inspiration hit. He didn’t really want to see his friends’ cocks,
but he liked the idea of seeing the beautiful slaves naked and
aroused. He liked the idea of seeing two boys kiss. He liked a lot of
things about the idea of swaps, but he didn’t want to share. He
wouldn’t. Martin was his own.
The door opened and
Albert leaned into the room. “Are you two coming?” There were
shouts and laughter behind him.
Louis turned around
in his chair to answer. “Just a few more minutes, I think.”
“What about you,
Henry?” Albert tilted his head, cocked an eyebrow. “Don't you
want to come in?”
“He doesn't
share,” Louis said hurriedly. “You remember that, right?”
Albert waved this
off as if it were of no consequence. “Come in and see,” he
encouraged. “Just bring your slave and get in here.”
Henry was torn. He
did want to see. He was curious. He thought of Jesse
inviting him to stay and watch; this might be like that. He wouldn’t
have to share Martin. He could just look. He stood up, swaying a
little on unsteady legs. He was drunker than he’d realized.
Louis stood, too,
and put a hand on his arm. “Henry. Maybe you should just go home.”
Henry shook off
Louis' hand. “No, I want to see. Martin, come here,” he called.
“You, too, Peter.”
Albert pushed the
door open and ushered them inside with a sweep of his arm. It was
some sort of library or game room with a table in the center,
bookshelves all around, a settee to the left. The masters were
arrayed around the perimeter of the room, lounging against the
bookshelves or sitting slumped on straight chairs. Their faces were
sly, indolent, and they sipped their drinks with their eyes firmly
fixed on the flesh of the slaves. The slaves were all naked, their
strong young bodies every form of perfect, their discarded clothes
piled in the corner. The scent of male arousal was heavy in the air.
Freddie's pretty Tom was on his back on the gaming table and Robert’s
Dick stood between his thighs fucking him. Tom made little hitching
sounds with each slam of Dick’s hips against his ass. As Henry
watched, Charles' Simon went to stand by Tom's head and Tom fellated
him awkwardly, craning his neck. At the directive of one of the
masters, David's Alex reached for Tom's cock with one hand while
stroking his own with the other. Slaves not directly engaged in this
tangle were kissing one another and playing with one another's
pricks. Without being told to do so, Peter began to strip off his
clothes. Martin moved to join him, but Henry caught his wrist and
held him in place.
Charles sat on the
settee with his cock out, stuffed into the mouth of Albert's Stuart,
who knelt naked on the carpet. He looked up when Henry and Louis
entered with their slaves. “Ah-ha!” he cried. “Finally, Henry!
I thought we'd never see you and your fancy slave at one of these
things!” He kept his hand on the back of Stuart's head as he spoke.
Henry panicked a
little. “I'm not—” he said. “I mean, Albert said that I
didn't need to, or, rather, I don't share.” He felt relieved to say
it. “I’m not going to share Martin.” Making himself clear.
Charles looked
baffled. “But why not?” he asked. “You'll never know if any of
them are better than yours unless you try.” He looked down at his
lap. “Stuart here has the best mouth, in my opinion, but Robert
swears by my Simon.”
“No one's favorite
is their own, it turns out,” Albert said, close at Henry's elbow.
“It's fun as hell to try them all, Henry.”
“But you have to
share,” Charles said. “Or it isn't fair.”
Across the room,
Freddie unbuttoned his trousers and called to Peter, who went without
even looking at Louis, as if while he was in this room he belonged
equally to any of the masters.
Henry shook his
head. “No. Sorry. I won't share.” He wouldn’t put Martin in the
position of having to answer to any master who called his name. He
wouldn’t be able to bear it.
Charles frowned.
“Well, you can't just stand around and watch, Blackwell. It's not
fair to the rest of us. Play along or leave.” He petted Stuart's
head then pushed it down into his lap. “Acting like some stuck-up,
selfish prude,” he muttered, but meaning for Henry to hear.
“Completely unreasonable.”
Fuming, Henry turned
on his heel, elbowed Albert aside and opened the door.
“If you go,
Blackwell,” Charles called, “I won't let you change your mind. I
won't invite you to another one of these.”
Henry did not turn
around. “Thanks for your hospitality,” he snarled. He stormed out
of the room, Martin close behind him. They exited the party room into
the hallway and Henry made a wrong turn somehow, taking the service
stairs and ending up in the kitchen, and one of the scullery maids
had to find them a footman to get their hats and coats and see them
out the door.
It was bitterly
cold. His nose began to run almost immediately. He wanted to crush
Martin to him, to protect him and hold him close, but they were on a
public thoroughfare and so he could do nothing of the kind. He walked
faster. The thought that anyone else might touch Martin, and that
they might do so callously, was completely unacceptable. Louis had
been right: these were not his kind of parties.
“Sir? Sir?”
“What is it?”
“I—I wouldn't
mind, Sir. If you want.”
“What?”
“If you wanted to
go back, Sir, I…would understand. This sort of thing…I knew it
could happen. It's well-known that gentlemen have these sorts of
parties after all, Sir.”
Incredulous, Henry
came to a dead stop under a streetlight. “What? You wouldn't mind?”
Martin was just as bad as the rest of them! “I mind, Martin!
You…you matter to me.” He took hold of Martin's shoulders
and gave him a good shake.
Martin pushed his
glasses up his nose. “Sir, I only meant—”
“It's bad enough
there were men before me, Martin. There aren't going to be any
others after me.”
“Of course, Sir.”
Henry strode off,
and Martin hurried to catch up. “And why the hell would I want
to go back?” he demanded. “What possible reason would I have?”
Martin appeared to
be choosing his words carefully. “It's just that the boys you know
now will be your business associates in the future, Sir, and these
sorts of activities bond boys together. It may be advantageous in the
future, Sir, is what I'm saying.”
Henry understood
what he was talking about, but he didn't care. The idea that he might
someday lose out on a business deal because he hadn't let a friend
fuck Martin's mouth when they were 16 seemed of no importance at all.
“It doesn't matter to me, Martin. They're all careless and selfish,
even Louis. I would never let them use you.”
“Just so long as
you know, Sir. I wasn't sure you understood the implications, seeing
as how Mr. Blackwell is such an iconoclast—”
“A what?”
“A unique
individual, Sir. A self-made man. Mr. Blackwell wasn't brought up
understanding how things are done in high society, if you don't mind
me saying so.”
It was true that
Father hadn't had the experiences with Timothy that Henry was having
with Martin. Father had no idea how to grow up rich—at Henry's age,
Father had been out west, sleeping in the rough and riding the rails,
just like someone in a story. Father had known how to take care of
himself—he'd had to, of course; he hadn't had a slave then.
“Thank you for
considering my welfare, Sir,” Martin said softly. “I appreciate
how much you care for me.”
Henry bumped him
with his shoulder in place of the embrace he wanted to give him. They
walked the rest of the way home in companionable quiet. At the house,
Paul let them in, glassy-eyed and smelling of alcohol.
Henry shrugged off
his coat into Paul's hands and turned to Martin. “Is he drunk? Are
the slaves having a party? Did you know?”
“Keep it down,
Sir,” Martin said, laughing. “Don't wake the house!”
“Can I go? To the
slaves' party?”
Martin steered him
toward the staircase. “Why don't you let everyone have their little
drinking party, Sir, and then we'll come down at midnight to set off
the fireworks?” Paul was not looking, so Martin leaned in and
licked the curve of Henry's ear. “I'll keep you busy until then,
Sir, I promise I will.”
Martin was
especially playful and coquettish, licking Henry everywhere and
paying extra attention to his nipples, which Henry appreciated very
much. Martin straddled his hips and rode him, digging his knees into
Henry's sides. Henry came, and then Martin knelt over Henry's face
and fucked his mouth while Henry fingered his sticky hole.
They knew it was
midnight when they heard the shouts and explosions from all over the
city. They quickly redressed and went downstairs for their coats, and
then to the service yard, where the household's slaves had gathered
with champagne and fireworks and were just finishing singing Auld
Lang Syne.
Caught mid-revelry,
the slaves all looked at Henry with carefully blank faces.
“Does it ruin it
if I'm here?” Henry asked. “Tell the truth.”
“Of course not,
Sir,” said Paul.
“It's just a
surprise, Sir,” said Katie.
Randolph held out a
match-safe. “Do us the honor of lighting the first fireworks, Sir.”
Henry did, a whole
string of firecrackers that went off rapid-fire. He threw them to the
middle of the yard, wary of getting his fingers blown off and
laughing. Martin dared to squeeze his hand, just for a moment, and if
any slave saw, they gave no sign. The slaves drank champagne from the
Blackwell crystal and Henry wondered about this but said nothing;
they would have gotten permission from Timothy, and if Timothy
thought it was all right, then he supposed that it was. He drank a
glass of champagne, too.
It came out that
Timothy had spent ten dollars on the fireworks, a huge sum just to
burn to ash, and all were most appreciative of the luxury.
“Your house is so
generous, Sir,” said Ruby, an overly-talkative girl Henry thought
he remembered was a scullery maid. “Every day I'm grateful I belong
to Mr. Blackwell and not one of these other high-and-mighty
so-and-sos.”
Henry liked knowing
this, that his family were good slave owners, the sort that slaves
preferred.
Slaves from other
houses came by to wish their compatriots a happy new year, to see the
fireworks, to gossip. Most didn't notice Henry was there and their
behavior was free and natural. It turned out that Billy had a girl, a
maid called Jane who belonged to the Slatterys next door, and he
waltzed her around the yard while the others sang a dance tune that
Henry did not know.
There was quite a
crowd in the yard, twenty people or more at any given time. Henry
recognized most of the faces of his own family's slaves but was, as
always, a bit iffy on putting names to the maids. The slaves visiting
from other houses seemed somewhat deferential to the Blackwell
slaves, lending credence to what Ruby had said about the Blackwells
being good owners.
There was an
elaborate firework, tiers and pinwheels and a tail of braided fuses,
that was carried into the middle of the yard by Billy and Paul and
lit by little Johnny. The pinwheels spun, shooting white and green
sparks, while a fountain went off at the center of the structure and
spewed forth red stars. The maids and Johnny waved lit sparklers.
Henry yawned. It was
very cold and he wanted to curl up with Martin and sleep. He nudged
Martin and turned for the door, and they went inside and up the
stairs. Martin undressed him and he climbed into bed naked. Martin
undressed himself, put on his pajamas, and took their laundry
downstairs. When he returned, he stripped off the pajamas and got
under the covers.
“Do you have any
New Year's resolutions, Henry?” Martin whispered, stroking Henry's
hair.
Henry turned to rub
his cold nose against Martin's chest and nestled closer. “Hmm. To
have more sex,” he suggested. Martin snickered. “To be braver,
maybe.”
“What do you
mean?”
“Not to worry so
much about what everyone thinks. Not to worry so much about whether
everyone will figure out that I'm some sort of queer.”
“I'm sure it
doesn’t matter,” Martin said. “You're going to be a very
important man one day.”
“I don’t care
about being important,” Henry insisted. “I don’t care about
business or society. None of that matters. You matter, us
together. That’s all I care about.” He lifted his head off
of Martin's chest so he might look him in the eye, defiant.
Martin chuckled and
eased his head back down with soothing strokes. “All right, Henry.
I believe you.”
“What about you?
What are your resolutions?”
“Might I also
resolve to have more sex?” They both laughed. “But, really, all I
want to do is to make you glad you chose me for your own. I never
want you to regret that, Henry.”
Henry could not
imagine any circumstance that would make him seriously unhappy with
Martin. “I won't,” Henry promised him. “I could never regret
it.”
Henry made a further
resolution, though he didn’t share it with Martin: he resolved to
find a way to tell Martin how he felt in the new year. Sometimes he
imagined that it was obvious, that Martin already knew. After all,
he’d given Martin his heart the moment he’d laid eyes on him. It
had been foolish and reckless, but he’d had no choice, and he
didn’t regret it, couldn’t possibly. He hesitated to lay himself
bare, however, without feeling more certain Martin would reciprocate.
How horrible it would be to risk declaring his feelings only to have
Martin hesitate, look embarrassed for him, and say, You’re such
a kind master, Sir. I’m very lucky, his pity devastating.
But even if Martin
were to say the words back to him, risks of a different sort would
entail. If his love was returned, he was sure the joy of it would
spill out of him. If he was showing love with every glance, every
utterance, exposure and humiliation seemed inevitable. More than
anything, he wanted to be stalwart and brave and face his fears of
ridicule because Martin deserved a man who was bold and unafraid, but
they had to be safe, too, and Henry didn’t trust his own
discretion.
His gut and heart
argued for a dramatic, romantic declaration, and the sooner the
better, but he knew it would be risky, at best. Martin, who was very
strict about proper behavior outside of the bedroom, might not
appreciate any such ardent proclamation anyway. The person who would
best be able to tell him whether or not it was a good idea to say the
words was Martin himself, but obviously there was no way for Henry to
ask his advice on this matter.
Besides, he needed
to start making decisions for himself.
He would think about
it, seriously think, and he’d figure something out. In the
meantime, he would be loving and kind and generous and above all
deserving, and would hope Martin could read between the lines and
discern his intent. For now, he could demonstrate the depth of his
feeling without saying the words. He felt confident the new year
would present opportunities to say I love you if he would only
look for them.
Settled on this
course of action, Henry smiled against Martin’s skin and let Martin
draw him closer still. He petted Martin's chest, possessive and fond,
and fell asleep to the steady slow beats of his heart.
TO BE CONTINUED…
Ganymede Quartet Book 3 coming in
March 2015
Blackwell Family
Henry Blackwell & Martin
Hiram Blackwell & Timothy
Louisa Wilton Blackwell & Pearl
Cora Blackwell
Wilton Family
Gilbert Wilton & Harold
Virginia Wilton & Dolly
Bette Wilton & Vera
Jesse Wilton & Russ
Reggie Wilton & Benjamin
Eli Carmichael & Owen
Lyle Benson
Darwin Hatch
Blackwell Slaves
Nurse: Esther
Butler: Randolph
Footmen: Paul, Billy
Housekeeper: Dora
Cook: Bertie
Scullery Maids: Vida, Ruby
Chambermaids: Peggy, Delia, Katie
Parlor Maids: Lucy, Ruth, Ellen
Laundress: Mary
Laundry Maid: Sally
Gardener: Pat
Coachmen: Old Bob, Jack
Grooms: Jerry, Arthur
Stable boys: Little Bob, Danny
Errand Boy: Johnny
Algonquin School
Walter Addison & Harvey
Jeremy Blankenship & Ray
Joshua Brand & Miles*
Louis Briggs & Peter*
Freddie Caldwell & Tom*
Albert DeWitt & Stuart*
Randall Fox & Howard
Wendell Franklin & Ralph*
Maurice Gaines & Ollie
Daniel Hollingsworth & Allen
Gordon Lovejoy & Julian*
David Maxwell & Alex*
Adam Pettibone & Sam
Charles Ross & Simon*
Victor Spence & Will*
Robert Townsend & Dick*
Philip van Houten & Davey*
*Henry’s
friends
Thanks
to Leta Blake, Ajax Bell and Anne-Marie for reading, critiquing and
making good suggestions. Thanks to Pun for encouragement. Thanks to
Nozman Glass for patiently listening to me talk about Henry and
Martin for these many months.
Thanks
to everyone who has read, reviewed and responded to the Ganymede
Quartet books so far. I wasn’t sure anyone beyond my close friends
would want to read this story, and I am so pleased and honored by the
response Henry and Martin have received.
Darrah
Glass is a writer and generally inquisitive person who likes her
fantasies to be as historically accurate as possible. She loves
research, sex scenes, and researching sex scenes. She’s married and
happily childless, does yoga, never cleans her house, likes shoes and
toenail polish, and is vain about her hair. As far as her priorities
are concerned, she’d rather write than do just about anything else,
and she drives a 15-year-old car but carries really nice purses.
Darrah
previously published fanfiction under the name velvetglove. The books
and side stories of the Ganymede Quartet are her first
published original works.
GANYMEDE QUARTET SERIES
A
Superior Slave (Ganymede Quartet Book 0.5)
A
Most Personal Property (Ganymede Quartet Book 1)
A
Proper Lover (Ganymede Quartet Book 2)
A
Master’s Fidelity (Ganymede Quartet Book 2.5)